Archive for March, 2010

Mar 28

good pressure

you seriously make me feel stupid.
and stop stepping on me anymore.
just because i keep quiet, doesn’t mean you’re allow to.

from now on, i’m not gonna care whatever that will happen in your life again.
i’ve been trying my best not to make you feel unhappy.
trying to make things calm.

but now. i’m not gonna adjust to you ever again.
there’s a reason why i doubt things you said earlier on.
that’s the way you work things, but it aint my way.
so you carry on with your way.

i’m not gonna give a flying fuck.
stop destroying my mood!
you make me feel sad. you jeopardize our friendship and relationship.

very well.

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Mar 27

what are the odds?

i’m not gonna talk about my bloody assignments this time though i do have the eager to rant here but i know it’s getting pretty annoying.

not ranting but i’ve got questions to ask.
will you choose the one you like over the one you might love?
will you choose friends over your soul mate?

the answer to it might seems obvious but if you notice, a lot of times it will be the other way round.
what if your friends doesn’t like your soul mate? what if your friends doesn’t like your another half?
will you give that person up just because your friends didn’t like him/her?
just because you don’t know how to face your friends when they ask? when you bring them out?

anyway, here’s a little something that i’ve been collecting.

you need to know the odds are your high school relationship wont last three months in campus.
if god wants you to be together in four or five years, it doesn’t matter if one of you goes to the moon.
you’ll be back together.

what are the odds ?
the above statement sounds promising to a certain extent. hah!

it’s when im standing six feet away from you and not being able to find the words to tell you how much i love you and how much i miss you that i want to just scream to the whole room that i’m still in love with you. it’s when i’m sitting alone with the phone in my hand dialing your number and hanging up that i would trade a thousand tomorrows for just one yesterday. then i could just call you to tell you goodnight. it’s when i am really sad about something and need someone to talk to i realize you’re the only one who really knew me at all. it’s when i cry myself to sleep at night and it hits me how much i would give to hold you at that moment. it’s when i think about you that i realize no one else in the world is meant for me – A Million Little Pieces.


have you been in the above situation?


this is so cute, haha. :3

4play on thursday. skybar on friday. swimming plus movie on saturday.
a laid back saturday. (:
it’s a saturday, so please do enjoy your lovely weekend people. (:

why my post like very random one? :\

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Mar 25

what a day man!
woke up at 10 today. group discussion at 11 plus until 7.
went home, eat my dinner and continue on my assignment till now.
its 12.30 midnight!!!

i feel like dying. U__U
i still need to send another assignment’s draft to my friend but my brain is shutting down anytime soon.
omgbbq @#&&*^#(@&#*)*#Q&(&()@*&!@!

okay! done with my ranting. i need to sleep!!!
plus, today’s an emo day. fts(fuck this shit) LOL!
nights.

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Mar 23

Flying without wings

Does this song brings back old memories? I like this song and I like the lyrics.
Hope you people like it as much as I do. (:

Everybody’s looking for that something
One thing that makes it all complete
You’ll find it in the strangest places
Places you never knew it could be

Some find it in the face of their children
Some find it in their lover’s eyes
Who can deny the joy it brings
When you’ve found that special thing
You’re flying without wings

Some find it sharing every morning
Some in their solitary lives
You’ll find it in the words of others
A simple line can make you laugh or cry

You’ll find it in the deepest friendship
The kind you cherish all your life
And when you know how much that means
You’ve found that special thing
You’re flying without wings

So, impossible as it may seem
You’ve got to fight for every dream
Cos who’s to know which one you let go
Would have made you complete

Well, for me it’s waking up beside you
To watch the sunrise on your face
To know that I can say I love you
In any given time or place

It’s little things that only I know
Those are the things that make you mine
And it’s like flying without wings
Cos you’re my special thing
I’m flying without wings

And you’re the place my life begins
You’ll be where it ends
I’m flying without wings
And that’s the joy you bring
I’m flying without wings

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Mar 14

ten million miles.

no no. i am NOT abandoning my blog.
well actually i plan to take a short hiatus but i’m afraid no one will ever visit my blog again. :\
so here i am, trying to fill my blog with craps again.

i will only be absolutely free after 16th April.
one more freaking month.
tons of work but not as stress as all the previous semesters.
because i did not procrastinate and all my work is on track. (:

took a break yesterday.
went to the mall during noon, movie at night and straight to skybar after that.
i’ve been wanting to watch Alice in the Wonderland but tickets are all sold out. gahh!
so second option, Up in the air.

the movie is really good.
something different. something unexpected.
it puts me into thinking.

i’m a lot like one of the character in the movie, natalie.
if you have yet to watch this movie, whatever you read after this line might be a spoiler. :X
so, there’s a scene where natalie’s bf dumped her through text message.
she’s upset bla bla.. then she said something like this..
‘when i was 16.. i plan to get marry when i’m 23. i should be engage by now.’

i stone for a moment. look at ee cheeng who sits beside me. she looks at me.
and we both laugh!
indeed when i was 16, i plan to get marry when i’m 23. i wanted to get marry when i’m 23. and now that i’m 22, i should be engage soon. HAHA!
and then have kids. and be a housewife. wait for the husband to get home, prepare him dinner and what not. natalie said something like that too.

maybe. just maybe this could happen if it goes according to what i plan. if there’s no breakup in between.
but i grow up, this is totally out of my plan now. hah.

and the way natalie asked george clooney, how marriage never cross his mind and all sorts of this kinda question..
i’m exactly like that too. because i once asked this kind of stuff. with a strong expression, haha.

this movie is worth watching. but not all likes it though, some find it boring.
as for me, i feel like watching it again. and pay more attention to the content and script.
good movie. (:

it’s been awhile since i last camwhoree!! hah! camera berkarat soon. :’D

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Mar 12

我想你

你说: 等我.
我说: 我等. 我一定等你.

但, 为什么你没回来找我?
你忘了我们的承诺, 是吗?
你忘了我, 是吗?

你一去也再没回来了.

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Mar 09

what else can i say?
other than me being stupid.

i laugh at my own stupidity as my tears roll down.
how fucking pathetic.

how fucking stupid i am.
anger. hurt. sad. regret. fuck up.

thank you.
thank you very much.

please. don’t even bother about this post.

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Mar 06

so beautiful .yet so ugly.

this week started off as a hell for me.
as i said earlier, holiday turned me into a rather lazy girl.

a lazy girl bombarded with plenty of assignments equals to *^$@&#*#&@^&@ *dut dut dut* !!
but my hardworking spirit *cheh* came back after a day.
its not that bad after all and now I’m so use to it.

waking up so early almost everyday.
discussions for hours and hours till evening.
nap for only an hour.
and go to bed earlier than usual.
sangat ber-routine, hah!

***
my lecturer asked us a question in the class the other day.
‘who had been in love before?’
some of the students raised up their hands. i did not.
i cant tell you why i did not raise up my hand, cause i myself do not know why either.

she asked for the second time.
‘who had been in love before?’
and more students response by raising up their hands this time, including myself.

she then asked another question.
‘whose heart had been broken before?’
i looked at her. i took a glimpse at those around me.
once again students raise up their hands.
i then raised up mine slowly, feeling rather stone because i wasn’t expecting my lecturer asking all these kind of questions in the class.

then she told us.
‘those who had their heart broken are those who love passionately.’

she once interviewed a drug addict.
she described this drug addict with a word.
skinny.
almost fleshless, what’s left is only bones wrapped by his skin.

then she told us how this drug addict inject himself.
i’ve got no idea how he did it but what she said was, he leaned on the wall, pushed himself into the needle, poking through his feet.
not on any part of his body but his feet.

heart-wrenching.
i know if i’m there to witness this scene, i’ll cry.

she asked him, what is the reason he did drugs.
and he answered, the girl he love left him.

my heart literally stopped for a moment.
‘those who had their heart broken, if they are painter they no longer paint, if they are writer they no longer write.’

this story just hit me somewhere. somehow.
i feel really sad for him.

love. can be the best thing yet the worst.
seems like. it can lift you up to heaven yet it can push you down to hell.

so beautiful .yet so ugly.

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