what a day man!
woke up at 10 today. group discussion at 11 plus until 7.
went home, eat my dinner and continue on my assignment till now.
its 12.30 midnight!!!

i feel like dying. U__U
i still need to send another assignment’s draft to my friend but my brain is shutting down anytime soon.
omgbbq @#&&*^#(@&#*)*#Q&(&()@*&!@!

okay! done with my ranting. i need to sleep!!!
plus, today’s an emo day. fts(fuck this shit) LOL!
nights.

no no. i am NOT abandoning my blog.
well actually i plan to take a short hiatus but i’m afraid no one will ever visit my blog again. :\
so here i am, trying to fill my blog with craps again.

i will only be absolutely free after 16th April.
one more freaking month.
tons of work but not as stress as all the previous semesters.
because i did not procrastinate and all my work is on track. (:

took a break yesterday.
went to the mall during noon, movie at night and straight to skybar after that.
i’ve been wanting to watch Alice in the Wonderland but tickets are all sold out. gahh!
so second option, Up in the air.

the movie is really good.
something different. something unexpected.
it puts me into thinking.

i’m a lot like one of the character in the movie, natalie.
if you have yet to watch this movie, whatever you read after this line might be a spoiler. :X
so, there’s a scene where natalie’s bf dumped her through text message.
she’s upset bla bla.. then she said something like this..
‘when i was 16.. i plan to get marry when i’m 23. i should be engage by now.’

i stone for a moment. look at ee cheeng who sits beside me. she looks at me.
and we both laugh!
indeed when i was 16, i plan to get marry when i’m 23. i wanted to get marry when i’m 23. and now that i’m 22, i should be engage soon. HAHA!
and then have kids. and be a housewife. wait for the husband to get home, prepare him dinner and what not. natalie said something like that too.

maybe. just maybe this could happen if it goes according to what i plan. if there’s no breakup in between.
but i grow up, this is totally out of my plan now. hah.

and the way natalie asked george clooney, how marriage never cross his mind and all sorts of this kinda question..
i’m exactly like that too. because i once asked this kind of stuff. with a strong expression, haha.

this movie is worth watching. but not all likes it though, some find it boring.
as for me, i feel like watching it again. and pay more attention to the content and script.
good movie. (:

it’s been awhile since i last camwhoree!! hah! camera berkarat soon. :’D

this week started off as a hell for me.
as i said earlier, holiday turned me into a rather lazy girl.

a lazy girl bombarded with plenty of assignments equals to *^$@&#*#&@^&@ *dut dut dut* !!
but my hardworking spirit *cheh* came back after a day.
its not that bad after all and now I’m so use to it.

waking up so early almost everyday.
discussions for hours and hours till evening.
nap for only an hour.
and go to bed earlier than usual.
sangat ber-routine, hah!

***
my lecturer asked us a question in the class the other day.
‘who had been in love before?’
some of the students raised up their hands. i did not.
i cant tell you why i did not raise up my hand, cause i myself do not know why either.

she asked for the second time.
‘who had been in love before?’
and more students response by raising up their hands this time, including myself.

she then asked another question.
‘whose heart had been broken before?’
i looked at her. i took a glimpse at those around me.
once again students raise up their hands.
i then raised up mine slowly, feeling rather stone because i wasn’t expecting my lecturer asking all these kind of questions in the class.

then she told us.
‘those who had their heart broken are those who love passionately.’

she once interviewed a drug addict.
she described this drug addict with a word.
skinny.
almost fleshless, what’s left is only bones wrapped by his skin.

then she told us how this drug addict inject himself.
i’ve got no idea how he did it but what she said was, he leaned on the wall, pushed himself into the needle, poking through his feet.
not on any part of his body but his feet.

heart-wrenching.
i know if i’m there to witness this scene, i’ll cry.

she asked him, what is the reason he did drugs.
and he answered, the girl he love left him.

my heart literally stopped for a moment.
‘those who had their heart broken, if they are painter they no longer paint, if they are writer they no longer write.’

this story just hit me somewhere. somehow.
i feel really sad for him.

love. can be the best thing yet the worst.
seems like. it can lift you up to heaven yet it can push you down to hell.

so beautiful .yet so ugly.

it’s gonna be a very hectic week i suppose.
lots of group discussion and assignments for me to figure out.
i guess i had too much fun from this year’s chinese new year, all these assignments somehow disappeared from my mind.
and now that the due dates are near, the stress is back. :\

don’t think i’ll have the time to update this blog in the following week and in case i really don’t, please don’t miss me. HAHA!
i’ll try to, lots of pictures i have yet to post.
holiday’s a bitch, they always somehow turn me into a very lazy person.

anyway, i’ll still update my plurk though.
i cant stand not voicing out whatever that’s in my mind.
about the don’t miss me, i’m just joking.

please miss me. (:

boo! holiday is over.
back to reality once AGAIN.

its been a week since i last blog.
lotsa activities this chinese new year.

went back to hometown on chor2.
came back on chor3 and almost right away i went to my friend’s place to bai nin.
chor4 we went to ken’s house, lou ’smelly’ sang and gamble.
chor5 went to G6 for poh juan’s birthday.
chor6 went to cameron.
chor7 went to ipoh. then to phuture for thom’s farewell.
chor8 went to skybar.

see! wtf.
i’m listing it all here to explain why i did not update my blog.
and i know i look like an idiot now. lol

and today. i stay at home to do my assignment which is due tomorrow.
damn! i almost , nearly, hampir-hampir, zan dit dit forget about my assignment.
luckily it ain’t that tough, or else i’ll be so dead.

i really like this year’s chinese new year.
i enjoyed myself. with my family and friends.

pictures. not ready yet.
i’m lazy slash tired. wait till i’m real boring, then i’ll resize and edit the pictures.

one week of holiday almost turned me into the old peggychow.
*slap slap* back to ‘i’ve got 8 o’clock class tomorrow’ kind of life.

everyone dreads going to class and work after cny.
:X

hieeeee!!
a short post from hometown.
currently trapped at bentong with ze family and relatives.

gonna go back to city tomorrow and bai nin with my big bunch of friends. (:
didn’t expect much from this year’s cny but so far, it seems to turn out pretty good.

* a girl with a smile on her face (:

hope you guys are happy too.
collect tons and tons and tons of angpows. heh.

it’s chinese new year all over again.
say hi to red packets. long lost relatives. mandarin oranges. fooooooods and snackss. and little casinos.
chinese new year always lifts up the mood.
very much different from christmas, i feel more excited during chinese new year.
fire crackers and loud new year songs maybe.

* here to wish everyone a very happy chinese rawr rawr year. gong heii fatt dai choii ((:
fatt fatt fatt. *please let me win every time i gamble this year* wtf

and of course not to forget valentine’s day.
hah! bonus for those who aren’t celebrating valentine this year, like me.
because we have chinese new year to accompany us, bwaha.

* happy valentines day to all lovers and to all singles as well. (:

my family and i will be having steamboat for our reunion dinner.
i’ve got no idea why my mom chooses steamboat when the weather is so friggin hot.
but oh wells..

oh ya! no red nails this year. ):
my friend told me that because this year is a tiger year and bla bla bla..
we shouldn’t paint our nails red and wear too much of red bajus. ):
must use more blue to neutralize whatever shit it is..
aih, chinese new year i like to wear red red one lorh but noww.. pfft

call me superstitious.

* i went to leisure mall’s secret recipe alone to study. love the oh-so-comfortable sofa. (:

Media law’s midterm is finally over now. what a relieve.
i wonder what kind of marks will my lecturer gave me.
i did put in hard work and effort, but i know the way i study do not work quite well for me.
i’m a real tortoise when it comes to reading the text book, understanding it and whatsoever.
last night was really tensed.
study study study. headache. went to bed but couldn’t fall asleep.
get up, study study study. headache again. went to bed again. and i repeated this cycle for a couple of times. fml
i only have like, 2 hours of sleep.

but other than that, the exam seems to went well.
it seems like i do know the answer but then again, i dare not put in too much of high hope.
what if i get really low marks. omgwtf. *shivers*

* this is what accompanied me at secret recipe. i surprised myself by ordering chocolate strawberry cake.

why did i picked chocolate strawberry cake?
off to bed now. i have yet to recover from my 2-hour-sleep.