Telling lies are for talented people like you!

if people ever wonder, if you ever wonder.
i don’t tell lies and make up stories.
whatever i said is the truth.
i don’t really find the need to make up stories, i don’t have that much time and ability to keep in mind what kind of lies i’ve told either.
i don’t have a lying talent like how some people have it.
i can never catch up with the lies i made.

a person like such, no matter how deep his love for you is he’s not quite a keeper.
lies and more lies. living in a denial life. provokes after provokes.
and when people fight back, he just hides in a corner like a coward.

but true that, people like such will never ever stand in front and admit his wrong.
some people just never keep up to his words.
from that very moment i realise once again the words are not being kept, i swear to myself whatever that came out from the damn mouth is pure bullshit.

and too from that moment i told myself, i will never ever ever back down. whatever it takes.
taking me for granted in every sense.

believe me,
time will come.

A thousand layers of crepe

If you haven’t know already what a mille crepe is, according to wikipedia it is a French cake made of many crêpe layers. “Mille” (“mil”) means “a thousand”, implying the many layers of crêpe.

One of the best crepe cake in town is of course the infamous cafe, Food Foundry.
Pretty famous for their mille crepe.


* your neighbour, your provider.


* cute little cafe full with customers.

Not only their mille crepe is a to-die-for but their meal taste pretty good too.


* Ben’s chicken cordon bleu. Okay, I’ve got not much comment for this I didn’t really tasted it but Ben likes it so I guess it’s pretty good. (RM17)


* My smoked salmon in cream sauce which is really orgasmic. The smoked salmon and the cream sauce blend so well together but I cant take too much in cause I’ll feel really bloated in the end since it’s kinda creamy. Okay, I’m missing this nasty spaghetti already! (RM17)


* mille crepes and cakes, a must have after your meal.


* vanilla flavour mille crepe. I personally like their strawberry mille crepe but since it’s Ben’s first time trying mille crepe, I choose his favourite flavour. So moisture and soft and the best part of it is it doesn’t taste too sweet. We both don’t have sweet tooth. (Rm9)

So if you’re wondering where else can we try mille crepe other than food foundry, there’s a place I found out.
Austin Chase. Yes you heard me right, at Austin Chase.


* Picked the vanilla flavour again, French Vanilla Mille Crepe. If this were to compare with Food Foundry’s, I find Austin Chase’s vanilla more fragrant. The taste of vanilla still lingers for a while. And of course, the cream is smooth. (RM13.90)

They have chocolate, vanilla, strawberry, and peach & passion flavour. I’m so gonna try the peach & passion crepe next time, I feel excited. :9
Austin Chase actually ordered these mille crepes from Humble Beginnings. Trust me, you’ll be thrill by the choices from Humble Beginnings. Chessy Cheese, Mango Cheese, Oreo and so much more. oh-my-god. Really, go to their website and have a look for yourself.

And lastly, the pretty famous cafe at Malacca, Nadeje.


* They have quite a number of flavours too as I can remember.


* Rum raisin mille crepe. (Rm8+)


* Mango flavour.

Both the crepes taste okay, I’m not sure if I was too full when I tried it but it really didn’t taste as good as Food Foundry’s or Austin Chase’s.
Flavour aside, the creepe ain’t as soft and creamy either. But then again, it’s not really bad. Just not as good.
There’s tiramisu flavour but I don’t see it on the counter the other day. I don’t mind trying again.
No, actually I want to try tiramisu mille crepe. The name itself makes me salivate.

I guess among all, I like Austin Chase the most. I cant wait to try the other flavours out.
My brother dislike mille creepe, he said it feels like ‘fu chuk tong sui’ when he bites it. Haha, what a comment.
As for Ben, I think he might ban mille crepe for the rest of his life.
After eating mille crepe from malacca he went home, (already so damn full) and ate his mom’s cooking.
The next day he fall sick, vomit and everything and he put the blame on mille crepe.
Digestion problem but he blame it on the innocent crepe.

Like for reals now everytime when I mentioned mille crepe, he feels like vomiting.
Such a turn off, I still wanna try other mille creepes!!!

girls ain’t toys.

I always put this sentence at the corner of my mouth, ‘guys larh, guys!’.
I’m aware that I’m being a little stereotypical here , thanks to all the bad experience from guys.
Of course, I too am aware that not all guys are the same but when you encounter the same shit one after another, over and over again, you cant help but to prove that your stereotyping is right. Maybe.

It’s a struggle really. A part of me want to trust a guy wholeheartedly and another part of me asking myself not to, don’t be dumb. How can you trust a guy entirely.
Once in a while I remind myself, it’s guys nature. They’re just like that, so if anything I didn’t wish to happen happened, I wont be that upset. But really, I mean guys are like that.
In a way it’s okay. I know, guys sometimes just wanna have a little fun.
It’s all good as long as the fun wouldn’t harm anyone.

7436.) I think I’ll love you until my final days come, even though you confessed to me you can’t even count the number of people you’ve had sex with since we broke up. I still have feelings for you, and I still find myself wishing you’d just show up at my window one more time. Even though you used me for sex for so long, I forgive you. Because now I see as you do, all women are for is for the pleasure and entertainment of men, because that is how we present ourselves. As mere holes for men to put their dicks in. That is why I forgive you, I have accepted your mentality. Our mentality. This is also the reason I will follow in my mother’s footstep and be a home-wrecking whore for the rest of my life. And to think I’ve only lived 16 years…

What’s not okay is that, I can never accept a guy who treat girls as their sex slave or sex toy or however you want to name it. I read a lot of confessions on the net and I always come across all these, how these girls are treated as a sex toy by the guy they love.
I can never get it. How can a guy be so cruel knowing that the girl love you and you take full advantage of it.
How can you take advantage of the love that people have for you.
Have the girl’s feeling ever ever cross the mind of these guys, I wonder.
If only you can imagine, the person whom you love call you just for sex and once it’s done, you’ll be left in the dark until he feels like playing with you again.
That’s what we do to our toys, isn’t it.

I wonder what kind of shit is going through in the guy’s mind. Are you that uneducated and heartless?
I don’t know, I forever despise this type of people. And I know there’s a lot out there.
I don’t think these guys can ever make it up to the girl whom they’ve treated this way.
The sin will follow them wherever they go and karma will hit them right there. Just not yet.

Can people like this even sleep well at night?
A little fun for you might destroy a girl so badly, leaving her in trauma. Left her with no confidence.
These kind of people deserve no good in life. Sorry but I hope the worst thing will follow people like these wherever they go. Wherever.

If you’re doing these to a girl making her feeling like a garbage, you deserve to be a garbage.

Tired of living and scared of dying.

If you haven’t know already, I’m a girl who loves putting down thoughts in words. I love art and painting, I do but I’m never those type of people who can transmit my thoughts and put it into visual form.

I was so bored while I was working previously I start putting down my thoughts again. Typed it in my phone but totally forgotten about it afterwards.

*
Everyone’s talking about the suicide incident of Alviss Kong, on how stupid he is. I can see how harsh some people can be, giving no respect at all for the deceased. Some said people like him deserve no respect.

Sigh, what a world. Indeed no doubt, he is stupid for giving up his life for a love relationship that lasted merely four months. But who knows how deep his love is for the girl. Reading this piece of news, it makes me think a lot. At some point of my life, I thought of ending mine as well. I was so depress, I cried everyday. Few times a day in fact. Sometimes at college, sometimes in a friend’s car, sometimes during a movie in cinema, sometimes in karaoke. I was so heartbroken, I cant focus on shits.

One of my darkest period, the thought of suiciding never fail to creep into my mind from day to day. For love. I cant handle the break up. I cant handle myself.

What didn’t make the thought come real is my mom. I cant bring myself to do this to her. I cant put all my hurt into her. I cant make her lost another family member, I know how that feels. I just can never bring myself to do this to my family. If I do not have a family, it’s a different story all together (at that point of life).

And thank god I’ve got two friends who helped me pull this through. Spent all their time keeping me accompany. Making sure I’m all right from time to time. Having all ears for me while I sob and rant. Lending me shoulders when I needed them.

If you ask me now will suicide thought still swims around in my mind, nope not much. Once in a blue moon while I’m too stress or upset but it just stops right there.

For those who spitted really harsh words at that guy who died for love, I’m sorry but you’re really mean. Everyone handles hurt differently, some pulled it through while some just cant. You’ve got no idea how deep is his love for the girl, how hurt is he at that very moment. Maybe he just needs one friend to be there to stop the tragedy, but there’s none.

It seems like after the case of Alviss Kong, there’s more and more suicidal case printed on newspapers every other day. It saddened me to see such news. It is never a wise thing to do to take your own life, I guess all you need are friends who’ll be there to help you pull the days though.

People in love are indeed stupid people. Love are only for insane people.
But after all the hurt, you’ll always get to learn something new in the end. And you’ll definitely grow to be a stronger person. I just hope people out there who are going through all these shits wanting to suicide will think about it all over again.

Sometimes the world is just so sad.

Happy 2nd Eighteen ♥

9 in the morning, still soundly asleep on my bed when my maid knocked and came in.
Holding a big bouquet of roses, I thought I was dreaming.
I cant help but smile to myself like an idiot, in front of my maid.


* The flower I ♥ most.


* A mixture of 40 white and pink roses (:

Never in my life received such a big bouquet of roses. It left me in awe.
It’s so sweet and thoughtful of him to sent me a bouquet of roses even though he’s so far away.
I didn’t see this coming. It’s not an easy task to surprise me.
I’m not sure if I’m being smart or the one who used to surprise me are not smart enough, I always know I’m gonna get a surprise which of course since I already knew it it’s not surprising anymore.
I guess it’s either I’m smart, that person ain’t smart enough or didn’t really bother giving a real surprise.

The other day while we were talking, he said he wants to buy flowers and put it in the room and asked me which colour to buy. I thought he was really buying flowers for himself, silly me.
This is by far the best long distance relationship I got myself into. (And please let this be the last, why do I always get involve in LDR damnit.)
Not because of the roses he gave me, it’s the thought that counts. He’s willing to spend time with me everyday.

This might sound insane to some but it made everything easier for us, or me.
We sometimes eat dinner together, we watch movie and youtube together, we listen to songs together and the best part is we sleep and wake up together.
Yes, we leave our webcams on and go to bed at the same time. We even watch sunrise together this morning, he showed me Melbourne’s sunrise but it wasn’t that successful after all. The sky is pretty gloomy.
I’m just happy how he take the effort to do all these stupid things with me.

I cant help feeling this way, haven’t been in love for such a long time.
But things are never as perfect as it is seen. We had a lot of stupid arguments which is lead by silly misunderstandings lately.
Which kind of sucks really but in a way, it brings us closer too. At least now we understand each other more and we try to compromise. Love is not only about giving surprises, there’s so much more to it.

Before I end my post, I’ve got a good news. Actually just a good news for both of us, haha.
I finally bought ticket to Melbourne and also done applying for Visa. It’s set!!
I’m really happy and I wish days can just fly by for now. Extremely excited!! :D
I’m sorry these days I bombarded my blog with me and my boyf. Cannot help it.