Looking at the cloud and the sky today, I notice that today’s clouds will not appear in tomorrow’s sky. Today’s clouds will never appear again, no matter how alike the clouds may be, but it will never be the same. Life goes on everyday, and clouds changes everyday. We must appreciate what we have today, just like the clouds, if you misses today’s cloud, you can never get it back.
While I look at the cloud, I thought of my father, and the song I’m hearing at that moment is Perfect from Simple Plan. He treats me very well, very very well. But I don’t think I am the perfect daughter. I remember I promise him to get 5A’s for my UPSR but I fail to do so. All I get is 2A’s, and 2A’s again for my PMR. I remember me crying so hard when I get my result for my UPSR, because I cant do what I promise him. I cant explain the feeling inside my heart. Always, I ask myself, why must the God choose me? Why must it be me, why choose to take away my father.
When I grow older, I still ask the same question. I know, life have to face death in the end, but I just cant accept it. Recently, I often get sad because I really miss him very much. Every year, when my birthday arrives, I will count, ‘He did not celebrate my birthday with me for 2 years already’, 3 years, 4 years, and the list goes on. My heart will ache whenever I think of him..
I miss you dad.. I love you..