* How far can we go?

I never see it coming.
I’ve been always chasing one thing.
That one damn thing that I try so hard to reach for; happiness. Or perhaps, love.
I’ve been chasing after the things that I really want, or rather people that I really like.
Somehow, all these things always fail on me.

And when it comes to you, I already given up chasing.
I’m tired.
It never came out as I expected, or rather I didn’t even expect anything in the first place.
I thought to myself, luck wouldn’t be on my side as always. I didn’t even bother to add you up on msn.
I didn’t expect seeing you at Decanter and when you sit beside me and talked to me, I feel happy.
I thought maybe I can add you on msn and we can be friends.
What shocked me more is that you agree to go to MOS with me and my friends. I thought you wouldn’t. (:
Well, that night was history.. Haha..

Your sms-es accompanied me through the Langkawi trip especially that sleepless night.
We had our deal, I bought you chocolate and you bought me cake. (:
And oh, we watched Drag Me To Hell, I didn’t know you were kind of afraid. Are you afraid? The handkerchief and the old lady? Hahaha..
I was thinking, is this yet another disappointment like always or was it something else?

Till you pop up that question before you leaving to Langkawi, I know it wasn’t another disappointment.
You spend your entire week with me after you came back from Langkawi.
I feel like we’ve been together for months but in fact, we’ve been together for less than 2 weeks.
You’re so different from what I used to have. Although you’re a big bully and always bully me, but I know that you treat me really well. :*)
I’m bless to have you in my life actually but if you ask me, I’ll tell you that I’m kinda afraid.
My past experience somehow kills me.
I hope we can make it through or more like, I can make it through.

It doesn’t matter how long we last, or maybe it does. But what matters now is that I have you and I’m happy.
I don’t know how deep is my feelings because things happen sooo fast but I know I really like you.
I rather love you with all my heart than not loving you at all.
But seriously, I wish we can last.
I’m not feeling emo or anything, I just feel like writing before I go to bed.
I wonder what lies ahead of us, I’m very afraid.

P/S: I miss you.