Aha aha, I’m done with ALL my coursework.
My life is so boring I know, never ending whining about my assignments and presentations.
3 more exams to go before I get to totally rest my brain.

I went to Bangsar’s McDonald last night to accompany Ee Cheeng and another friend of mine to study.
While they study, I go online. I know I should be studying too but instead I went online. :’)
I was chatting with few of my friends at msn and I can’t stop laughing.
I keep on haha-ing at the laptop screen and my friends just look at me and laugh.
So embarrassing, haha. Whenever I chat online, my face will have a lot of expressions, be it happy or sad.
But most of the time I’m laughing because my friends are really funny. :’D
Sometimes at home during midnight, when I chat with my friends I keep on laughing like a mad lady until I almost fell of from my chair. Hahahaha..
Not only chatting on msn, even sms-es make me laugh like crazy sometimes.
There’s this one time when I was in the car with Ee Cheeng and Weng Kee, suddenly I burst out laughing non-stop.
Hahaha, they just look at me and laugh. I laugh so hard till I find it so difficult to tell them what I’m laughing about.
Hahaha, I think I’m having some laughing syndrome or shits like that.

Ah, enough of all the laughing. I’m so inseparable with the net, I need to go online every single day. Actually if possible, I want to go online every second, haha. I don’t know since when I’m so addicted to the whole online thing and its getting worse now. A handphone with wifi will be the best for me. :’)
Hmm, I think one of the reason I like to go online is because there are friends who can make me laugh.
I <3 my friends. :')
Not only am I inseparable with the net, I'm inseparable with foods too.
Every night around 12 o'clock, I'll get hungry and I'll tell whoever I'm chatting with that I am hungry.
I know, like telling is gonna help. Haha..
Hungry is one of the word I use most besides tired and boring, haha.
Now its like when I tell my friends that I'm hungry, they will tell me 'expected' or 'as usual'. T____T
I'm always eating and eating and eating.

I'm always hungry and always eating,I always go online, I'm always tired, I'm always feeling boring, and I'm always drinking Milo.
That's me, that's Peggy Chow. T___T
I don't know whats with the Milo thing as well, I think I am a Milo addict now. Milo is my bestfriend, wtf.

Sigh, so lifeless. Enough of all these crapping already.
Woohoo, I'm going for a movie later. I'm watching 'He's just not that into you'. :')
Can you tell I'm feeling kinda happy?
But then I'm afraid to be too happy because I'm afraid there will be other stuff that disappoint me later in the day.
And so I try not to be too happy so that if really there are stuff that disappoint me later on, I wont get too sad.
This is so wtf, I know. Haha, I'm a coward. Sigh...

Stupid picnik.com is bullying me, therefore there are no watermark in my pictures. Sigh......

* Me wearing formal for my presentation. Sigh, my friends say I must be those clerk who seduces the boss. T___T

* I’m not, definitely not. I know, my face ain’t flawless. Boo…….

Okay, I need to get going now for my movie. :’)

P/S: Let’s stay this way for the moment. I’ll be happy enough… :’)

Gosh, what am I doing here?
I’m suppose to be on my lovely bed dreaming away.
How I wish I do not have to get up early and go to class tomorrow, but I’ve got one last presentation and so I’m left with no choice. Boo..
Oh ya, I think I screw my presentation again today. As usual, I’m being too nervous. Stage fright is killing me.
At the end of the class, my lecturer evaluate each of us one by one.
She said to me, ‘Peggy, I can see that you are nervous. Are you being nervous?’
I looked at her and replied, ‘Very’.

I know, I know.. I’m forever nervous when it comes to presentation. The bigger the crowd is, the more nervous I am.
And when I’m nervous, I keep babbling and all my sentences sounds so wrong. Whats worse is that I sometimes freak out to the extend where I cant even pronounce the words correctly.
Actually, today’s presentation is in my least nervous list compared to my other presentations. But yet the lecturer can tell that I’m nervous, so you can imagine how dumb I look like when I really really am super nervous.

Joshua asked me, why am I still so nervous after sooooo many times of presentation. I don’t even know the answer myself. I suck big time when it comes to presentation. Sigh..
Anyway, wish me luck for tomorrow’s presentation. :’)
I’m going to bed now, 5 hours more before I need to get up again.
Adios~~

Yay!!! All the assignments are done for this semester. Such a huge relief, phew!!!
Left with two presentations and exams. I can concentrate on studying for my exams now without worrying about the work that is still not done, because ALL is done.

Went to visit daddy yesterday morning, I barely have enough time to sleep.
Slept at 3 and woke up at 7, obviously those sleeping hours ain’t gonna be enough.
And sometimes its not even about the sleeping hours, its about the time I really fall asleep.
From 2am to 3am, from 3am to 4am, and now its 6am in the morning. Gosh, what am I doing?
I really don’t feel very well lately, all thanks to those late night sleeps.
I feel really tired, I need massage. Anyone??

A picture of me before heading off to dad’s place.

Sigh, I wanted to write daddy a letter but I was so tired the night before, I do not have the mood to write.
The next day when I woke up, I feel like writing so much but I do not have enough time. Damn..
I almost took out a small piece of paper and write down my blog address so that he can come to my blog and I can talk to him here. I pause for a while and thought to myself, that must be really silly of me.
And so I wrote nothing. Boo…

* Burn, burn, and burn.

Mom bought a new car for dad, Mercedes S Class. Haha, she said dad didn’t change car for some time already.
And then my brother asked, ‘How did you know?’. And I said, ‘Yah, how did you know? He’s got credit cards that has no limit, he might have bought himself a new car already’.
T____________T Such stupid conversation, haha.
One thing I dislike about being a Buddhist is that there is so so much burning going on, all year long.
Those burning incense nearly chock me to death and it sting my eyes. : (
I dislike. All those burning are so not environmental friendly, super duper air pollution. Pfft..

* Irresistible ’siu yuk’ for dad.

Every year I snatch my dad’s food. Hahaha..
I shriek at my mom and said, ‘No, don’t open up that ’siu yuk’, if not it will be covered by ashes. I want to eat!!’.
She answered, ‘Later dad scold you then you know’. Boo, I know daddy wont scold me, he never scolds me.
T________T Look at me. One of my friend said to me that me and foods are so inseparable. Wth..
Before I go grab a piece of ’siu yuk’, I look at my dad and I ‘hehe’ at him.
What happens next is that piece of ’siu yuk’ is already in my mouth, hahahaha.
Its so wtf, I know. Sigh, my dad must be thinking, ‘Wtf, why is my daughter like this.. T__T’.
Sigh, I’m sorry dad for being such a pig.

Super wtf after the jump..

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I’m afriad, very very much afraid. You’ve got no idea how many times I exactly repeated these lines.
I can’t describe that feeling of fear, I don’t know how.

I’m confused. I’m always confused.
Sometimes, or most of the times I think I’m the one who confuse myself.
I’m so confuse now I don’t know whether I confuse myself or the situation confuse myself.
And when I’m confuse, I tend to get emo.

Nothing happened, really. Its just those words that make me confuse.
I tried and I failed. I try again and I fail again. Its repeating itself again and again and again till it send shivers down my spine. Its gonna be a phobia real soon.

I’m so scared now, I reject myself before anyone rejects me.
No one defeats me, I defeat myself. I tell myself I’ll lose even before I step out to battle.
I really am afriad of the rejection. I rather reject myself before they reject me.

I tell myself I’ll lose but yet I always step into the battlefield because I wanna win so much. So so much. And what happens next?
I lose again, with scars all over me.

The battle is always there and now I’m so afraid to go fight for it.
No no, I don’t wanna lose with all the scars covering me. I rather surrender.
But if I surrender, how am I going to win? I want to win so badly, so so badly.

You guys always like to confuse me with all those words.
To battle or not to battle is the question now.

Poppy again and again, haha. But its really fun and I always enjoy myself there. Going to Poppy makes me happy. Eh, it rhymes.
But anyway, just right before I went to Poppy on last Friday night, I had a massive argument with my mom. :’(
Shouting, scolding, screaming, slapping, (why everything starts with ‘S’? -.-)…
It breaks my heart every time she scold me this way, I just don’t understand why is she picking on me.
Sigh, don’t wanna elaborate more but we’re all fine now. I guess I really need to shut the hell up next time, I’m really lazy and do not have the energy to quarrel with her anymore. I’ll just let her win, that’s all she ever wanted anyway.

* Camwhoring while waiting for my partner to come.
The above picture is taken before I was caught in the argument, I can’t smile like that after the shouting and all. In fact, I cry non stop. I don’t wanna cry because crying will mess up my make up, hahaha.. wtf, but I just cant hold back my tears.
Very very heart wrenching, but lucky we are on talking terms now, or else I’ll go crazy.

* My partner, who drinks more and more each time.

* Me and Sean, who is really really funny.

* Ee Cheeng and Gino.

* Wu and Ee Cheeng, both of them sweating like pigs.. Haha..

* ChowZhiWu and me..

* …someone who’s afraid of cockroaches, hahahahaha.

* Look how wet he is, hahahahaha..
Told him that he’ll drop into the swimming pool, but he gets this wet even before entering the pool. Its so not hot on Friday compared to Saturday nights.

* Sean, thrown into the pool by bouncers. Hahahahaha, cant fight those gorilla look alike bouncers, they are just too huge.

* A message to my mom, boo!

I’ve got one last assignment and 3 more exams to go and I’m done with this hectic semester.
Cant wait, cant wait.