I often asked, ‘Why and how can things be THIS expensive!?’.
Feeling angry deep down. Angry at that stupid thing for being this expensive, angry at myself for not being good enough to have the ability to purchase it and also angry at whatever it is asking why is it so unfair.

(I often ask but I don’t often feel angry lah, just sometimes lah when I pms.)

Sometimes I’ll go, ‘diu nia sing ah. gam lan guai meh. gam lan mm gung ping geh. meh sei gai‘. HAHAHAHA!
Most of the time I do this in front of my bff.

Just like last night after my dinner with Fatty at Fahrenheit, we decided to take a stroll and window shop at Pavilion.

Zara’s window display attracted me into their shop, as usual.
I have always like their window display!
Their collection this season makes me cringe.
Because they’re too beautiful and I cant afford them!
I love what my eyes saw and I love their fabrics too.
But I no like their price tags. ):

I said to Fatty,  ‘Hmph! You see what will happen if I have the ability to shop like I own Zara!’.
I almost ‘fat din‘ hahaha.

Also not to forget Aldo, one of my favourite shoe brand though I don’t own one yet.
Their heels are breathtaking.
I like going into Aldo and trying on their heels, and then leave just like that. HAHA!

Fact is, I can actually buy a pair of their heels but I just cant allow myself to do so when it’s gonna take a portion of my salary.
When that pair of heels can buy me a 3 days 2 nights trip to Pangkor or wherever.
Ngo zip sau mm dou lorh.

And then I told myself last night, one fine day I’m gonna fucking own one of those babies.
One fine day when it doesn’t hurt to get one.

I’ll be so proud to buy myself an Aldo!!

For now, I’ll wear my Rm60 heels that hurt my feet every single time.
But it’s okay, I tell myself.

I’m a tamed shopaholic.
But I wasn’t one long ago.

I have this habit in me which I named it as ‘just-buy-la-don’t-care’.
I’ll buy whatever I like even when I’m about to go broke and the consequences that it brought to me is indeed a good lesson.
So, I’m quite well-trained now I must say. Haha.

I determine my own shopping day.
Saw something I like. Not shopping day. Must not buy.
But one downside to this is that once my shopping day is here, sometimes I lost control due to controlling too much. Terpesong, terbabas. Suka hati lah. 

My bff said something I did not realize, ‘At least you can afford everything you’re having now. You can afford your life. You come across us/them owning better things than you but in fact they themselves cannot afford buying it. They cannot afford the life they’re living, what they’re having now are all from their parents.