Yay, at last 2008 is coming to an end. Frankly speaking, this is the first time ever in my life where I am so looking forward to a new year.
Every time when the year is ending, I don’t really feel very happy about it because I will miss that year. Like when 2005 is ending, I will miss 2005 a lot because it is a great year for me.
But this year, no. Really, this is one of the worst year in my life.

Hmm, what have I really done in year 2008?
I broke up, I was alone. I cry so much in year 2008. I cry at college, I cry in my room, I cry when I bath, I cry in my friend’s car, I cry when I sing K, I cry everywhere. Luckily I’m over it now and I no longer cry cause of sohai (oops, sorry..lol), so freaking relieve.

Somehow when I lose something so important, I get to gain more friends. I know who really care about me and who treats me like a rubbish (like I really am deserve to be treated this way, wtf..fuck u). I found different groups of friends and here I wanna say a big thank you to you guys who is there for me no matter I’m sad or happy. Thank you to those who fetch me here and there, I really appreciate it a lot. :’)

As for trips, I went to Genting with my secondary friends, we call ourselves the Cheras Clan. I also went to Malacca with my girlfriends. I really have a lot of fun. :’D

Hmm, although this year sucks max, but still I have a lot of happy moments that I will never forget. No matter happy or sad, I remember every single thing. How some people try so hard to make me happy and also how some people use their best effort to make my life miserable. I remember it all. Grr…

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I’m really happy that this shit year will end in less than 24 hours. :’D
A new year means a new resolution, as always. Okay, lets see my resolution for 2009..

* I want to be a happier person, free from all those stupid retarded stuff that those stupid retarded people bring to me. Hmm, in another words I want to control my own emotions and not other people controlling it.
* Complete my room a.s.a.p!
* I want to get better results for my Year 3 subject.
* Buy myself a Sony Vaio, hopefully by April.
* Exercise!!! Badminton maybe, jogging maybe, or sit up also can la..
* Oh boy, I wish to go to Thailand. I wanna go shopping at Thailand.
* I wanna go to a beach. I want, I want, I want.
* I want to earn more money, I want money. $.$
* I want my face to be skinnier, I want to grow taller, and I want my boobs to be bigger. lol, wtf.. Okay, I’m just joking…………..or maybe I’m not. lol
* I want world peace and also I hope everyone will love out environment more. <3

That’s all I can think of at the moment. Might add more if something comes into my mind. All in all, I wanna be a better person. :’)
Oh man, I’m so gonna celebrate new year tonight. To be honest, I have not celebrate new year in my entire life. I’m from kampung, lol..

Yay yay, I’m so excited already. Everyone, lets celebrate the coming of 2009 together. :’D Cheers~~

* I look damn chubby in this picture. Its called Hamburger face.. -.- And look at the bear bear, squashed. lol.. I just woke up and still in my pajamas.. :’D

Its my off day today. : )
I’ve been working for one week and now staying at home is really boring.
But I miss my baby cousin so much. I only get to see him on my off day. : (
I didn’t get to see him for one week only and he knows how to talk so much already.
He got this Madagascar toy from McD where he needs to shake it so that the sounds come out.
He shake shake but no sound come out and he says ‘mou seng’ (no sound).. lol..
He is just too cute. Haha..

Erm, I don’t know why I’m so so bad at handling my own feelings.
Like last night, I was kind of not happy but in a split second I’m very happy. -.-
My mood changes very very fast.
Or shall I put it this way, some people in my life just wont stop hurting me and some people in my life are there to make me happy.
But these people who are there to make me happy, will they be permanent there or is it just a temporary thing like always.
I’m not very sure myself. Last night was quite a good night except that I have a sucky dream.

See, sometimes when I try too hard I tend to put high hope on it. And most of the time I get disappointed in the end because things just wont turn out the way I want it to be. I know, that is what we call life. After so much failure, I sometimes don’t dare to go for the things I want anymore. But then my friend ask me not to be a coward. Coward will only fail and not success.
How true is this actually?

A very nice quote from Rocky Balboa.

Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain’t all sunshine and rainbows. It is a very mean and nasty place and it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain’t about how hard you hit; its about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward. How much you can take and keep moving forward.
That’s how wining is done. Now, if you know that you’re worth, then go out and get what you’re worth. But you gotta be willing to take the hit, and not pointing fingers saying you ain’t where you are because of him or her, or anybody.

Cowards do that and that ain’t you. you’re better than that.

Maybe I have to go through a lot of failures only I will finally success and have a really good one.
Anyway, I’m going for Madagascar tonight. : )))))))
Can’t wait for it, I’m excited. Haha..
Sometimes I tend to get very excited over little things and I’ll be really really happy when I get those things. :’D
I hope I’ll be really happy tonight. :’D
Can’t wait, can’t wait.