I went to have my dinner at The Curve today.
They have so many choices there, until we don’t know what to have for dinner.
Okay wait, before I talk about the food, I wanna talk about car park.
We park at Cineleisure and I saw this very funny parking lot.
Okay, well, maybe you have seen it before and think that I am very ’sam pat‘.
But please, let me talk about it, I think it is funny and cute.

Okay, I let the picture to do the talking..

How come? Why is it they have parking lots for female single driver only?
Anyone care to explain it to me?

And then as I walk, I saw this yummy hot cake..

Argh, irresistible!

Okay okay, I’ll go to the foods now.
The place we have our dinner is at Vivo.
The food there are delicious, yet very affordable.
In my opinion, it is quite worth it.

My friend order a set meal, but I forgotten what it is. Cost around Rm10+..

The Set Meal

Soup (I forget what soup is this)

Garlic Bread.. Very crunchy, better than Pizza Hut’s.

Ham & Mushroom Baked Rice.
Turkey ham & fresh mushroom slice spread over a bed of butter rice, covered with creamy tomato sauce & mozzarella cheese.

Add on Cake of The Day for Rm 4.90

Tiramisu

Carbonara - Rm 14.80
A blend of fresh mushrooms and turkey ham cooked with heavy cream & parmesan cheese. Love the cheeseeee in this pasta. The cheese taste so nice and heavy..

Creamy Mushroom - Rm 8.90
Fresh shitake mushrooms slow fried with butter & garlic finish with home-style creamy tomato sauce. Okay, this is nice. I love the garlic. Very creamy.

Lamb with Rice.. Rm 12.90. Not very nice I say.
Not tasty enough.

Pizza - Meaty Monster - Rm 17.90 (10″ Thin Crust)
100% meat! Chicken bologna, turkey ham, pepperoni & sausages.
The pizza is not bad, but I found that there is another place which serves better pizza.
Don’t wanna tell you guys first. Hehe..

Okay, I’m tired already.. Thats all for today.. Will continue tomorrow..
Good night!

To Mr. Selfish Boyfriend,

I look fine today, I talk and laugh today..
But that doesn’t mean that I’m really fine with it and am not sad anymore and will love you to death and wont leave you.
I just don’t wanna be sad, and that is why I don’t look sad.
I don’t call it a quit now, and that means you still have the chance.
Well, the chance are always there, but I don’t think you realize it.
You either take it or leave it, I don’t really mind anymore.
I just want to remind you that I can live without you and there will always be a better one for me.
So, if you want to let someone else to take me, I am fine with it.
That’s all I want to say..

Okay la, enough for the sad sad thing.. I got happy stuff to tell..
_______________________________________________________________

Woot, Danny and Doraemon..

You all know ah, I think DannyOne comment on my blog la..
I guess it is him la, and I am so damn happy, ok..
Man, I like very very happy until like syok sendiri like that.
Sorry la Danny if I ter-scare you, but I couldn’t control my happy-ness.
You know there’s once I saw you at the Connaught Oldtown Kopitiam.
I keep on staring at you man, and I guess you know it.
I wanted to take tandatangan one, but I terlalu scared already.
Aih, I wonder you remember or not la..
Nevermind la.. Come more to my blog, comment more, then make me happy happy gila..
If its not him, then I malu gila and sad gila already..
Please tell me its you.. *pray hard*

Sorry for my rojak language, just feel like using it..

I want to curse, so please, excuse me for being rude.

I am so fucking emo right now. I don’t know I am emo-ing abut what, but I am damn emo. I need my old friend sitting beside me right now and hug me.

What the fuck!!! This stupid feeling fucking kill me.
I want to hug a friend now, and I want is so badly.

This feeling is very familiar…
Just exactly the same. The feeling of being left behind by the one I truly love.
Damn, I feel so lonely.

I want to cry. I want to cry. I want to cry.
I fucking want to hide from everyone. I don’t want to talk. I only want a hug.

I knew it!! I knew it!!
Two years ago, you love me a little, and after two years, it is still the same.
Okay, you do love me, I know. 4 out of 10 maybe.
This is so hard for me, but well , you don’t fucking care.

You never change. NEVER!!
You are who you are. You will always be the selfish you.
I don’t hope for you to change anymore. I might as well give up.

My hand is full of blisters, because I am the only one holding so tight.
Goodbye.

Edited:
You don’t even wanna comment or talk about it because you are so god damn afraid that people might say about you. You don’t even fucking dare to admit your wrong in front of others. You are also the c-o-w-a-r-d!! I am fucking piss off and tired of the way you are. Fucker!!

There is so many things going in my mind just now that I want to blog it out.
But it seems so hard now when I’m sitting right in front of this computer.

He went for some pilot interview just now.
Being a pilot is his back up, second best choice for him.
His parents support him and actually want him to be a pilot.
Being a pilot looks cool, yes, I admit.
And being a pilot can brings home quite a lot of money. (Which is why his parents want him to be a pilot.)

Do I want him to be a pilot? It is hard for me to answer this.
If he couldn’t pass this semester, he might leave to New Zealand or Australia by July.
One of my friends told me that pilot can f*** any stewardess he wants.
Sorry if my words hurt anyone, but this is what my friend told me.
Even if pilot cant f*** any stewardess he wants, I guess maybe some of the stewardess will also come to the pilot itself.
I am not saying that my boyfriend is handsome, but his look are quite good and he is young. No one can guarantee that stewardess wont stick to him.
And I cant guarentee he wont stick to stewardess either.

He loves to be pilot. He wants to be a pilot.
I want so much to support him, but I just cant.
I don’t have faith in him and I don’t trust him.

I trusted him before, again and again, and until today, I actually don’t trust him anymore.
I trust him sooo many times, yet, he destroy the trust I have in him.
He broke his promises, cheated on me, and hurt me too many times.
It is so hard for me to trust him again, especially in this situation, where there are loads of stewardess waiting for him.

See, I do love him a lot. More than he love me, I know that. And I am not ready to let him go yet. He don’t love me that much, I know that too.
Well, from the start till now, he is still the same. He don’t actually love me with his heart, like I do. A girl just know it, how much the boy loves her.
He don’t have to explain and try hard, I know you don’t really love me.
It is like a job, fetching me, coming to my house, calling me, and stuff.
This is not from his heart, this is not because he loves me, this is more like a task to him.

He know truly what the heck I want, what I need, what I love. Yet, he didn’t do it.
Because he don’t love me enough. To think of it, he seldom use his heart to make me smile. Well, the same things I told him, he change for like a week or so, and then he become the old him again. Too many times, till I am bored of saying.
His mistakes, I forgive but not forget. Sometimes, I thought to myself, maybe I should let go last time, then I will have lesser heart break.
But I love him too much, how can I let go?

He knows my weakness - love him, thats why he attack me. He knows that I wont leave him, thats why he don’t care. I know, some guys are like that. Or maybe I should say, humans are like that. They never appreciate things they have.
From what I see, I think our relationship wont last forever. I already have the picture of leaving him someday. Not because I don’t love him, but is because I love him too deeply.

I know you will read this post. If you love to be pilot, then do it.
Don’t because of me and let go your dream. I am not your wife, so you don’t have to do it just because of me. Just follow your heart and do what you like. I am serious.

Thinking of him no longer be by my side and leave me all alone just breaks my heart.
I want to cry…………

Meiji, Meiji, Meiji,
I’ve gone crazy…
Argh, don’t know what I’m trying to say..

Ok, went to Popular and bought my Meiji biscuit.
Panda biscuit………. Taste nice, smell nice, look nice..
I am not really obsessed with it, but this panda biscuit can really do a great snack.
A healthy snack I supposed.. Definitely healthier than chips which contain tons of msg.
And its very cute I tell you.. Okay, let me show you the picture.

Yan Yan - Double Cream (strawberry & chocolate)

Hello Panda - Vanilla Flavour
I looovvveeee this vanilla, taste damn good I tell you..

Hello Panda - Double Chocolate

All of the above cost around 2 something.. I forgot the price already..

Nyek nyek, me eating the Yan Yan biscuit..
I have not open the panda biscuit yet because I don’t wanna finish it up so early.

Mr. Boyfriend’s panda biscuit is way bigger than mine.
He loves the panda more than me..
He is absolutely obsessed with the panda biscuit.

–> Look at him!! He damn enjoy his panda..

I always love miniatures. Don’t you think they are just so cute.
I especially love food miniatures. I am more into things, and not dolls. I don’t quite like miniature dolls. There are loads of miniatures from chair to frying pan to postbox, just anything you could think about.

And recently I saw this very nice miniature accesories by Miss Bibi in a magazine, and so I decided to search around the net.
Miss Bibi do really has incredible miniatures which I think is really stunning.
These pieces are in silver or in vermiel (gold plate over silver).
Okay, let me show you how lovely they are..

BROOCH

Candle

Frame

Mirror

Rifle

Telephone

EARRINGS

Clock

Gun

Knife

Lantern

RING

Heel

Mag

NECKLACE

Lamp

Tool

Saw

How was that?
Enthusiastic?
Ah, I really want one of those. From what I saw in the magazine, all of these are kinda expensive. Not something I can afford.
Maybe you can, and would like to buy one of them for me. Hehe..

*waiting eagerly by the corner*

Daddy,

Brother called mom just now and he is back home already.
Indeed, he is in lock up and indeed, he is selling pirated vcd.
I couldn’t really accept this. How could my brother sell pirated vcd?
I know you will definitely be very upset, so do I.

I don’t think that mom and Vincent will actually be upset about this.
Because I ask that stupid Vincent how now, and he say what how.
And he say me stupid.

He is your son, and I really care and treat him as my brother.
Even he is half my brother, he is still my brother.
He always dissapoint you, and I don’t know why.
He never listens to you and he never studies.
But you still love him, I know..

I wanted to sms him, and tell him stop doing that.
I want to let him you you will definetely get very upset.
I want to let hime knpw what he is doing is not right and he wont have a good future doing that.
But I dare not. Because I am younger than him, I am afraid that he might not like it.

We are apart of you, and he is apart of you.
You know you always are the first in my life and since he is apart of you, I want him to be good. I just don’t want him to be like this forever.

I know his life is a lot tougher than mine, he lost you, and his mom is not by his side.
But he should think. He should…
Should I sms him, daddy?

Ching Ming is coming and I’m very happy. Couldn’t get to visit you last year due to Ah Pak’s death.
Come to my dream, I’m waiting..

Edited: He sms-ed me and call me not to worry. He promise me to change his job and ask me to take care. He will find me after he has a new job. I hope he keep his promise..

My elder brother is missing from home for like 2 to 3 days already.
This morning my aunt told me that, and I am very worry about him.

Was at college when my aunt told me, and I couldn’t hold back my tears.
Daddy come to my mind and I’m sure he don’t want anything happen to brother.
I hope he is save from any harm and be back as soon as possible.

No one knows who is his friends and where he actually work.
We don’t even have a way to find me..
Please please please be back home..

Edited:
Heard from mom that brother might be in lokap (lock up).
This really scare me. Not sure whether how true it is, but she said that he is selling pirated Vcds. How could this be? What if it is true?

If it is really true, then I’ll be very upset.
Don’t he has a brain to think what is right and what is wrong?
If daddy is here, I’m sure he will make him die one more time.
He is always like that, never think of the consequences, and I know daddy will be very dissapointed.
I just wish he will come back home.

I’ve been tagged by my brother, Vincent .
Ok, actually I asked him to tag me because no one tag me before. I sound so desperate..

“Rules & Regulations: Each player of this game starts out by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. After you do that, leave them each a comment letting them know you tagged them and to read your blog! “
1. I don’t like to bath and wash my hair at the same time. I like to only wash my hair without weting my body, and hours later only I go to bath without wetting my hair.

2. I like to put my leg on the table while I am using the computer.

3. When I nap in the afternoon, I never go to my bed. I nap on my sofa.

4. I don’t know how to burp. I mean I don’t know how to make the burp thing. If you call me to burp, I cant do it. It will come out when it want to and I have no control over it.

5. When I am outside eating, I am so use to take off my shoes, put my leg on the chair and cross it. Almost every time. And now it even happens when I am in the class. (terrible)

6. When I am using the sit toilet and I feel that it is dirty, I don’t sit on it and pee. I squat a little bit, and pee.. Hehe..

And I have to tag 6 bloggers now?
I have no one to tag..

Okay, I tag..
1. Vvens
2. Wah Wah
3. no one
4. no one
5. no one
6. no one

Poor me.. I don’t have friends..

I always talk only about my mom in front of my friends.
It is hard for me to actually talk about my dad, especially with those friends who are not so close to me.
My friends (mostly new friends) will ask what my mom work as and I find this very difficult to answer. And I usually answer them she is a business woman.

And when they ask, ‘What about you dad?’, this is even more difficult then the question before. It is very hard for me to answer them.
I find it very awkward if I answer them because they will feel very sorry and the situation will go weird.
How should I answer them?
He is not here anymore? I am afraid some will ask me where he has gone.
He died? The word died is not nice to me.
He pass away? Still sounds very weird.

I will answer them ‘Hah-?’ and usually my close friends will hint to them.
It is not easy to actually tell people thaty my dad is not here anymore.
And sometimes when people ask me what my dad work as, I will just tell him the job he used to work last time and not telling them he has gone.

I don’t bother to explain to every one actually. I don’t think I need to.