A Little Update

Hmm, I’ve been going out late at night lately.. For some birthday session, yam cha session, and movie session. Heh, and also at last I cut my hair.

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The before.. My fringe is so so long, its months since I last cut my hair.

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I Don’t Care

I always believe in karma. I will treat people the way they treat me. If you are good to me, I will definitely be good to you. Its Ok to treat me like a piece of shit, because at least I can see clearly. I will not goddamn care the both of you and never can I be true friends with both of you. The very least, not now. Never can I trust the both of you. You and him, is just same. SAME. You never once care for me, so right now, this moment, I will never bloody care for you.

I will not delete whatever shit I write. I will not care and give a fucking damn like the way u did not care. Hear me right, I don’t fucking care. Get piss off all you want, whatever shit it is, I DON’T CARE.

Tag Me Me

When you got tagged, you have to add your name to people who had done the tag and and let the list grow!

Those Who DunnitLimadang.com
RamblingMoo.com
blogginginmypyjamas
StylewithPassion
ChinneeqDora-zooropazoo
BabyshernFarah
Bani gundu
Frankensteina
Diyanazman
Najmyhana ni mo naiLindoshSlebetcepoterh
UmmYdayana
ELLE LIZA~
Scarlet Kiss
Sycosuchitra
woobee
Burgers for Breakfast
Constantly * Changing
Metamorphosis
Sin Yee
Michelle @ my-michelle.com/blog
Peggychow.com

About You
First name – Peggy
Nickname – Everyone calls me Peggy
Name you wish you had – I super love my name. :)
What do people normally mistake your name as – Some pronounce is as ‘pek-ki’..
Birthday – 5th November 1988
Birthplace – Hospital.. :P
Time of Birth – 11 something in the morning..
Status – Single and I’m available.. heh
Zodiac sign – Scorpio

Your Appearance
How tall are you – 154 cm.. its not even funny
Wish you were taller – Do you wish you were taller if you were me?
Eye color – Dark brown
Eye color you want – Brown
Natural Hair color – Dark Brown
Current Hair color – Brown
Short or long hair – Long
Ever dye your hair a bizarre color – Nope, I’m a good girl.
Curly,Straight,Wavy – Straight
Last time you did something dramatic with your hair – Cut from damn long to damn short
Glasses or contacts – My eyesight is very good
Do you wear make-up – Sometimes, very light make up
Ever had hair extensions – Nope
Paint your nails – Always, till my nail turn yellow

In the opposite gender
What color eyes – Brown
What color hair – Brown
Shy or Outgoing – Outgoing
Looks or personality – Looks first then personality..
Sexy or Cute – Sexy
Serious or Fun – Fun
Older or Younger than you – Older
A turn on – Nice body
A turn off – Smokers

This or that
Flowers or Chocolate – Flowers, I don’t really eat chocolate
Pepsi or Coke – Coke
Rap or Rock – Er….. rap?
Relationship or One night stand – Relationship
School or Work – School
Love or Money – Love
Movies or Music – Music
Country or City – I tak tahu
Sunny or Rainy days – Windy.. lol
Friends or Family – Family

Have you ever
Lied – Have you?
Stolen something – Yes
Smoked – Never ever ever
Hurt someone close to you – Yes
Broke someones heart – Yes
Wondered what was wrong with you – Yes
Wish you were a prince/princess – Yes.. -.- What kind of question is this?
Liked someone who was taken – Yes
Shaved your head – No, I’m not as brave as Britney Spears
Been in love – Yes
Used chopsticks – Yes
Sang in the mirror to yourself – No

Favorites
Flower – Rose
Candy – I don’t eat candy
Song – Love songs
Scent – Something fruity
Movies – Love comedy
Singer – No specific one..
Junk food – Potato chips
Website – www.peggychow.com haha..
Lotion – Nivea whitening lotion
Animal – Dogs and pigs
Ever cried over someone – Yes
Do you think you’re attractive – Sometimes

If you had to choose a fairytale as your life what would you choose – Enchanted.. haha
Do you play any sports – Badminton

The rules:-Link to your tagger and post these rules.- List (8) random facts about yourself and tag (8) people.

1. I learn piano when I’m small but I do not know how to play it.

2. I have to go pee before I go to sleep.

3. I am kind of a messy person.

4. I don’t know how to swim.

5. I’m afraid of heights.

6. I’m afraid of being alone in the dark because I’m afraid of ghost.

7. I will imagine a bunch of stuff before I fall to sleep.

8. I am weird

Who i want to tag?
Whoever who wanna be tag..

I Know..

You purposely do not want to reply my message last night, I know. I am very disappointed. What is the true reason behind all these? Is it your girlfriend or is it Shaun? Somehow I realize, in all these years, whenever these kind of shits happen, you never seem to stood by me. You are always the one who never listen to me. Now I know that you didn’t trust me at all. How stupid am I to think that you will always be a best friend of mine.
I know why you don’t trust me. Its because of that Jason case, you thought I like him and snatch him from you. Whatever I say, you will never believe me. I did not lie and I can swear to god I did not like Jason. I did not want both of you to break up. I feel very sorry to make you feel this way, I really do. I really have no intention to make you guys break up. I know you don’t trust me, but thats for real.
You told me you did not angry me, you told me its the pass but actually you did not forget about this, right? You always listen to others instead of me. You never give me a chance to tell you what actually happen. All you do is listen to others and not care about me. Why is all this always repeating? I know, Shaun is your friend. I understand why you will choose to trust him. I do admit its my wrong that causes this break up. I didn’t deny. But then again, in all these 3 years me and him together, do you know how much he has done to hurt me? You don’t know what he did to me, because I don’t want to let you know. I don’t want to let people around him or me know what he did that hurt me so much. I don’t want you people to see him as a bad boyfriend. Most of the stuff he do, you do not know. However, whatever shits I did, I guess he will tell you.
For this time, I don’t know what he tell you, but I’m sure it will never be a good thing. Both of you is some what the same. You never ever try to stand in my shoe and try for that little while to see how hurt I am deep inside. Both of you, the people I trust most, somewhat attack me at the same time. I guess I am too blind to see that both of you doesn’t worth my tears at all. A girl that I cry for the most and a guy that I cry for the most. Today, I lost two of my bestfriends. I don’t think I can ever trust both of you anymore. Its a heartbreak. I wish I were never a friend of yours, so I will not met him and will not be so hurt today.
Once again, I learn that no one can be trusted. I once learn this but somehow I forgotten. Today, both of you reminds me again and I will not trust both of you. Not anymore.

p/s: I decide to open this up. Before I put it as a password protected because I care, but now I know I don’t have to, so I will open this up.

So, is this what call friends?

In my heart, you definitely are one of my best buddy. I know you are in a very hard situation, I know you can’t really come out and hang out with me or whatever it is. Every time people tell me how is your situation going, and most of the times, not a very good one, I feel sad for you. I wanna be there for you, but somehow I know you don’t need me.

At first, I really thought you are so busy till the extend where every time I call you out, you will tell me you are busy or even worse, you don’t pick up my calls. I never know what happen till
recently. Now I know, its because your girlfriend hate me so much or is so afraid of I-don’t-know-what, thats why you keep avoiding me. For goodnesssake, what is wrong here? At that moment, I have a boyfriend and he is your bestfriend, what is there to be afraid of? Whats even funnier is that, please, I am goddamnstraight, I only like guys.
Isn’t it something wrong here? I find this so funny, yet so hurt to know that such things happen.

You avoid me till this extend cause of your girlfriend? Just because she thinks this way, you wanna be as silly as her? You are so afraid till you don’t even accept my comments on friendster. Not even a Chinese New Year wish, so unbelievable. But still, to me, its ok that you act this way cause you love her. I understand.
But then, even when recently I broke up with him, you didn’t seem to care at all? You never ask me how am I doing. You never see if I’m ok. All of my friends, who didn’t seem to care much about me actually care for me, and you, didn’t give me damn. Even when I message you first, you never reply. You are the one who brought me and him together, but now when we break, you never care for me. You never did say a single word, not even asking how am I doing.

I don’t care if you see this or not, because this is what I wanna say to you. You are my friend, and I wanna let you know what I am feeling. If you get angry cause of this, then I have nothing to say. I am having such a hard time to move on and I need friends to be there for me, especially you, but then I get nothing from you. You will always be one of my best friend but then I doubt if you will treat me as your friend since she hated it so much.

I am not angry, I am hurt.

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