my sony camera that shivers every now and then after that careless drop has serve me well for the past three years.
well enough by continuing serving me after that painful fall but yet not well enough when it decides to shivers or worse still, by dozing off.

it sort of embarrass me every time when it decides to be a rebellious kid by not functioning well when I asked help from people to snap a picture of me and my friend.

i sent it to the hospital once when it started shaking vigorously, still under warranty at that time and it came back to me looking all normal.
but after some time, it shakes again!!
no more going back to hospital, warranty’s over. poor baby.

you should really take a look at how the shivering and shaking is done.
i hope it better not die on me when i’m broke.
but somehow each time i use it, it just feels like something in it dies a little.
i know it’s time. soon.
or i could be wrong, maybe it can function while dozing off every now and then for another few years.
yeah, i wish.

i’ve got a few nominated cameras in mind to replace this beautiful baby of mine if it ever pass away.

the first of course has got to be my baby’s sister.
a whole lot more tougher. yes, sony’s tx5!
the main reason i love it so much is because it knows how to swim.
yes i do not know how to swim but who cares, as long as i can bring it with me when i dip myself into the pool or the sea.
secondly, it can drop without having the side effect of shaking.
of course you don’t drop it from the 31st floor of some dickhead’s balcony.
it can drop from 1.5m which means you can put it on my head and drop it. how cool!!

not to forget it comes with dust and freeze proof too. not like it will ever get a chance to freeze itself out if i own it, but maybe if i’m bored enough i’ll just have it sit beside that piece of lonely drumstick in my freezer.
there’s a whole lot more but these alone are good enough for me to really consider this camera.
prolly I can get it for like thousand two, or less than that a little.

second nominee, a dslr.
i know it looks hideous. why dslr have to look that ugly, i can never get it.
maybe looking ugly equals to looking professional. which is why those professionals you come across, always look ugly.
sorry, just kidding.
anyway, if i’m getting a dslr of course i will pick the most basic ones.
i’ll just walk over to the counter and said, ‘hand me the cheapest dslr’. how so elegant.
the cheapest cost around thousand four or maybe a little cheaper than that.
it’s like if i’m planning to get that waterproof baby, i just have to fork in a little bit more to get an ugly but professional looking camera that shots awesome pictures.
but you can never swim with it. pfft!

third nominee.

(yes, i actually wanted a canon e1 when it just appeared on the market quite some time back. cause it’s kind of cheap plus it looks cute but i don’t think i can get it now even if i want to.)

maybe i shouldn’t give myself so much burden by spending a thousand on camera.
maybe i should just buy one that cost a few hundred and just live with it for the rest of my life.
a camera that cost only a few hundred will not have touch screen and i’m so use to touch screen camera.
if you hand me a camera with no touch screen, i’ll just stare at it not knowing which button to press.
of course i’ll get the hang out of it fast but i really prefer touch screen ones.
the reason for getting a cheaper camera is to not overspend.
suggest me a few camera that is cheap enough but at the same time takes good pictures.
with one more condition, it has got to be pink! no joke.

there’s too much camera on the market, there must be something that fits in the category i just mentioned.
cheap. good picture. pink.

and lastly.

one that i will never have the chance to buy unless i hit a jackpot or a rich guy.
lumix pink gf-1.
i don’t know how many thousands i need for this, i don’t bother checking out.

life will be perfect if i can have that sony which can go swimming with me and this lumix in pink which looks pretty and professional. winner.
whoever started this let’s-sell-pink-gadgets idea, should i thank you or should i kick you in the ass?
pink colour, girls market. you can never go wrong.

just cant quite help being a bimbo for a moment and go ‘awwww, that’s so pretty’ whenever a pink gadget catches my attention.

will you please tell me which is the best option?
before my pretty camera dies while i mourn over it’s death not knowing which camera shall replace it and walk with me for the rest next few years of my life.

i feel so fucking stress lately.
ngo hou fan! but in fact I always feel that way.
But seems like it’s getting more serious for these pass weeks.

and my hair, it falls damn a lot lately it’s like I’m going bald soon.
my mom keep telling me in a rather annoying tone that I’m gonna go bald.
Okay, I get it. I know my hair is falling!
I’m already paranoid enough, don’t have to add in a little bit here and there everyday.
I know she’s concern too but don’t talk to me in that way.

I’m not sure if it’s the stress.
OR the shampoo cause since I changed shampoo, it falls like nobody business.
OR the Liese bubble thingy.

I dyed my hair and changed shampoo at the same time, so I’m not too sure.
I shall start using my mom’s shampoo and see if there’s any changes but I actually like my shampoo cause it smells nice.
And cause someone remembers the smell of my hair ):
I really don’t feel like changing it but if it’s not the cause of my shampoo, it just means my dooms day is here.

I’m stressing out about my future. Stressing out about things I shouldn’t stress about.
Most of the times I make myself stress for nothing. ‘zhi gei loh lei fan’.
My habit, which sucks so much. Why do I always take things so fucking seriously?

I need to worry less. Think less. Stress less.
And really really try to enjoy life. People said things will settle on its own when time comes.
Will they?

I’ll try. to be less paranoid and to feel less stress.
Will really try.
And if you ever figure out what-the-fuck happened to my hair, please tell me.

Or maybe it’s hormone’s problem, what my aunt said.
Maybeeeeeeee because my period came after two weeks it end.
Wtf, my machine sot guai jor. I’m dyingggggggg oh nooooooooooooooooo! U__U

And I need to stop rambling about all these fucking things!!
Tomorrow’s gonna be a rather dreadful day, maybe I have the rights to ramble. pfft.
Off to bed.

Good night world.

been working a lot these two weeks and I’ve got no time for my gossip girl !
i can really sit all day long in front of my monitor and watch more than five episodes.
ten maybe.

and yes I’ve got work tomorrow and I’m mad sleepy now.
I just get to watch one episode of gossip girl today, boohoohoo.
getting more and more lifeless.
work. drama. webcam. and i-don’t-know-what.

a lil’ something from gossip girl to confuse you.
on screen gossip girl and off screen gossip girl.

xoxo

for a long time,
she tossed and turned,
unable to sleep,
wondering if maybe, just maybe,
he was awake and thinking of her too.

and so i thought this will be a long and dreadful week.
so long that it feels like a season has change.

but I was wrong.
this week passes exceptionally fast. so fast, I have to run to catch up with it.

a busy week for me, which is good in a way.
because without realising it, I’ll get to see you again.

but will it even make a difference?
I’m not too sure but maybe that’s not the point.
then what is?

I’m getting old! Oh no……!
No joke! Turning twenty-two in 2 weeks time.
Young adult but I’m like a small girl whatthehell.

I seriously think I don’t match with my age.
I still act like a little girl whereas I should act like a lady. U_U fail.com

I’ll be having a birthday party with another 3 of my girls! (:
my primary girl friends; cindy, susan, and vivien. It has been 10 years!
We booked this cute cafe at Bangsar called Poco Handmade.
We have the whole place for our own but boy I’m nervous! and excited at the same time.
It’s gonna be a really sweet birthday because the whole place will be in pastel colours and surrounded by primary friends.

I used to be really jealous during primary 6 because Cindy and Vivien celebrated their birthday together while my birthday is 3 days after theirs and they don’t include me in.
No one really remember my birthday back then, wuwu. Haha, silly little girl.
And never did it cross my mind that I have the chance to celebrate my birthday with these girls. (:

Anyway, as USUAL again there will be a wishlist.
But actually the only thing I wish for this year is for people to treat me sincerely.
When friends asked me what do I want for this year’s birthday, I said I don’t know.
There’s really nothing much that I wish for. peace, heart, sincerity and happiness which money cant buy.

But of course, if you’re kind enough to get me presents there will be some stuff that I wish for.
Wait, not to say wishlist but these are the things I wanna buy. Just that I do not have enough cash yet.

1) Air ticket to UK.
Yes, I miss my bff and I know she miss me madly! bwaha, and I’m trying very hard to get myself an air ticket to UK and look for her. You can make donation if think our friendship is worth it or if you love me. hehehe!

2) Curling iron.
I bought super cheap ones and one day while I was curling my hair it burnt! Freaks me out wtf. I thought I’m gonna die from electric shock! And also that is why you don’t see me in curls anymore boohoo. ):
Dying to get one so I can curl my hair again.

3) Skincare.
My moisturizer and toner habis. U_U
My skin is always dry, I need one that is moisture enough. Planing to get either one of this; Hada labo, Laniege, or Biotherm. Out of cash, using mom’s sample for the moment. God!

4) Gel eyeliner.
My gel eyeliner is dying on me. I’ve been using it for so long and now it’s really dry. Been wanting to buy a really good gel eyeliner.
Using Kate’s currently and I feel like trying Maybelline’s. Not sure if it’s good enough though.

5) And that purple wallet which I’ve been eyeing for so long that cost a bomb!
Only a few knows which wallet I’m talking about. me want! U___U

6) Finally, my secret birthday wish.
♥

OH WAIT!!
I would love to have an organizer, pink one preferably or a really beautiful one as my birthday present.
Been dying to get one since forever.

Cant wait for November to come and have fun with my November babies. (: