My twenty-third mini birthday party will not have ‘succeeded’ if Mr.Ben decides not to lend me a helping hand.
I am such a troublesome girlfriend sometimes.
And I gave him even more trouble when he needs to cook together with me for the food.
Gosh he hates it but still he’ll do it because he loves me. /tak-malu haha

* He blew the balloons and hang it on the tree for me.

He actually took the time and Google on how we can decorate the place to make it looks nicer, more appealing to the eyes.
How thoughtful (:

* Along with my helium balloons.

* This post is actually bombarded with pictures of balloons.

* Pink carnation (:

* Seriously hate taking these polaroids with a camera.

* But my scanner doesn’t seem to work ):

* I look like a little girl here. Sorry if this makes you puke haha!

* Wo de bay ♥

* Hihihi, Bryan always looks so cute.

* I like floating helium balloons!

* Spot Poh Juan, trying to help us snap a picture.

* My balloons are kinda big! /happy

* The only person who’s willing to take pictures with me and ze balloons.

* Yan and me.

* One thing sad about balloon is that they will ‘die’. And I thought of keeping ‘em till they ‘die’ but my annoying boyf set them free to the sky. Almost want to strangle him ):

* My birthday ‘cake’. Haven’t even started arranging my macaron, Alvin already took one and put it in his mouth. Almost strangle him too.

* Ending my post with a funny picture of me. /heheh

Just a simple birthday where some of my close friends celebrate it with me.
Appreciate much!
A big thank you to those who wish me and to those who made an effort to be with me on my birthday.
A big thank you to my love for doing so much, for all the surprises and love.
A big thank you to my parents for the life they gave me and thank you God for everything.

Oh wait, how can I even forget to mention this.
A big thank you to bff’s boyf Mah Weng Kee for letting me fill up his house with balloons, hah.

With ♥

but for the mean time, this is the home i’m staying at melbourne.
which is friggin expensive i must say. i don’t get how people stay here in the city, the rent is like c-r-a-z-y.
four hundred per week, sampat!!

but they do have gym, swimming pool, sauna, and a very nice place for you to barbecue along with equipments.
so if you’re a gym person, maybe it sounds more bearable since you get to save up money by not signing up for gym outside.
still crazy no matter what.

* i actually really kind of like candles a lot.

* the third creature who stays in the house.

* the cosy corner. might need to shift the sofa cause we’re planning to get a ‘tv’. probably the only thing that’s missing from the house, a television.

* his workplace and also a temporary ‘tv’ to watch his stupid stephen chow movie and my awesome gossip girl.

* our small and simple dining table with (yes) pink chairs. my idea, of course. it can brighten up the house okay!! and a balcony door behind.

* a divider/bookshelf/a place to keep our shoes and yada yada. that’s our kitchen (my territory) behind, of course.

* entrance door, hello. and some berry berry important stuff which is all ze sauces and spices and whatnot. damn nice compartment can, so easy to take these sauces while i cook. (:

* neat and nice toilet, with our hand towels hanging. (: will be perfect if it’s a bathtub.

* and this is the bedroom, with nothing in it except the bed. i would love to have a side table with erm, a lamp. and that’s a built-in wardrobe with huge ass mirror. please ignore the jackets on the floor, too tired after clubbing to put them nicely. :X

how’s ze house?
a one bedroom apartment.
it’s small, sometimes i miss walking around a bigger home.
like how i can walk from my room to living room to kitchen then to my mom’s room, to my maid’s room back to my room in malaysia wtf.
here i can only walk in and out of the room, in and out in and out.
wanna play hide and seek also cannot larh.
but this home is pretty cosy. (:

if only i can put a green fake plant in the bathroom, it’ll be great.
fake plant can last forever and ever, damn worth it haha.
that’s all for now, i’m pretty sleepy already. plus i might need to stay up for football match, i better get some rest before i regret typing too much here.
have a good midweek people. (:

* The flower I ♥ most.

* A mixture of 40 white and pink roses (:

Never in my life received such a big bouquet of roses. It left me in awe.
It’s so sweet and thoughtful of him to sent me a bouquet of roses even though he’s so far away.
I didn’t see this coming. It’s not an easy task to surprise me.
I’m not sure if I’m being smart or the one who used to surprise me are not smart enough, I always know I’m gonna get a surprise which of course since I already knew it it’s not surprising anymore.
I guess it’s either I’m smart, that person ain’t smart enough or didn’t really bother giving a real surprise.

The other day while we were talking, he said he wants to buy flowers and put it in the room and asked me which colour to buy. I thought he was really buying flowers for himself, silly me.
This is by far the best long distance relationship I got myself into. (And please let this be the last, why do I always get involve in LDR damnit.)
Not because of the roses he gave me, it’s the thought that counts. He’s willing to spend time with me everyday.

This might sound insane to some but it made everything easier for us, or me.
We sometimes eat dinner together, we watch movie and youtube together, we listen to songs together and the best part is we sleep and wake up together.
Yes, we leave our webcams on and go to bed at the same time. We even watch sunrise together this morning, he showed me Melbourne’s sunrise but it wasn’t that successful after all. The sky is pretty gloomy.
I’m just happy how he take the effort to do all these stupid things with me.

I cant help feeling this way, haven’t been in love for such a long time.
But things are never as perfect as it is seen. We had a lot of stupid arguments which is lead by silly misunderstandings lately.
Which kind of sucks really but in a way, it brings us closer too. At least now we understand each other more and we try to compromise. Love is not only about giving surprises, there’s so much more to it.

Before I end my post, I’ve got a good news. Actually just a good news for both of us, haha.
I finally bought ticket to Melbourne and also done applying for Visa. It’s set!!
I’m really happy and I wish days can just fly by for now. Extremely excited!!
I’m sorry these days I bombarded my blog with me and my boyf. Cannot help it.

A pair of sea otters holding hand while sleeping, to avoid drifting apart.
This really made me smile (:

Ben just left the country yesterday, flew back to Melbourne.
And tomorrow is Valentine’s Day :\
I remembered how he happily told me he extended his flight to 12th February and I just returned him a shock face.
He totally forgotten that it’s Valentine’s Day on the 14th but it’s okay.

Haven’t been celebrating Valentine’s for the past three years.
And if he’s here, I think I’d prefer staying in and have our own mini plan (:
We celebrated our Valentine 3 days earlier, just the night before he left.
Watched a movie and followed up with a dinner at Cafe Cafe.

Went there once during my 2007′s birthday.
Pictures are gonna be dark, I cant be using flash in such an environment. I don’t want everyone to be looking at me.

* Perfect interior but not spacious enough. We were sitting so close to both the tables beside, I don’t like it that way.
It feels like these people entered my comfort zone, I don’t have my own privacy. They shouldn’t have put so many tables there.

* My date (:

* Yours truly.

No pictures of food cause I really don’t wanna use flash.
We ordered half dozen escargot, foie gras, tiger prawn and lamb shank.
Tiger prawn and foie gras was goood! They gave some cranberry jam or whatever jam it’s called to go along with foie gras, really nice combination.
Escargot, I prefer The Ship and lamb shank is a disappointment.
Too dry, I prefer it to be juicier and the meat more tender.
Bill came up to Rm250+ and Ben likes this place. (:
Coming here on normal days will be good but I don’t think it’s a wise idea to come on festive days.
Big no no on Valentine’s, I don’t wanna have a dinner for six when I plan to have dinner for two.

Present him something that he really wanted (:
And also a box for him to bring back over to Melbourne with 47 different things inside.
Each day there’s something waiting for him in the box and by the time the box is empty, I’ll be by his side. hee (:

We’re having a date tonight. Candles, movie, music and everything else.

* That’s us, ready for our date. Yes, we even dress up
I know I’d have fun tonight. Feeling so loved even though he’s not physically here.

Happy Valentine’s to everyone out there be it you’re attach or single.
I waited long enough to have someone in my life to celebrate Valentines with me again.
If you’re still waiting, have a little faith. I believe God prepared the best one for you, just that he/she have yet to walk into your life.

Lots of love ♥ (:

At this very moment, I feel so very bless.
And till this very moment I still do not know how it happened.
You came into my life without any warning, I wasn’t prepared to fall in love again but I’m glad I did.

You’re the sweetest thing that happened to me, sweetest boyf I ever have.
A person I’ve been longing to have for all these while, it’s like a fairytale come true for me.
Sometimes I just feel so lucky it’s like I’m in a dream, I cant believe it’s true.
I cant believe that finally I can have what I want. It does feel surreal.

I never had a boyf that sayang me as much as you do, that take care of me as much as you do, that worries about me as much as you do.
Never feel this appreciated before.
Although knowing that I’m so haunted by my past, you’re here readily to share my burden with me.
I just cant describe how bless I feel.

A person like you are someone I dream of having every night before I go to sleep and now every morning waking up knowing that I finally have you, I cant help but smile to myself.

Thanks for walking into my life wolf.
Thanks for accepting me for who I am and everything else.
Thanks for loving me.

Hope there’s many more months to come but for whatever that will happen, for now I’ll treasure every moment with you.
Hope today’s gonna be lotsa fun spending time together (:

♥ ♥ ♥

* The first two who jumped into the pool. Victor and Ben.

* AAAAAA! every time when i’m in the pool i do not want to wet my hair but see…..

* Everyone’s attacking Alvin, bwaha!

* I like this picture! Bryan looks so cute.

* Round 1!!

* The dry ones.

* Forever cheeky Gavin.

* Baboon’s ass Ben.

Woke up early the next day, as in super early to catch the sun rise because someone wanted to.

* But as you can see, this is a fail sun rise watching. Nothing can beat the one at Redang!

* It’s still pretty dark when we’re on the beach.

* (:

* Luckily I cover my face. D:

* Since we’re already awake, of course breakfast must not be miss. So happy when I saw croissant and cinnamon danish. Pastries makes me happy (:

Went back to bed after breakfast, haha. fail.com
Initially, I wanted to prepare breakfast for them but I was too tired, I slept while everyone’s awake.
Hurried to the beach after that, since it’s not raining. Weather forecast said there’s gonna be thunderstorm.
Thank god it isn’t that accurate.

* Boys and their ball.

* Victor seems like having fun playing with the sand, haha.

* Sorry for the butt crack (HAHA) but we’re actually catching crabs. I had so much fun catching crabs

* See closely, there’s mini crabs in it.

* This is epic!!

* Everyone looking at the crabs again, hahaha.

* Then it turns to everyone looking at Victor showering.

* And I’m gonna end this post with a picture of 3 guys in a public swimming pool.

Swimming, swimming, and swimming.
I was pretty worn out from the trip. Lack of sleep and everything else.
I had fun, I did.

This is a trip that changed everything.
(What a sentence to end my post, lol)

every year, i’ve been wishing for something from santa.
the same old thing. same old wish.
in fact that’s the only wish i ever wish for, be it during birthday, xmas, or even some god-knows-what-fountains.

and it kind of like hit me, there isn’t any point in wishing.
cause i’ve been wishing for years and nothing seems to come.
i just sort of like told myself to stop wishing, let it be and enjoy whatever I have at every moment.

seriously, there wont be any ‘dear santa, i’ve been a good girl this year bla bla bla..’
i haven’t been that good this year anyway. gonna leave that for my new year post.
but there’s still ‘dear santa’.

via: My Milk Toof

dear santa,
i don’t know what’s going on. no idea where this is all going.
but thanks for the big fat present! (:
never feel this bless for sucha long time.
for whatever that happened and bound to be happen, i’ll just try to enjoy every happy moments together.

i would give santa a hug if i could, bwahah.
cant quite wait for xmas dinner!! tonight, tomorrow night, and chirstmas night (:

this made me smile when i first saw it.
maybe not for the third picture but i’m sure you know why it made me smile.
this is just so you. the old you (:

and it’s already 4!!
i’ve been blogging constantly for 4 years!!
quite unbelievable as i like to do things halfway :\

now, the new skin shall be it’s birthday present.
i’ve put down so much on this blog of mine, my life is literally all written out on it.
not much interesting stuff but i do hope it helps to kill your time when you’re bored.

i’ve got a freelance job going on this week, time to get myself all busy again.
and also hopefully, more outing to entertain me.
so far, all is good. starting to enjoy myself with some friends again after loitering at home so much, surrounded by nothing but spider webs.
let’s just hope everything will finally fall back into place.

(: