* i went to leisure mall’s secret recipe alone to study. love the oh-so-comfortable sofa. (:

Media law’s midterm is finally over now. what a relieve.
i wonder what kind of marks will my lecturer gave me.
i did put in hard work and effort, but i know the way i study do not work quite well for me.
i’m a real tortoise when it comes to reading the text book, understanding it and whatsoever.
last night was really tensed.
study study study. headache. went to bed but couldn’t fall asleep.
get up, study study study. headache again. went to bed again. and i repeated this cycle for a couple of times. fml
i only have like, 2 hours of sleep.

but other than that, the exam seems to went well.
it seems like i do know the answer but then again, i dare not put in too much of high hope.
what if i get really low marks. omgwtf. *shivers*

* this is what accompanied me at secret recipe. i surprised myself by ordering chocolate strawberry cake.

why did i picked chocolate strawberry cake?
off to bed now. i have yet to recover from my 2-hour-sleep.

bwahahaa :’P
xmas is commmmiiiiinnnnnnnnngggggggg !!

therefore i decorated my blog. (:
and now my blog is snowing. ((:
the snow is soft and subtle, not gonna annoy the crap out of you when you read my post. heh..

looking forward to xmas yet at the same time, i fear…
fear of xmas for the first time in my life.
cause last year’s xmas still haunts me somehow .
i’m afraid that i have to go through the same xmas again, though i hope not.

no! i don’t want last year’s xmas to repeat, wtf.
but i guess it wont quite repeat itself again cause the cheras clan is organizing another party. (:

yours truly isn’t feeling quite well now.
having serious sore throat. yes, again! thank you, wtf.
might be the weather. it’s crazy.
hot like hell. rain. hot like hell. rain. hot like hell. rain. yada yada yada. damn!
and ouh, i guess my super-late-night early-in-the-morning sleep contributes to the not-feeling-quite-well too.

yah, serve me right. pffffft.
alright, off to bed now.
5.40 am. good job, wtf.

something is wrong with me. !
nights world.

Why is my bloody computer still not fix yet?
I seriously am not enjoying myself using my mom’s laptop. I don’t wanna share. :\

I can’t wait till that damn computer is fix. I want to use my monitor and blast the speakers. Ishh.
And there’s some stuff in my room that is still not done yet till today.
I have yet to paint my mini drawer and also hang both of my ‘notice’ board.
I want to get my computer fix first I don’t know why. But I want it that way. :\

I just shifted my bed and my table AGAIN. I keep shifting my room’s furniture .
I cant seem to find the perfect spot for my bed. I need and want to put my bed beside the wall.
I want to sleep with the wall, wtf. I feel more secure this way. :\
So at first my bed is under the window, beside the wall but because of my stupid air-con that leaks non-stop, I’m forced to shift it by my mom. And also she said bed under window is not a good fengshui or whatever it is larh.

So then I shifted it to the middle of the room and put my table under the window.
Which also means my bed is not beside any wall and every night I feel as if I’m falling. I hate that feeling. ):
And so I shifted my bed again. I think it’s gonna be great this time or so it seems. (:
I shifted my bed back to the window area but this time it is only the headboard that is under the window.
Of course the most important thing is that it’s beside the wall. Ah~~~ my wall. Lol.
My room also seems to be more spacious now. Ngehehe. (:

Oklarh, after my computer is fix then I’ll get the remaining stuff done then I can really take pictures and blog about my room jorr.
Pray that it’s gonna be quick. I keep ‘computer fix computer fix’, I find myself very annoying now. wtf.

Oh yah, on another note my blog is already 3. I totally forgot about it, damn.
It’s 3 already can you believe it? Three, tiga, sam, san………..three years. lol.
Oklarh, enough of all my stupid ramblings already. Just wanna update this blog before I go all busy again working here and there.

And birthday party pictures are almost ready but whether I have the time to blog about it in this few days is another question. Latest by next week. (:

Have a good day peeps. ♥

I’m toooooo lazy to sort out the pictures I took during TMusic Festival, so yeah no pictures for the moment.
Mom called and asked me if I want tickets and of course I said yes. Three free tickets, I went with the twin sisters.
I’m such a greedy girl, because I want to sit nearer. I’m pretty far behind.
I know right, free tickets and yet I still complain. Haha..

My pictures are all quite crappy cause I’m so far behind, and all I can snapped is the big screen in front of me. Wtf.
Never mind. Do go to Vvens blog for some really nice pictures that night. She’s at the VVIP area just right in front of the stage and her pictures are really awesome. :*D

There’s quite a lot of celebrity that night and my favorite is Justin, Soler, and CHIN from Thailand. I go crazy when Chin performed. He’s like super duper handsome can, I almost fainted. wtf. I think every girl likes him, toooooo good looking. T__T

My intention of this post is not to talk about TMusic Festival but I thought I should report a little and after I type and type about the concert, I’m totally blank on what I initially want to talk about. Shit. @_@

@_@
Still blanking.
I’ll come back to this when I figure it out . . .

Edited:
hur hur, i still can’t recall what I wanted to say.
and i’m having headache now. ):
don’t wanna think about it anymore, just let it be.. lol..
bai.

shit happens.
i’m too moodless to post anything .

not emo, just moodless.

edited: and now it seems like mr.cough is here to visit me. i hope he goes away tomorrow or i’ll be so dead.

Listening to old songs on LiteFM and missing daddy. Sigh, life oh life.

“To hold on to anything is like holding your breath. If you persist you’ll suffocate.”

via : ♥

the quote, how very true.
_
talked to the brother today and he asked me the same question i once asked .
and by that, it means i’m right this time . yes, i am .
the question i asked is really something we i should ponder on .

it’s just an excuse. no one knows it better than you do .
but i’m not gonna stress about it anymore . it’s not under my control anyway .
perhaps you should figure it out or perhaps not .
either way, we’ll have the conclusion sooner or later.
and by then, i’ll know if you’re just like any other one out there.

Yay!! You see the word pink? :’D
Its the twins 21st birthday and the dress code is pink. Not all, but most of us dress in pink. (:

* Their 4kg cake lighted with very nice Happy Birthday candles on top.

* Yay, looking very pretty and happy. (:

* Happy Birthday to the both of you.

* Although our friendship is not long I must say….

* …but I find it very easy for me to click with both of you…

* …and you guys are so funny, always making me laugh. *hugs* Btw, some people say we look alike, got meh??

* UCSI Mass Comm girls.

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* More mass comm girls except Wong Ee Cheeng, haha.

* Heh! With Esther and Apple. *aherm* LOL!

* UCSI-ans. Oh btw, ucsi sucks big time!

I promise to get you guys a present once I have the money kay? I’m like so broke right now, hur hur. ):
Hop over to MNEP after that for Ivan’s birthday. Yesh lar, birthday birthday birthday! @_@

* While heading to MNEP…

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me: oh hie there!

me: er… hie…

me: how are you feeling?

me: shitty!

me: do you think you’ll get crazy someday because you get upset over small issues or worst still, over nothing at all?

me: mm hmm.. *nods head* how?

me: ask yourself how.

me: that’s why i’m asking you how!

me: right! why do you get upset over little issues?

me: because i care? yes, i do care.

me: then why aren’t you telling people or to whom it may concern that you’re feeling upset over those issues?

me: because i dare not. i’m afraid you see..

me: afraid? of what?

me: afraid of shit happening? because when i keep silent, shit wont happen.

me: this isn’t you right?

me: the new me perhaps.

me: new you? since when?

me: hah! i don’t even know since when man. shocked you? because it shocked me somehow..

me: oh boy, yes it really shocked me.

me: changed without myself even realising.

me: from what to what?

me: from someone who must explain herself and letting people know her feelings/thoughts to someone who keep quiet even when stuff upset her. .. to someone who just follow, go along with it and say okay okay even when its not okay.

me: why?

me: i’m afraid, thats why.

me: afraid again?? of what?? gosh..

me: of everything. every single thing! afraid of history repeating itself, afraid of hearing any harsh words from people i love or whatsoever.

me: wow! vulnerable.

me: yeah.. one minute i laugh, the other minute i feel like shit.. then i laugh again.. its k-r-a-z-y!

me: do you need a psychologist?

me: wtf?! no!!

me: sure?

me: hmm… perhaps i do..

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如果我不是我 其实会怎么样?
有沒有人要做周碧琪?
我真的很累!

don’t worry! i’m still sane afterall.. .
hur hur, it took almost one hour for me to write these chinese words..
but i’m proud cause i can build sentences.. *flips hair* wtf!!