I said this more often than I should and each time I said it I feel a little older.
365 days passed, since my last birthday party with the girls.
It definitely felt like yesterday to me.
Memories so vivid.

I remember the people and noises they make.
I remember the scene and colours.
I remember the laughter and smile on everyone’s’ faces.

I remember everything being so perfect but at that very same moment I felt like the loneliest girl in the world.
Surrounded by so many people and laughter but yet I feel absolutely isolated. I isolate myself.
I forced myself to put a smile on my face, or rather fake a smile.
Something bothered me. My brain couldn’t stop thinking, my heart couldn’t stop rushing.
I was nervous and upset all together, I do not know what exactly to feel.
I try to be happy. I am happy for having my scorpio girls with me and my friends.
But I wasn’t entirely happy.

I was feeling down. I was emotional and people can tell.
I can tell from their faces that they know I’m feeling really emotional deep down.
Somehow or rather the look in their eyes make me wish that I weren’t there.

I remember that night.
I remember how I felt.
One year, everything changes.
I feel silly for being so upset last year at my birthday party. I should enjoy.

This year, it will not be the same.
I will be so much happier, this is for sure. (:
I’m excited and nervous all together.
Very looking forward to spend my birthday with the guy I love. (:

1. Falling in love.

2.

3. Enjoying a ride down the Country side.
4. Listening to your favorite song on the radio.
5. Going to sleep listening to the rain pouring outside.
6. Getting out of the shower and wrapping yourself with a warm, fuzzy towel.
7. Passing your final exams with good grades.
8. Being part of an interesting conversation.
9. Finding some money in some old pants.
10. Laughing at yourself.
11. Sharing a wonderful dinner with all your friends.
12. Laughing without a reason.
13. “Accidentally” hearing someone say something good about you.
14. Watching the sunset / sunrise.
15. Listening to a song that reminds you of an important person in your life.
16. Watching fireworks with the person you love.
17. Feeling this movement in your body when seeing this “special” someone.
18. Having a great time with your friends.
19. Seeing the one you love happy.
20. Wearing the shirt of a person you love and smelling his/her perfume.
21. Visiting an old friend of yours and remembering great memories.
22. Taking a warm bath in a bathtub.
23. Taking a bite on the food you’ve been craving.
24. Touching the snow for the first time.
25. Having your love saying that they’ll take you as their spouse in the future.
26. Finding out that the piece of clothing you wanna buy is dirt cheap.
27. Spending some time on a vacation with no worries in mind.
28. Laying on the grass, gazing at the moon and the stars.
29. Walking hand in hand under the drizzling rain.
30. When a shooting star appears in front of your eyes.
31. Sipping a cup of coffee, watching people passing by.
32. Shouting Merry Christmas / Happy New Year to people around you.
33. Receiving a big bouquet of roses.
34. Hearing from the person you love telling you “I LOVE YOU”

And I just have one of the best moment last night when,

35. Your love appearing on your doorstep without notice.

It’s really so nice of him to do so because I was having a rather bad night after OT-ing in the office. (:
Today marks the 10th month and I’m happy. (:

1. The weekend.
Yes, it’s just Monday but I cant wait for my weekend to come already. *excites*

2. 18th of October.
It’s my company’s soft launch plus it’s me and my fatty’s 10th month. He’s gonna be there for the soft launch, I’m happy (:

3. My stupid herpes to be gone.
I want to eat sushi and prawns and crabs and eggs so badly!!! So so badly ;(

4. Scaling my teeth.
When was the last time I’ve been to a dentist? Best thing about scaling my teeth 2 weeks later is that it’s done by Ben’s cousin and it’s gonna cost so little. Heh!

* TELL ME!! Where can I get balloons this BIG!? It’s so big, cute and beautiful and these to me, are happiness. Just some big ass balloons (:

5. My BIRTHDAY!
Not planning to make it big like the two previous year but still I am very much looking forward to it since it’s my first birthday with the fatty.
I’d love to have a mini garden party, filled with balloons and a swimming pool but what puts me in a dilemma is that I don’t want it to cost a bomb. This, I’m still figuring it out but I’ve already got it half planned.

6. Better days ahead, of course.

7. And PEACE!

Finally some free time for beloved blog (:

I’ve started work for a week now and all is well, I guess.
I like my office because it’s no ordinary office, my boss hired an interior designer for it.
It’s really cool, maybe I shall snap some pictures when all is ready.

There’s a soft launch coming up for the company and I’m in charge of it, it kind of scares me at first.
But now I find it fun, if only my boss really wouldn’t control the entire thing so much.

The best thing about working on the first day is knowing that one of my friend is actually working in the same company, and it’s his first day too. Such coincidence. (:

The company I’m working in is a branding and advertising company and my job position is a brand coordinator.
This, my boss just randomly came up the job position for me during interview.
Ironically, I somehow happen to skipped learning about branding during my 3rd year in uni.
I did not have the chance to because I cant adjust my time to the class and it’s not a compulsory subject.
But here I am, doing branding. Something that I tried avoiding because it sound like the toughest subject to me.

My time now is filled with working and working, and so does my mind.
There’s just too many funny things going on, I cant help sharing with the fatty everyday and it probably annoys the hell out of him haha.
I’m having fun working, if only our directions will change a bit.

If you’re looking for a branding or advertising service, or even printing do find a way to drop me your message. (:

Okay apart from working, I’m kind of down with sick.
Not entirely sick because it’s skin problem but I’m not entirely comfortable with it. It’s some herpes shit and it’s called ‘sang seh’ in Cantonese.
‘Sang seh’ is grow snake wtf.
Doctor said my body is weak, which is why and he gave me a buttock injection.
And I still need to go get another injection tomorrow. ):
Sigh.

I’m just really tired this week.
And I tell myself, I must find a way everyday to not stay back for OT.
I hate OT but who doesn’t.

I wanna go out tonight and have some fun, wherever it is.

There are times where I feel like I’ve been humiliated.
There are times like right now, I decided that being nice to certain people is pretty much pointless when people do not appreciate a tiny bit.

When you try to be a nice person, people try to be mean to you.
When you stop trying being nice and act normally, people are still mean to you.
When you stop being nice and start being mean, people cant quite take it but are still mean to you.

You get the whole picture, what’s the point of being nice when people throw you a cock-stare when all you do is trying to smile at them.
/STARE !

So I’ve came to my own conclusion.
I’m gonna double cock my stareness! Or double stare my cockness. /rawr

Just joking.
There’s no cock in my stare. Heh.

#caseclose

p/s: don’t tell me I can still be nice cause I no longer will. #theend