* That’s my reflection and BMW logo.

* He droves X6 to Penang. :\

Reached Penang at night, didn’t really do much except for preparing a little birthday surprise for Lee Kuan.
And by the way, there wont be any pictures of Penang food cause it’s pretty much the same as last year’s Penang trip and I’m really lazy.

* That’s Wilson and his bayang-bayang.

* Happy Birthday (:

* I love long candles.

* And a so called group picture but two person is missing in it.

We rented two apartments at Batu Ferringhi called Sri Sayang and that’s the worst place I ever stayed during trips.
It’s so bad, you cannot imagine. To the extend where a few of us wanted to leave that place and get another room at another hotel.

It’s old and dirty, nuff said.
Tried real hard to get over it and went to bed during the first night.
Plus the heater sucks, it turns back into cold water after a minute. WTH!

* The next morning.

* Went to a few temples after our lunch and as usual, I keep ‘bai bai’ when I’m in the temple. hah!

* Tip toe jor also so short, pfft.

* Humans in black.

Watched two football matches when we’re there.
All unexpected results. Parked our car at The Ship and have a walk.

* The Ship, memories. (:

* Went to the beach near our apartment after the football match. The sand is sooooo rough, the roughest sand I ever set foot on. We set candles, ate and chit chat by the beach. (:

Went up to Cameron before coming back to KL on the last day.

* That’s what we do while waiting for the others to arrive.

* I really like this picture a lot. By far the best picture we’ve taken since we split cause he doesn’t smile when he take pictures with me. ):

* Camwhoring with a DSLR and that’s my nude face.

Wanted to go to the night market at Cameron for all the nice food especially that ayam percik or ayam dara or something but it did not open!! Dissapointed sial.

* So we decided to have steamboat, charcoal steamboat.

And then a few of time went to crap at the hotel opposite of the restaurant.
Prolly too much Penang food and no one’s gonna crap at the apartment with that kinda toilet. Ugh!

* At the hotel, my zi mui and her boyfriend. (:

To be honest this trip is by far one of the most disappointed trip ever.
Sucky accommodation and lots of drama during the trip.
Sometimes when you decide not to hold grudges and let things go, the other party might not do the same.
Some people want peace, but some want drama.

Sigh, humans.

not ranting but i’ve got questions to ask.
will you choose the one you like over the one you might love?
will you choose friends over your soul mate?

the answer to it might seems obvious but if you notice, a lot of times it will be the other way round.
what if your friends doesn’t like your soul mate? what if your friends doesn’t like your another half?
will you give that person up just because your friends didn’t like him/her?
just because you don’t know how to face your friends when they ask? when you bring them out?

anyway, here’s a little something that i’ve been collecting.

what are the odds ?
the above statement sounds promising to a certain extent. hah!

have you been in the above situation?

this is so cute, haha. :3

4play on thursday. skybar on friday. swimming plus movie on saturday.
a laid back saturday. (:
it’s a saturday, so please do enjoy your lovely weekend people. (:

why my post like very random one? :\

Media law’s midterm is finally over now. what a relieve.
i wonder what kind of marks will my lecturer gave me.
i did put in hard work and effort, but i know the way i study do not work quite well for me.
i’m a real tortoise when it comes to reading the text book, understanding it and whatsoever.
last night was really tensed.
study study study. headache. went to bed but couldn’t fall asleep.
get up, study study study. headache again. went to bed again. and i repeated this cycle for a couple of times. fml
i only have like, 2 hours of sleep.

but other than that, the exam seems to went well.
it seems like i do know the answer but then again, i dare not put in too much of high hope.
what if i get really low marks. omgwtf. *shivers*

* this is what accompanied me at secret recipe. i surprised myself by ordering chocolate strawberry cake.

why did i picked chocolate strawberry cake?
off to bed now. i have yet to recover from my 2-hour-sleep.

therefore i decorated my blog. (:
and now my blog is snowing. ((:
the snow is soft and subtle, not gonna annoy the crap out of you when you read my post. heh..

looking forward to xmas yet at the same time, i fear…
fear of xmas for the first time in my life.
cause last year’s xmas still haunts me somehow .
i’m afraid that i have to go through the same xmas again, though i hope not.

no! i don’t want last year’s xmas to repeat, wtf.
but i guess it wont quite repeat itself again cause the cheras clan is organizing another party. (:

yours truly isn’t feeling quite well now.
having serious sore throat. yes, again! thank you, wtf.
might be the weather. it’s crazy.
hot like hell. rain. hot like hell. rain. hot like hell. rain. yada yada yada. damn!
and ouh, i guess my super-late-night early-in-the-morning sleep contributes to the not-feeling-quite-well too.

yah, serve me right. pffffft.
alright, off to bed now.
5.40 am. good job, wtf.

something is wrong with me. !
nights world.

I can’t wait till that damn computer is fix. I want to use my monitor and blast the speakers. Ishh.
And there’s some stuff in my room that is still not done yet till today.
I have yet to paint my mini drawer and also hang both of my ‘notice’ board.
I want to get my computer fix first I don’t know why. But I want it that way. :\

I just shifted my bed and my table AGAIN. I keep shifting my room’s furniture .
I cant seem to find the perfect spot for my bed. I need and want to put my bed beside the wall.
I want to sleep with the wall, wtf. I feel more secure this way. :\
So at first my bed is under the window, beside the wall but because of my stupid air-con that leaks non-stop, I’m forced to shift it by my mom. And also she said bed under window is not a good fengshui or whatever it is larh.

So then I shifted it to the middle of the room and put my table under the window.
Which also means my bed is not beside any wall and every night I feel as if I’m falling. I hate that feeling. ):
And so I shifted my bed again. I think it’s gonna be great this time or so it seems. (:
I shifted my bed back to the window area but this time it is only the headboard that is under the window.
Of course the most important thing is that it’s beside the wall. Ah~~~ my wall. Lol.
My room also seems to be more spacious now. Ngehehe. (:

Oklarh, after my computer is fix then I’ll get the remaining stuff done then I can really take pictures and blog about my room jorr.
Pray that it’s gonna be quick. I keep ‘computer fix computer fix’, I find myself very annoying now. wtf.

Oh yah, on another note my blog is already 3. I totally forgot about it, damn.
It’s 3 already can you believe it? Three, tiga, sam, san………..three years. lol.
Oklarh, enough of all my stupid ramblings already. Just wanna update this blog before I go all busy again working here and there.

And birthday party pictures are almost ready but whether I have the time to blog about it in this few days is another question. Latest by next week. (:

Have a good day peeps. ♥

My pictures are all quite crappy cause I’m so far behind, and all I can snapped is the big screen in front of me. Wtf.
Never mind. Do go to Vvens blog for some really nice pictures that night. She’s at the VVIP area just right in front of the stage and her pictures are really awesome. :*D

There’s quite a lot of celebrity that night and my favorite is Justin, Soler, and CHIN from Thailand. I go crazy when Chin performed. He’s like super duper handsome can, I almost fainted. wtf. I think every girl likes him, toooooo good looking. T__T

My intention of this post is not to talk about TMusic Festival but I thought I should report a little and after I type and type about the concert, I’m totally blank on what I initially want to talk about. Shit. @_@

@_@
Still blanking.
I’ll come back to this when I figure it out . . .

Edited:
hur hur, i still can’t recall what I wanted to say.
and i’m having headache now. ):
don’t wanna think about it anymore, just let it be.. lol..
bai.

not emo, just moodless.

edited: and now it seems like mr.cough is here to visit me. i hope he goes away tomorrow or i’ll be so dead.

“To hold on to anything is like holding your breath. If you persist you’ll suffocate.”

via : ♥

the quote, how very true.
_
talked to the brother today and he asked me the same question i once asked .
and by that, it means i’m right this time . yes, i am .
the question i asked is really something we i should ponder on .

it’s just an excuse. no one knows it better than you do .
but i’m not gonna stress about it anymore . it’s not under my control anyway .
perhaps you should figure it out or perhaps not .
either way, we’ll have the conclusion sooner or later.
and by then, i’ll know if you’re just like any other one out there.

* Their 4kg cake lighted with very nice Happy Birthday candles on top.

* Yay, looking very pretty and happy. (:

* Happy Birthday to the both of you.

* Although our friendship is not long I must say….

* …but I find it very easy for me to click with both of you…

* …and you guys are so funny, always making me laugh. *hugs* Btw, some people say we look alike, got meh??

* UCSI Mass Comm girls.

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* More mass comm girls except Wong Ee Cheeng, haha.

* Heh! With Esther and Apple. *aherm* LOL!

* UCSI-ans. Oh btw, ucsi sucks big time!

I promise to get you guys a present once I have the money kay? I’m like so broke right now, hur hur. ):
Hop over to MNEP after that for Ivan’s birthday. Yesh lar, birthday birthday birthday! @_@

* While heading to MNEP…

* The birthday boss, who keeps saying ‘ngo duk shu mm doh, lei mou lan 9 ngo!’.. go figure that sentence yourself, lol.

* Hur hur, stop saying I don’t have your heart cause I reach late and left early and all lor, at least I bought you cake mar, right right? And last year, I bought you cake too lor.. And and I came back for you lor.. Got heart one lor Mr.Ivan Teng!!

* Ah! The one beside me is a very good example of what we called as ‘bei’. Haha :’D

* The real boss Childson and me.

We didn’t stay at MNEP for long because we hop to another place again. :\
Initially, we wanted to join the twins and friends to party at Sunway, but then they said there’s police at Barcelona.
So I said okay, but there’s still other clubs there right……. tapi kawan twins tak nak layan aku!!
They went to KL Central’s club called Centro, I don’t know wtf is that. -______-
Nothing racist here, but I feel so bloody awkward to be there cause it seems like we’re the only chinse group there.
Eh, I feel so alienated lor please..

And then there’s these ladies dancing on top of the bar table, showing their thongs and p***y to these guys near them.
I went O_____________O”””’!!! Sorry, it really shocked me, wth.
Trust me, don’t ever ever ever go there. Shit club can be really shitty.

I hop back to MNEP after that because I promised Ivan boss and I was kinda shocked too because most of them looks so erm…… not sober for a reason I don’t wanna disclose. Hmm…..

What a busy night, going to places from places.
But anyway, Happy Belated Birthday to the three of you.
Lots of love… (:

me: er… hie…

me: how are you feeling?

me: shitty!

me: do you think you’ll get crazy someday because you get upset over small issues or worst still, over nothing at all?

me: mm hmm.. *nods head* how?

me: ask yourself how.

me: that’s why i’m asking you how!

me: right! why do you get upset over little issues?

me: because i care? yes, i do care.

me: then why aren’t you telling people or to whom it may concern that you’re feeling upset over those issues?

me: because i dare not. i’m afraid you see..

me: afraid? of what?

me: afraid of shit happening? because when i keep silent, shit wont happen.

me: this isn’t you right?

me: the new me perhaps.

me: new you? since when?

me: hah! i don’t even know since when man. shocked you? because it shocked me somehow..

me: oh boy, yes it really shocked me.

me: changed without myself even realising.

me: from what to what?

me: from someone who must explain herself and letting people know her feelings/thoughts to someone who keep quiet even when stuff upset her. .. to someone who just follow, go along with it and say okay okay even when its not okay.

me: why?

me: i’m afraid, thats why.

me: afraid again?? of what?? gosh..

me: of everything. every single thing! afraid of history repeating itself, afraid of hearing any harsh words from people i love or whatsoever.

me: wow! vulnerable.

me: yeah.. one minute i laugh, the other minute i feel like shit.. then i laugh again.. its k-r-a-z-y!

me: do you need a psychologist?

me: wtf?! no!!

me: sure?

me: hmm… perhaps i do..

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如果我不是我 其实会怎么样?
有沒有人要做周碧琪?
我真的很累!

don’t worry! i’m still sane afterall.. .
hur hur, it took almost one hour for me to write these chinese words..
but i’m proud cause i can build sentences.. *flips hair* wtf!!