Exactly one more month till my 20th birthday.
I’m not really looking forward to it. : (
Gosh, I’m getting older and older.
Sometimes I still thought that I’m only 18 years old.
I wish to turn back time and be a 15 or 16 years old girl, the period where I have less problem and tiny tiny things can make me so happy.
More and more responsibilities as I grow older but then sometimes I still act like a young kid.

I am still a teenager for another 30 more days. I guess its time for me to be as rebellious as I want, to do everything base on my feelings without thinking for the last 30 days. I’ll be a young adult after my birthday and no longer can act like a kid.
Sigh, first time ever I don’t want my birthday to come.

On the other note, I’ve got a wish list for my birthday. : )
*Hint friends, hint*

1. Sewing machine

Yup, a mini sewing machine. I sew, but I use hands and it is so time consuming. I’d love to have a mini sewing machine, not big ones cause they are super hard to handle and I have one at home already. I’ve saw this mini sewing machine at Sungai Wang at it cost around Rm100 with warranty.

2. Pink Creative Zen Stone Plus

Yada yada, I know my friends have been telling me how sucks this Creative Stone is, but I want it anyway. Such cute mp3 and I’m so inlove with the colours. I like the fact that it comes with a build in speaker and it also has voice recorder. I know, why would one need a speaker in a mp3, but I need it. Can or not? Retail price is Rm249.

3. Pink Dell Laptop

My desktop will die on me soon because it has been serving me for more than 4 years and so I need a laptop to replace it. I’m gonna have my own room soon and my table will be small so I need a laptop so that it wont eat up much space. Haha.. And I need it for my college use. I wish to have Sony Vaio but its too expensive (I’m sorry Sony baby, I can’t have you right now :(, but I’ll buy you in the future, I promise. ) So, I have to buy Dell instead of Sony which is below Rm2500. Oh, and I want a pink one.

4. My Furnitures for my room
Lazy to find pictures, post it some other day.

5. Clothes, shoes, bags, accesories, ……………………………..
And the list goes on…. Will also post soon what are the never ending stuff that I want. Oh, and I mean lady stuff.

Ok, friends who wanna buy me presents for my birthday (I think I don’t have friends who wanna get me a prezzie but incase there are any..) please, you either buy the following above which is things I want, give me cash to buy myself, or don’t buy at all.
I really don’t wish to see my friends wasting money and buying things I don’t like which happen almost every year. Its better not to buy than buy things I don’t like, really.

But then it is even better to buy things I like than don’t buy at all. Hahaha..
Till then…

I am so so so so extremely lazy and so not in the mood to blog.
My assignment will due soon and final are coming.
Might not be updating in a short while. (Is my sentence even correct? wtf)

Everything depends on my mood now.
And I feel kinda tired these day, I guess I really need a good rest.

Yayaya, I know. July’s photo.
Sometimes I just get too lazy to upload pictures and blog about it.
And after that I forgot (excuses actually).

* I miss my long hair now. : ( Tell me I look better in my long hair or short hair!

*Crazy birthday boy who only know how to swears. -.-

*Me and the birthday boy. : )

*With Kai. Don’t want to show you all my super red face, so I edit it. Haha..

*Club half way go toilet and then camwhore. Hahaha.. xD

And then now I very lazy already, so byebye.

Yo peeps, I’ve done my supplementary test for my PR. : )
Huge huge relief actually but at the same time I am kind of worry.
I really have no idea whether I’m going to pass it or not, 50-50.
I hope I pass. I have to pray non-stop from now on.
I really need to pass this or else I’ll be so dead.
I’ve been studying for so so many hours for the past few days. But when I was about to answer the structured question, I went blank. Omg, super panic.
And I sit inside the hall for the whole 2 hours, which is something I normally will not do.
Another midterm exam coming on Monday and an assignment which looks like a tough one but am not very sure yet due on 3 weeks time.

So am I going to start studying and doing on my assignment? Yes yes, but not right away.
I’m going over Bangsar tomorrow and Bijou Bazaar on Saturday. : D
Shoooooooping day!!! How can I miss Bijou Bazaar? No way, I’ve been missing it for a lot of times.
I’m gonna do a Thank You post very very soon. I really have to thanks these people. : )

Sigh, stupid ulcers are all over my tongue again.
Oh, and and and being busy and concentrating on more important stuff is actually good because it keeps you away from stupid stupid things that comes into your brain when you are oh-so-free. Sigh, I know everyone knows this.

Oklah, nothing else to say. Byebye.
Oh, Moonlight Resonance is damn jeng. 4 more episodes to go.

P/S: I am so bad at giving tittles sometimes. I’ll just start with Untitled 1, Untitled 2, and goes on whenever I cant think of the title. :p

Happy Mid-Autumn Festival everyone.
I do look forward to Mid-Autumn Festival every year, but not because of the mooncakes because I don’t really like to eat them, but its because of the candles and lanterns.
I like how I can play with candles with my love ones and friends.
Every year I get so excited when it comes to Mid-Autumn Festival, especially the past 4 years.
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Like omg seriously, why is MNG always like that one?
Why is their baju all in big sizes one? Why is is that they state it is xs and size 1 or 2 but it is still so lose on me? I wear a size 6 or 8 for Topshop’s clothing but how come a size 1 or 2 for MNG is lose on me?
I know there is big size people, but then there is also petite people in the world.
Sigh, I wanna buy that skirt but its effing lose on me.

That is why I always prefer Topshop or Miss Selfridge because the cutting is so much nicer than MNG’s.
I shall start to dislike MNG from now. Pfft.

*Sheepish smile* hehehehehe…

Finally I get to cut my hair and colour it. =”D
Actually I wanna grow my hair long but then most of my friends say I look better in short hair. What say you? Its short short now but I’m loving it. : )

Hows the colour? Nice or not?

See, so sad one. I have to take my brother’s watch to wear. :”(

Say hi to Mr.Bean the brown bear who come all the way from England and has been living in the Chow’s family for like more than 10 years if I’m not wrong. Why name him Mr.Bean? Because my brother thinks that he looks like Mr.Bean’s teddy bear. Haha.. And btw, this is his bear. Lol.

So hows my hair?

Omfg!!!!!!!
Wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I’m so fucking piss off I wanna chop people’s head off.
What a nice way to start my friday, wtf.
Some fucking idiot broke my Levis watch and I don’t know who is that fucking idiot.
I woke up and the next thing I saw is my broke-into-half-watch.
My maid said she did not broke it. My mom say she did not broke it. My brother say she did not broke it. My aunt say she did not broke it. Who the fuck broke it then? My dad broke it ah? Wtf!!!

*My heart broke into half, my watch also follow me and broke into half. Wtf!

Wtf wtf wtf…
Now my maid tell me that it is my bloody retarded cousin who spoil my watch. Wtf man…
I no longer can stay under the same roof with this super retarded cousin.
My mom asked me to keep everything valuable with me because this retarded fella crazy.
My aunt say his retarded son wanna revenge wtf.
Revenge shit ah? I haven’t revenge he revenge. Since he stay in my house, we never have a peaceful day. Before this he stole Rm500 from my Atm and now broke my watch. WTF!!!
Well fine, I’m gonna claim back from my aunt. This stupid fella is so crazy my mom asked us not to disturb him and wait till end of the year for him to shift. I’m so annoyed. I’m gonna curse him forever and ever and ever!!! You will not know how I feel because I don’t think you have met such a retarded person in your life. Should send him to Tanjung Rambutan wtf.

P.S: I was so stunt this morning when I saw the watch and thinking although I say I end it for real this time but doesn’t mean have to spoil the watch he buys for me right? I’m seriously so sad and angry because I like that watch so much. :”( I AM VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY SUPER SUPER SUPER SUPER ANGRY!!! Sigh, I hope my watch can be fix.

Hi people.. :”D (waving frantically wtf)
It seems like I’ve been emo-ing for such a long time that I’m starting to feel tired now. Real tired.
Well, after the past two days of some stupid quarreling or debating or whatever shit it is, I am finally awake. (Clap your hands everyone!)
Things that you said to me is really like a big slap in my face.
Not that I agree on all the shits you say about me, but it is those shits you say that really wake me up.
From every single word you said, there is only one truth.
The truth is that you never try to understand my words, my feelings, and most importantly you never try to understand me. Maybe you can say that it is not the truth but at least to me, you are that way.
To you, I am always on the guilty side. I am always the one to blame. Doesn’t matter if the problem is between you and me, or between your close friend and me, or even between your normal friends and me, I am still the one to blame. Even though others are wrong, even though you are wrong but I am still the one to be blame. I’ve always try so hard to explain to you that I am not the way you think I am but I fail to do that. I fail miserably.
But today, it no longer matters to me. Its ok if you wanna put the blame on me. Its ok if you think I am like this. Its ok for you to think that others and you are all right but not me. Because I realise that what you think is what you think. I am 100% fine now if you think that way. No point for me to explain to someone who points at me and say that I am wrong in the first place.
I seriously let go after that conversation. I finally realise that you really don’t worth my tears. I finally see the real you. I no longer wanna lie to myself. Now I know we are better off this way. Now I see that we have no future from the start. I no longer wanna say you are the one for me, really, because I can feel it. Yeah, total bullshit that is. Seriously, to come to think of it, you really are not the one for me. There are so many things you fail to do but I do not want to mention. If you find your love one, I congrats you from the bottom of my heart and I will wish the girl good luck.
I’ve never feel this relieve. I do not want to cry for you ever again because I can see how not worth it is. I swear this will be put to an end and I hope I really can do it.

Are you people happy for me? (Please say yes even you are not, haha)
Emo things aside, whats next?
Omfg, I fail my subject for the first time ever. :”(
Sad right? And the stupid UCSI decided to raise up the stupid fees for resiting the exam from Rm100 to Rm200. Wtf la, awal tak naik harga, orang fail baru dia naik. Curse UCSI wtf.
But who call me so lazy, everyday masuk class to sleep only. My friend even snap photos while I’m sleeping in class and post it in facebook. Why la my friend like that?
Seriously, I don’t think I can survive if I continue sleeping in class (which is actually the first time only lo..) I no longer wanna be a lazy bum. I need to stop fooling around and really start to put some effort in my studies. I hope I can do that. Encourage me a little bit lah people.

Ok, sad things aside, whats next?
But this one sad thing also. I damn a lot of sad thing one, why ah?
I was suppose to take 2 subjects for this semester but unfortunately I can only take one.
Why? Why? Why?
Because the big spender here spend a lot of money and now not enough money to pay for 2 subjects wtf. Who wanna sponsor me?
I told my mom and ask her can pay for me first or not, then I’ll pay her back by January after PTPTN bank in for me. She say ‘talk money no need to talk’.. -.-
Since she said that, I have no other choice. The next day she said this to me, ‘If you don’t know how to take care of your own finance, you will not be success in your life’. Yes, my bad, my bad.
I’ve been thinking of what she told me for days now and I know what she say is so true.
So, what am I going to do? Sigh, I have to control myself and not use so much money. And and and I am going to work. I seriously need to work already if not sure bankruptcy. I will be more hardworking, study hard and work hard to earn my marks and money. I hope I have high endurance.

Alright, I’m done with all the emo, sad, and suffering stuff. :”D
I wanna cut short my hair. I’ve actually cut my hair before this but now I think its not short enough. Find one day I am going to cut it short and colour it. I’m bored with the black colour hair and also I’ve got this Snips offer where I can get Rm80 off if I do colouring. Good offer right? :”D
I wanted to write a long post but I’m sleepy now. There is a lot of things I want to have. Maybe I’ll just put it into another post some other time.

Faster say you are happy for me. :”D
I am happy for myself.

Omg, I’m having high fever.. :”(
39 Celsius omg..
I’ve ate like 2 Panadols but the fever is still there.
Now I have to wake up in the middle of the night to have Milo just to fill in my stomach.
People who are having fever are not even suppose to drink Milo. :”(
My body has been shivering since this afternoon, halfway through shopping with mom.. -.-
My body is like so hot. :”(