Also, in a week time Valentines Day will arrive filling the air with love.
As we always said it, everyday is or can be Valentines Day for those in love.
Exactly! Valentines Day can sometimes be a little too commercial and to me at times I see it as a reason or excuse to have a romantic dinner or a romantic getaway.
Yes, I am a typical girl who cant say no to anything romantic.

Since this and next week will be fill with love for most people, I decided to add a little love into my blog as well.
I’d like to turn these pictures into a real scene one day with my love before I die.

Sometimes I wonder, what love can do to people.
Happy Valentines Day in advance, go get some love! (:

As you all have known, the first three days of my Chinese New Year is spent rotting at my hometown.
Every year, me and my brother did nothing at our hometown except for rotting.
And my mom did nothing except for playing her mahjong.
Same old routine every year, without fail.

Forced my mom to drive us back to KL earlier on Chor 3 so that we don’t have to rot any longer.
I was all prepared for my day to kick start!

Went to Fatty’s cousin, Je Haw’s opening house to enjoy the Lion Dance, the food, the gamble session, and of course the ang pows given. /hehe

* Oh Hi there!

Fatty’s entire family was there, from grandma to parents to uncles to aunties to cousins!
I was stressed though not as stressed as last year.

And Fatty’s mom gave me an ang pow with a message on it, how nice of her.
I was really happy. (:

On Chor 4, I had my Chinese New Year dinner with Fatty’s maternal side at Cheers Palace just a few minutes away from my house.
We then head over to Alvin’s for some gamble session and I finally get to see Vivien after quite some time.
Was winning until Gavin played with us. I always, ALWAYS lose when he’s around playing with me. PFFT!

Played Chor Dai Di on the 5th and 6th day and surprisingly I won quite a lot.
In fact, it’s the most I’ve ever won from gambling in my entire life. T_T

Also on the 6th day I went to Fatty’s aunt’s to ‘bai nin’ with the family and went to Citta Mall after that.
Where the hell is Citta Mall, I’ve got no idea.
Watched I love Hong Kong 2012 after lunch and the movie disappointed me quite a bit.
To make a comparison with I love Hong Kong 2011, it was 50% less funny.

My Chinese New Year kind of ended right there and then because my life went back to normal.
Except for praying on the 8th day at Sin Sze Si Ya Temple and also ‘Bai Tin Gong’ at Fatty’s during the night.

It was a really small praying ceremony at his place compared to others because his mom wants it simple.
I kind of miss the roast pork I get to eat whenever I ‘Bai Tin Gong’.

I secretly wish that Chinese New Year is all year long.
Then we’ll have all the excuses to eat, gamble, and play like there’s no tomorrow.
Better make full use of the remaining for days and enjoy it to the fullest, if possible. (:

Chor 1 to me will always be the most boring day of the entire Chinese New Year, quite the opposite with most of the people who celebrates it.
Chor 1 to me means staying at home, we just don’t go anywhere because my mom is such an anti-social woman, she don’t go around visiting houses.
Which explains why I’m stuck her typing this away.

As usual I’ll be going back to my hometown, Bentong tonight after my dinner and will be back on Chor 3.
The only thing I’m looking forward to are the angpows, my little cousins and Astro.
All of us watch drama using laptop, we no longer need Astro at home.
But I want to see what ‘So Sifu’ aka ‘So Man Fung Sifu’ has got to say about the dragon year this year!

I’m a very weird girl.
Like a girl, I like to dress up. Like a boy, I like to play pool, watch football and even talks like one.
Like an auntie, I like to check out my bazi and be a superstitious auntie wtf.
Like a baby, I like to manja and cry wtf x 2.

Okay, cutting off the crap.
I just wanna wish you guys, my friends and readers a very Happy Chinese New Year and may you guys enjoy this Chinese New Year to the fullest.
It’s the Dragon year yo!

Gong Hei Fatt Choi.
Lung Ma Jing Shen.
Shen Tei Kin Hong.
Bou Bou Gou Sing.
Man Xi Yu Yi.
Ching Chun Xiong Ju.
Yong Mau Chut Zung (LOL).
Chut Yap Ping On.

Oi Chin Yao Chin, Oi Ouk Yao Ouk, Oi Cheh Yao Cheh, Oi Mat Yao Mat!!
(Want money got money, want house got house, want car got car, want what got what!!).

Xing ngo guai yin!!!
ENJOY PEOPLE!!! (:

I always thought to myself, “ohh when dragon year arrives again I’ll be a 24 adult, living like an adult”.
Little did I know ‘living like an adult’ actually means clubbing till the dawn breaks, hahahah.
I pictured myself as an working adult, full time looking like an office lady but what I pictured was far off.
Now how could I even picture myself in such a way, I cant explain.

It’s the last day of the rabbit year today and I welcome dragon year with my open arms.
I had my reunion lunch this afternoon at Oriental Viva with my siblings, a few of my relatives and my Ben joined in too.
Oriental Viva is under The Oriental Group of Restaurant which is the same group as Noble House and how glad my mom made the right choice, the food is indeed good.
Last year, we had our reunion lunch at home and the boyfriend still complains till this very day on how I’m such a careless girlfriend because I don’t bother getting him any dishes when he’s still shy.
Not too use to it at that point of time haha.

Did my first Lou Sang at Mei Keng Fatt the other day with a couple of friends and gosh, that dinner is one helluva dinner.

* Friends reunion dinner I called it, just to syok sendiri. Picture turns out blur because I’m in such a hurry to capture it one second before they start their ‘yuet lou yuet sang’.

* Every year I do this full with hope, hoping that what I wish for will come true, lol.

* Just half of our dinner that night. It’s a feast for the 7 of us.

* Of course, you go to Mei Keng Fatt for their crabs. We ordered two different dish of Sri Lanka crab and for one crab it cost about Rm70++. The above is one of the two crabs.

* The Sri Lanka crab is really big, the claw itself is almost as big as Daniel’s palm.

I enjoyed the dinner and came home with a a bulging tummy.
No. Not gonna wish you guys Happy Chinese new year yet, maybe tomorrow.
But hope you guys had an enjoyable reunion dinner with your loved ones. (:

I kind of miss 2011′s new year eve where I get to celebrate it with the most random friends, having lotsa fun and laughter.
Whereas this year, I start my new year with dramas.
Thanks but no thanks.
If you wanna be so insecure thinking that whatever people said is always about you, I advise you to not listen what people have got to say at all.
Your assumptions are not needed, you can save that for your close ones.

So I spent my new year eve at Vertigo, partying and I think we kind of made the wrong choice.
Crowd is lousy, music is lousy. It’s just so uninteresting it makes fatty and I miss Zouk, haha.
I was really tipsy that night and again, it’s rare.
My twin friend forced me to down a whole glass of liquor (mixed with coke) and I’ve got no choice but to down it or else she’ll probably pour that glass of shit onto me.
Yes, that’s the glass of liquor that made me tipsy.
One glass and that’s about it. I almost collapsed at the car park, dropped my heels that I’m holding and cbf.
Do not underestimate my lousy-ness wtf.

Right now, Fatty is trying to turn himself into a ‘fitty’, with much determination.
I hope the determination last more than a week, haha.

Fatty, I’ll reward you with whatever you want if you can keep that determination until Chinese New Year. :p

Bye 2011, you’ve been a very good year.
You’ll be miss. (:

Gonna party my night away and welcome 2012 with my love.
Hopefully there’ll be fireworks all around.
(:

This year, my life is full of love.
This year, my relationship with my mom did not worsen.
This year, Ben and I went to Seremban, Port Dickson, and Malacca together and we had fun!
This year, I received the biggest bouquet of roses in my life.
This year, I was in a long distance relationship for a month plus.
This year, I went to Melbourne for 3 months and fall in love with the place.
This year, I learned how to cook and bake.
This year, I learned how to keep a house clean.
This year, I made new friends and I miss the moments spent together.
This year, I had a couple of big fights with fatty.
This year, I experienced my first Autumn! (:
This year, I found a mini fish in a squid wtf.
This year, I went to St. Kilda and Dandenong.
This year, I tasted the best butter from Victoria Market.
This year, I tried Chai Latte and Churros in Melbourne and I like both of it.
This year, I enjoyed my Puffing Billy ride.
This year, my house did a renovation.
This year, I adopted a dog and we named it Freddy.
This year, I’ve figured that one of my favorite restaurant will be Nathalie’s Gourmet. I cant stop raving how good it is.
This year, I finally scaled my teeth after years.
This year, I’ve learned that there are all kinds of people in the world.
This year, I encountered what princess syndrome means and how these people are so full of self.
This year, bff came back from UK twice.
This year, I enjoyed all the nights spent partying.
This year, I did my first full time and encountered what #likeaboss means.
This year, I organized my first bazaar.
This year, I did not add another ink to my body. ):
This year, I went to Port Dickson, Malacca, Penang, Seremban, and Hatyai with friends.
This year, I know which friends are true and which are the users.
This year, I spend our birthdays, Valentine, Christmas, and Anniversary together.
This year, me and fatty had a lot of good meals together.
This year, my boyf grew fatter.
This year, I fall in love deep and hard.
This year, I am blessed.

Next year, I want to get my mind straight. Start working, stop slacking.
Next year, I want to love deeper.
Next year, I want to forgive faster.
Next year, I want to be as patience as I can.
Next year, I want to learn to treat people nice even though they are not treating me nice.
Next year, I must find a way to turn my fatty into a ‘fitty’.
Next year, I WANT TO APPLY MY VISA AND HAVE IT ON MY HAND!!!
Next year, I want to fly to Melbourne and not come back for at least more than half a year.
Next year, I want to work in Melbourne, whatever job it is.
Next year, ……………. oh dear God please grant my wish!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Next year, I want to start exercising.
Next year, I want to continue exploring the art of cooking.
Next year, I want to save up money to explore the world with my love.
Next year, I hope the world will be free of disaster unlike this year.
Next year, I want all my family and friends to be happy and free from heartache.
Next year, I want everyone to stay healthy.

Next year, I WANT TO BE WEALTHY. wtf

I have been going to Penang for three consecutive years including this and this time round, there’s no pictures.
This is a lazy trip, eat and sleep and that’s about it.
The best food I ate in Penang was the Asam Laksa. So darn good, I feel like I can eat a bowl even if I’m mad full.
But I didn’t of course.

We stayed in BayView Resort and although the hotel is a little worn out, I still did enjoy my stay there.
The dark room we slept in.

I miss Penang and the trip already!
I miss sticking to the boyf day and night, haha fuck-his-life.
I miss all the crapping moments in the car.

It was a great trip and I cant wait for another one to come.

Things weren’t that bad, everything was still under my control until I lost something so important which lead to yet another financial crisis.
Here I am, bearing the consequences of being a clumsy girl which cost more than my one month salary.
Yes, fml indeed.

I was pissed off yesterday morning, for not getting my pay on time because what I’m left with is the last drip of ‘water’.
So the news that reached me yesterday morning is not the most pleasant thing to hear.

Debt, debt, and more debts. Money, money, and ……… Y U NO AND MORE MONEY!?
I have yet to jump from Penang bridge feeling like a bankrupt woman because I have really good friends around me to give me a helping hand.
They helped me a lot through all these years, whenever I needed them and I cant thank them enough.
So much that I’m about to say, ‘ngo yat sai dou wan mm sai’.

The fact that my mom ( who has got a heart as emotionless as a stone just kidding ) stop giving me allowance 6 years back during form 5 really taught me how to be independent and indebt.
I wouldn’t say it’s a BAD thing though sometimes when things got out of hand I’ll get piss at the whole concept she came out with.
Work if you want money and there’s no way I can get even ten bucks from her if there’s no solid reason and the solid reason is most of the time when I need it for seeing a doctor.
This, I die die also force her to pay lorh since she’s not paying me allowance and my uni fees.

People my age, a lot of them are already feeding their own car, feeding themselves, and feeding their family.
As for me, what I manage to do at this moment is just feeding myself and two months later give a portion of my salary to my mom.
This is all I can do for the moment, not up to my expectation but anyhow I’m still proud of myself when I know that there is also a lot of people my age still asking shit loads of money from parents, swiping credit cards, not working and not doing anything meaningful.
But then again who wouldn’t want to be in that position? Stress free!

Money, it can either create problems or solve problems.
I remember when I was young, my uncle’s then girlfriend told me that money is something one should look at when you’re in a relationship.
My answer to her was, “NO! As long as I love my boyfriend or husband, I don’t mind him being poor.”
Was I naive? Maybe yes, maybe not.
Of course, at this point I still don’t think it’s all about money and I will love my another half no matter what.
But having said that, money somehow or rather can still be an issue in a relationship sometimes.
Especially when both are mad broke.

But one thing for sure, I will never feel the pressure that I need to dress myself up in branded clothing just because my another half has got the ability to dress himself up in them.
Or I will never feel the pressure to dress my another half in branded clothing just because I have the ability to dress myself up in them. (having the ability to dress myself up in those, of course have yet to happen and might take a million years though I hope not)
To be in that position that brings pressure, is somewhat pathetic.

Money, they do buy happiness.
Maybe short term happiness, or maybe not.
But without money,……. you do the imagination.

One fine day when I earn big bucks, I swear I’m gonna buy my mom a five figure Ebel watch because the Ebel she’s wearing now should be put in the museum. She bought it for herself at the age of 21!
That watch is even older than me!

That one fine day better come!

I’ve knew her for long, well I would say it’s long enough for me and her to get this strong bond. As we grow older (fml I think we are getting older aren’t we?) I realize it’s just so hard to get a friend like that. It’s never easy. I remember clearly some words from a very good friend of both of us. She said “friends are forever”. I never quite thought about it until I heard it from her, and like I said earlier, as days go by, people come and go, those who actually made the effort to stay, is rare. We can always understand each other easily, even people around us who is actually listening to our conversation don’t really know what we actually on about, we sort of like having a secret language or code, that can only understand by me and her. And I’m loving it. (:

Think properly, it’s actually harder to maintain a friendship than a relationship. Well, at least to me it is. Friendship doesn’t involve commitment, it’s based purely on trust. You are not obliged to update what’s happening around you lately, you are not obliged to keep in touch with them, you do it on your own, your own will. What more when I’m not even around her? I’m in this land, far away from home, it’s even harder with the huge time difference that we got. But nevertheless, we still make it through and here I am, writing my very first blog post. (:

In this month of November, which is kinda special to me. Probably is me that having too much time in my hand, makes me think even more. This is our favorite month I must say, and the reason for it is clear. *evil grins*
But ironically, we only celebrated each other’s birthday for once. Ya, you got me right, it’s only once in these 7 freaking years. I think we got some curse for it or something. )): is there anyone out there that can break the curse for us? D:

For me leaving my beloved country to live and study overseas it’s a really good experience I must say. It tells me a theory that I’ve already knew “幸福不是必然” I knew it, but I never actually felt the meaning of it, not until I leave Malaysia. Friend like this never easy to find and I must say that I’m very very very lucky to have one. Families that are always with me is precious.They are my everything. They are there no matter what I’ve done, how rebellious I was, they are there to forgive me, encourage me, giving me support and what not. They are everything that I needed.

Relationship, going overseas is killing, LDR is never fun, you don’t feel like you’re actually in a relationship when you are having a LDR. Everything feels so unreal, all you do is, video calling as if he’s beside you when you needed him. But it’s never the same, you wouldn’t get cuddle, you wouldn’t get kisses like you normally do. Everything is just so surreal. But I guess that I’m blessed, he didn’t love me any lesser, he still loves me like I never left before. Sometimes I wonder, what have I done in my past life to deserve such a perfect guy like him? I think it’s miracle (:

I think I’m pretty blessed. Good friends, good families and a good relationship. What can I ask more? How can one not blessed when you have a friend like Peggy Chow, that will share all my ups and down. She never went away when I was down, she’s always there when I needed her, she’s always here to share all my happiness and the downside in my life. She’s the one who will cheer me up when I’m not, giving me advice when I’m confused, opening me up when I’m overly stubborn. I’m blessed to have her.

But here again, another year that I couldn’t sing happy birthday song to my bff. The thought itself makes me sad already. )): but nevertheless, I know that she will still have a great one with her love one around her, and this makes me feel better and happy for her, truly from the bottom of my heart. (:

Okay, I think I’m writing a really really long essay here. I guess I should stop rambling in case you guys got too bored and blame Peggy Chow for this ><

And lastly, happy birthday Peg, may you have a great one. (:

Lots of love. xx
Sincerely,
Your partner in crime

I remember the people and noises they make.
I remember the scene and colours.
I remember the laughter and smile on everyone’s’ faces.

I remember everything being so perfect but at that very same moment I felt like the loneliest girl in the world.
Surrounded by so many people and laughter but yet I feel absolutely isolated. I isolate myself.
I forced myself to put a smile on my face, or rather fake a smile.
Something bothered me. My brain couldn’t stop thinking, my heart couldn’t stop rushing.
I was nervous and upset all together, I do not know what exactly to feel.
I try to be happy. I am happy for having my scorpio girls with me and my friends.
But I wasn’t entirely happy.

I was feeling down. I was emotional and people can tell.
I can tell from their faces that they know I’m feeling really emotional deep down.
Somehow or rather the look in their eyes make me wish that I weren’t there.

I remember that night.
I remember how I felt.
One year, everything changes.
I feel silly for being so upset last year at my birthday party. I should enjoy.

This year, it will not be the same.
I will be so much happier, this is for sure. (:
I’m excited and nervous all together.
Very looking forward to spend my birthday with the guy I love. (: