My words

Stop giving me all the bullshits already.
I never want to hear anything from you again.
Enough is enough.
Your thinking is your thinking, mine is mine and if you think what you do is right, by all means go ahead.
Every single words from you, before or after is making no sense.

Seriously, you need not explain anymore and I do not think you have anything to explain either.
Its not don’t know how, its that you cant.
Yes, you asked me to put myself in your shoe.
You think I didn’t care for your feelings? Do you really think so?
I cared for your feelings. You want answer, I give you my answer without lying at all.
I see you suffering, I asked if you want me to leave and you said no. Didn’t I care for your feelings?
Even if my caring didn’t make you feel any better, but I really did tried.
Do you think I’m the kind of person who like to make another person’s life miserable?
I’m sorry if I did but I do not have the intention to do so.
Don’t you know me well enough?

But why didn’t you put yourself in my shoe?
Its not about how good you treat me. I can never deny that, you indeed treat me very good.
But behind of all these, isn’t there something else?
After knowing so much, it just don’t seems like it.
If you weren’t comfortable when you are with me, then just tell me.
Stop making me guess, I hate guessing game.

You wasn’t comfortable but you keep your damn mouth shut.
What about me? I never thought of you being not comfortable.
So i just wait…………………and wait.
And in the end what I got?
Just because of you being not comfortable and not telling me the truth, I have to go through all those heartbreaks myself.
You think I can actually endure that, do you?

Just because you are not him, doesn’t mean the pain you bring is any lesser.
Its actually not that bad in the first place, but you just keep making things worst.
When you try to explain, when you try to give me those excuses with your damn tone, with E-V-E-R-Y S-I-N-G-L-E thing you said, things just get worse and worse.

I don’t get it why you find it so damn hard to tell me the truth.
You assume people will be like this also, you assuming if people were in your situation, they will find it hard to tell the truth.
No, its not.
Its nothing hard and I don’t know why you find it so hard.
I don’t get it why you have the guts to make the decision and do it, but you do not have the guts to tell me.

I do not wish to say anything anymore as I can see, it will not make any difference.
To you, you already have that thinking.
You can’t tell in the first place, put myself in your shoe, and many more which I don’t even feel like remembering.

No more excuse, no more explanation.
Whats done is done, whats said is said.
I need a break from you or else I will be even more piss off.
Thanks for making my life miserable like my life is not miserable enough, how nice of you.
Keep those bullshits to yourself, thank you.

2 Comments

  1. Susan January 24, 2009

    Girl, don’t emo =( … wait till i finish my papers then we can bitch non stop okay? hold all that grudge and leave it all for the bitching session =) … for now, cheer up okay?!


  2. Peggy January 25, 2009

    Susan: You having your papers? Haha, alright. When you are free from all those exams, just give me a nudge at msn. I’m fine, thanks. : )


Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *