Happy 50th Merdeka to all Malaysian.. I’m quite happy actually. There is a lot I want to say about our country but I don’t know how to say it. Never mind, I’ll just forget about it.
I didn’t went to countdown last night, not interested at all. Its too crowded and to me, it seems a little scary. Nowadays those Malay youngsters seems to hate us Chinese, I don’t know why. Nanti pergi countdown kena pukul, tak baik lah.. Of course, not all Malays are like that, I’ve saw some really good ones too.

Alright, I’ll cut the crap. I went to my friend’s house last night, just to have a little fun.
His family is rich and they have damn nice cars. CLS, BMW 5 Series, March, and one more I couldn’t remember the name.

This CLS is damn cool.

His dog’s cage is so big…

… they even has a fan for the dog. Such a lucky dog.

After playing at my friend’s big house, we went for steamboat session.

My friends, Teik Wei and Ah Loo.

Kok Foo and Abel.

Blur us.. (cute him) Hehe..

After the Steamboat we went back to my friend’s house and watch a freaking movie, Hostel Part 2. This movie is about killing. Rich guys buy people to torture and kill them. It is more like bidding, whoever bids the highest price get to kill that person. All this happens when people went to that hostel. The one in charge will scan their passport and start sending it to rich guys to bid. A little bit like Saw where they torture people, but Saw was way better. Hostel was a little boring, only half of the part from the movie is show killing or torturing where as Saw show it in the beginning. Hostel’s storyline was ok only, kind of boring.
But there is this gross part or interesting you can call it, where a girl chop off the penis of a guy. That scene is like so omg, that damn penis looks so damn real. Other parts, you watch it yourself if you can get the movie. Some pictures to show you guys..

Alright, thats it. It seems that I’m a little crazy when I love to watch disgusting movie so much.

I went to Connaught’s pasar malam for shopping stalling (since they are stalls, not shops).
See, I’m this poor little girl with not much money and at the same time want to shop so much and so it turns to stalling at pasar malam. I couldn’t remember when is the last time I really really shop and buy whatever I like. Few years back I guess. Ever since my mom stop giving me allowance, money is such a big deal to me. Rm30 for a top and I will like, shit lah, why so expensive. Sigh, hard life I’m having. Hehe, but since I work at Cineleisure and have my pay, so I went for a little shopping stalling. On my way, I saw this 100 Yen stall selling some stuff like ice-cream.

They call it Snow Ice.

Chocolate flavor.

Can you see how soft and fluffy the ice is? It really looks and taste like snow ice. I really love the texture. However, I find the taste of chocolate not so nice. I only like the ice. I will try other flavor next time. Really a must try.
Cost Rm4.90 at 100 Yen shop.

I’ll be working again this Saturday with Shaun.
By then, I’ll have more money to shop. *evil grin*

It is so hard for me to express my feeling. Am I too demanding or is he giving me too little. All I ever want is only love and care from him. I’ve always been dreaming for a perfect guy, or is there no such thing as a perfect guy? Since small, to me Love is an important thing. My other half will be the most important person in my life (since dad is gone). Maybe one of the reasons is that dad is not here anymore to take care of me and mom don’t care about me either. No one will ever love and take care of me, other than my other half, or at least I think so. I used to watch fairy tales when I was a little girl and watch love movies when I grew older, and I even read love stories. You can see, love is a big part in my life. I don’t think I can live without it, really.
Perhaps all these years of love stories and fairy tales turn me into who I am today.

I want my guy to make me feel happy, make me feel special, make me the one he love most, and make me feel the romance in the relationship. However, he fail to do so.
So I thought, maybe I’m too naive and there is no such guy in this world.
But boy I was so wrong, I did saw some really nice guy who treat their girlfriend so well and I really envy them a lot. The word, ‘I don’t know how’ is how he escape from all these which he might think it is useless to do.

I stick to him, I cling to him, maybe thats why he don’t appreciate me. But when I don’t care about him so that he will appreciate me more, he might not like it because I am not a good girlfriend anymore. He is leaving very soon but I don’t see that he really wanna spent time with me. I don’t see that he will miss me, I don’t see that he loves me so much that he is sad to leave me, I don’t see that he will worry about me when I’m here alone without me, I see nothing.
Maybe he will find a girl there, a girl who is so sweet, so cute, with no temper and do and listen everything he says. I’m not sure, most guys are like that.
Even if I don’t show temper and listen to what he says and act like a dumb girl, I still don’t think the way he treat me will every change.

Its been 3 years and all this while I wish demand for surprises. Things get so worse till I have to demand for it, and even when I do, there is no surprises. Maybe 3 surprises in 3 years.
I sound so damn cheap to demand for surprises. I don’t think I need it anymore, since it don’t come from his heart anyway. I know I might sound clingy and demanding to some of you, but which girl who doesn’t want true love from their partner?

Yah, whatever fuck. You are leaving and you always don’t care.
And as always, saying that I don’t wanna care for you anymore in my heart but still I do.
Am I too stupid to love you are what.
It hurts so much sometimes that I feel like dying.

Its dad birthday today. I’ve actually lost count on how many years old he should be.
Let me have a count……… 49. He is 49 now and I don’t even know that. I always thought that he is 42, because when he left, he is 42. This is the last present I get for my dad.

I really like this a lot. I told him that the bald grandpa represents him because he is bold. So when he gets old, he sure looks like that grandpa, and the lady beside is my mom. This is how they look like when they get old. But things always never turn out the way I wanted. I can never see him turn old and he can never see me grow.

Dad
I saw a poem I wrote for you long ago but I totally forgot about it. So here it is, a simple poem for you as a birthday present.

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Daddy you left so soon
Before I could say goodbye
I found myself wondering if you knew
I had these thoughts of you in my mind.

Daddy do you remember when
I was your tiny little girl
I will pretend to fall asleep on the sofa
So that you will carry me to my bed.

Daddy do you remember when
We went shopping together
You will always ask me
Do I want to buy any toy?

Daddy do you remember when
Every time I cross the road
You will always give me your last finger
And call me to hold tightly so that I can cross the road safely.

Daddy, do you remember when
I fall sick
I refused to eat medicine
And you will always stand by a sweet for me.

Daddy do you remember when
I was bully by friends in school
I will call you up
And no matter how busy you are, you will come straight to me.

Daddy do you remember when
You show me how you care for me in so many ways
Sometimes without saying a word
But I know you always do.

Daddy do you remember leaving me
That very terrible night
I’m sitting beside you, and not knowing
You would be gone forever without saying goodbye.

Daddy I remember these things
You should see your little girl now
Growing up each day
Missing you each day.
Daddy I hope you know
My life is so empty without you
But one thing.. you should know
As I did, as I grew..

Daddy’s love is something I can never forget
And when I look at the sky
I know you are there
Watching over me.
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Hehehe..
My baby cousin stays with me this two days, but he is already back at home now.
He gets naughtier and naughtier every time I see him but I still love him that much.
He looks like a monk or a gangster?

I went to watch Secret yesterday with a bunch of friends. I never plan to watch this movie actually. No offense to those who like Jay, but I am not really interested in his movie except Initial D which is a must watch. So since my friends asked me to go and I’ve saw some review on this movie that this is a good one, I just give it a try.

Well, I must say this is indeed a good movie. Totally not what I expected.
I know this is a love story, I sweet story, but the whole story line just shocked me.
This is a great movie, really. Jay gives a very different feel in this movie.
He is humorous and cute (the way he act, not his look). The whole movie is fill up with piano and I just love the sound of piano so much. I’ve like piano since I was small although I suck at it.
I’m not sure, maybe it will bore some guys but all of us like it. But if you like piano and music just like me, I think you should really try this out.

I saw this poster at Time Square’s cinema. I cartoon by Disney and its in Chinese I think.
It looks really cute and I’m waiting for it, I really wanna watch.

Cute right? Yes or No?

I really like to watch cartoon a lot recently, I don’t know why. I guess that they really are producing a lot of nice cartoons, like Shark Tales which I’ve watch for more than three times. Haha, Shark Tales are so funny. Chicken Little, Cars, Finding Nemo, and lots more. Recently they have Ratatouille which I have waited for so many months, like more than six months.
I’ve watch it and I must also say, I like it a lot. Nice graphic, nice story. I just love the whole thing, so funny and cute. I don’t wanna talk so much, I just love it, and I love Linguini :), I don’t know why.

After the movie we went to have our dinner at Yulek Kampung Cheras Baru, Restaurant Kam Kitchen.
The food there was really nice, and not really that expensive.

Fishy that I like a lot when I was small. Every time when my family and I went to Chinese Restaurant, my brother and I will definitely stand and look at those fishy.

The Choi Tam, I love this vege.

The taufu.

The ‘Three Steam Egg’, contain normal egg, salty egg, and I don’t know whats that name call - blacky egg.

My favorite dish, lai you har kau, I tell you, the yellow lai you is damn good.

Pork ribs.

I don’t know the address of this Restaurant, and I don’t know the way either because my friend brought me there. Ok, I guess thats all.

This is a pink pencil case I made quite long ago. It went missing and I just found it the other day, laying in a cupboard. It is still a bit dirty even after I wash it.

I work for this Comiworld event that is held in Cineleisure.
The job is quite easy actually because there are not much people going to this event.
What I do is just giving people brochures and leaflets and stay at some game stalls.
Nothing much to do, and I’m actually quite free. Hehe..

Some pictures..

Angel and Devil.

Me, Bomberman (a friend of mine), and Shaun.

Me and Bomberman

Shaun and me.

Big Flintstone Shaun. Haha..

Group picture..

Naughty Bomberman. He is so cute..

Last but not least,
Look at my kesian leg, got scratch by a don’t know what its name.

And both our salary add together is Rm600++.. Muahaha, for only three days.
I’m going to shop real soon, and oh ya, I finish my finals and my holiday is here.

I’ll be working at Cineleisure for some comic event this Saturday till Monday and I have 2 final papers on Tuesday. Damn bad timing but good pay, so no choice. I’m like so damn broke now.
I’ll be working with Shaun too, but not the same floor.

The one in charge is a friend of mine and he asked me to join the ambassador so that he will have enough contestant. Just go up the stage pose pose and then answer something and thats it I guess. If I lose I got Rm50, If I win then got 500 game points and some cash voucher thingy.
At first, I thought lose is better because I can have cash but he told me the prizes is better.
The 500 game point is equal to Rm500. If I can sell it, my pocket will have few hundreds extra.

I talk so much for what? For you all to vote me so I can have extra few hundred.
I need money, I really do. I know it takes a little time to sign up and stuff but just please do me this favor. I know that I’m not pretty and I don’t care, I want money.
Please please please please please please vote for me. I will be so grateful for that vote you give me.
*puppy eyes big big with tears*

This is the forum link. Just press, very easy.

I saw this little red car when heading to a place near HELP to collect his passport.
I don’t know what car this is, but it looks quite a lot like a mini cooper.
It looks so cute with that backdoor. Shaun say it looks like an ice-cream car.
How I wish I have it.