Sorry for the one week disappearance. Almost a week.
I’ve got so much to tell I don’t even know where to begin.

Firstly, my blog was down previously for a day or two.
Every time when it’s down, it scare the crap out of me.
And hate it too because I cant blog when I want to.

When it’s back to normal again, I lost the mood to blog.
Kept telling myself cant be wasting time blogging when there’s a damn report sitting quietly at the corner waiting for me to finish it up.
Last report for my entire degree and no, I’m not appreciating it.
It just gives me so much pressure (I really don’t know why), all I want is to get over and done with.
And I considered it done now, thank god.

In between of all these, I worked for two days at MIFF.
Guess what.
As a translator for china man. I know how funny that sounds.
My mom LOL-ed when I told her that and she said I cant even understand Mandarin. Pfft!
It’s not even that bad, I really do understand what they were saying and translate it successfully.
Had fun working and actually feel happy about it. Something different (:

Besides that, my house is under major renovation.
Out of the blue, mom just decides we need to renovate the house.
I’ve been living in this house for 20 years to be exact. And I love my house.
Too damn much memories in it, be it good or bad.
Renovation will take a couple of months, prolly by the time I’m back from Melbourne my house will look totally different.
No mix feelings, only sad feeling.
My house didn’t change much all these years.
I just wish it can look exactly the same, how it looks like when dad is still around.
It just feels like something will be gone forever.
Once I step out of this house to board the plane, it will never look the same again.
Man, this feeling is not a very good feeling. I’m gonna miss my home so damn friggin much!!

Enough of the home, had a be-early birthday dinner with mom since I cant spend time with her during her birthday.
Really had good quality time with her and my brother yesterday.
We talked and laughed so much during dinner. I hope she enjoyed it as much as I do.
I’m gonna miss her much. It feels terrible to leave her at home just like that.
Yeah I know she’s not 70 years old but I just feel so sad to think that she’ll be lonely at home without me and my brother. ):
Thank god my brother is graduating real soon, home will be complete once again.

A part of me wants to go to Melbourne right away and another part of me wants to hug my house and never let go off my hands.
I know I cant hug my house but yeah, that’s what I feel like doing.
Me and my self-contradiction.