If you are still here today, then it will be your 50th birthday.
There is so so so much things I wanna say to you, but don’t know how.
Or maybe you already know what I wanna say to you..
I so hope you are by my side, telling me that everything will be alright just like how you say it to me when I’m small.
Happy 50th Birthday and I miss you.
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Omg, I’m having high fever.. :”(
39 Celsius omg..
I’ve ate like 2 Panadols but the fever is still there.
Now I have to wake up in the middle of the night to have Milo just to fill in my stomach.
People who are having fever are not even suppose to drink Milo. :”(
My body has been shivering since this afternoon, halfway through shopping with mom.. -.-
My body is like so hot. :”(
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How much trust do you actually put on people next to you? What is trust? Why do we have to trust people? The more I trust one person, the more hurt I am. People always break the trust another person have on them. I don’t feel like trusting people anymore. Not even a single person. I now realise its better to be a pessimist than an optimist. I trust people with all my heart and yet they break the trust. Isn’t it better when I be a pessimist and think all things negatively because the fact is the real world is this ugly. There isn’t any shits like love, shits like fate, shits like trust, shits like friends, whatever shits that sound so nice but in fact, they doesn’t really exist.
There is no such thing as ‘If we are meant to be together, nothing will break us apart’. This are all bullshits, dogshits, elephantshits, fucking shits. I don’t think I will ever wanna put a trust on someone anymore. I don’t wanna trust him, I don’t wanna trust friends, I don’t wanna trust lecturers, I don’t wanna trust strangers, I don’t even wanna trust my family members. I wanna trust no one. Its the best not trusting people because in the end, you will not get hurt at all. Why wanna trust people and get hurt in the end? Where is the point?
I’m so fucking tired to trust everything people say, to be so fucking naive and think that the people in this world are actually nice people. There are no nice people, only selfish people. Human is the scariest thing ever. I will never put all my trust on anyone anymore. Its better to be alone because no one can hurt you. The thing one can trust is only money.
Its better to protect myself than to let someone else protect me.
They will turn around and walk away anytime.
Trust money, don’t trust human. Human betrays, money don’t.
Its better to hate than to get hurt.
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Sing K –> Singing in Karaoke (in case you are that dumb to know what is sing K)
*I use to mute myself whenever I go sing K with friends but I don’t know since when I’m so addicted to it. I almost go sing K with my friends every week.
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Yay!!!
I finish my one and only paper today.
Mega relieve.
Lucky I did use some time to study or else I’ll be dead.
Its not as hard as I thought but I’m still not sure if I can pass it. My internal marks are quite low. :”(
There’s two international students sitting beside me exchanging answers while the exam is on.
Keep talking and talking, damn distracting.
The very ‘good’ me who cannot tahan anymore go and tell the lecturer when I hand in my paper. Not sure what happen to them later on. Hahaha..
There’s three things on my mind recently.
The first is daddy. Suddenly I miss him a lot. He appears in my mind a lot lately, not sure if the cause is me being moody. I wish I can dream of him at night and he will tell me things will turn out fine.
The second is the usual thing that bothers me. That someone is on my mind almost everyday.
I know what I’ve been thinking is impossible but I just cant stop thinking. By thinking, that is the only time where I can imagine the impossible.
Comes to the third, which is a happy one. :”)
I’m thinking how to furnish my new room. Not that I get the room now, but its only few months away.
By end of the year, I’ll have my own room. I’ve been thinking so so much on the new room. Damn excited loh..
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Very very stress.
My final paper is on the 14th and I seriously know nothing about it.
Not that I don’t want to study, I did try.
But I just don’t understand what am I reading and I can’t seem to concentrate.
A lot of silly silly stuff is bothering me.
I hope I can stop myself from thinking not so important things first and bloody concentrate on my paper.
Stress stress stress…
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