Its 4pm now and I guess by 22 hours more he will be leaving me and fly to New Zealand. Its so sad, really. I cry when we are in the car, cry when talking to him halfway, cry when watching tv, cry when hugging him, cry when I look deep into his eyes. We’ve been together almost everyday for the last 3 years and now, him leaving me for one whole year. How am I going to go through it? All the ‘no mores’ and ‘cants’ make me feel even worse. Cant watch movie together, cant play pool together, cant hold his hand, cant hug him, cant sleep with him, cant see him do his silly face, cant shopping together, no more tickling him, no more cooking for him,…….. just so many cants and no mores. I’m so emo right now.. I’m so tired from all the cryings..