I’ve made a decision to try and start blogging again after my previous post.
I used the word TRY because I really don’t know how long will I stay this time nor do I know how often will I update my blog.
I’m pretty unsure of my future right now so I can’t be sure of how committed or dedicated can I be this time round but I will definitely try.
I am currently at a crossroad not moving forward because I am very unsure of which route to take. I do not want to make the wrong decision cause I hate making them and I will beat myself up for it. I have one too many wrong decisions in life and I just really don’t wish to make another.
I know this is self contradicting when I have a ‘never a failure always a lesson’ etched on my body forever.
Too many a times the only person whom I can’t seem to forgive is myself.
Anyway, doing this is like reuniting with an old friend who knows me inside out, I do find comfort in blogging.
I always do, I’m a person with too many words but there weren’t a stage so I built myself one and ramble as much as I can to invisible audiences. Honestly if I can’t put my feelings and thoughts into words I don’t think I can continue surviving, I’ll burst and dissapear into thin air.
The past 8 years or so I’ve been a very ‘pink blogger’ and I want all things pink but I can’t deal with it anymore HAHA.
I still love the colour pink but as of now I would much rather appreciate it from far than to ‘own’ it.
I’ve been looking high and low for a template that I will be happy with and I am extremely picky when it comes to template to the point where I drive myself crazy.
I have to look at fonts, colours, side bar and the width, header, footer wtf and the list goes on. Then again I am too poor and insignificant to hire myself a designer so here I am just giving myself some non existent annoyance.
I will settle for this new outlook for now until I muster all my energy to look for a better one.
If a couple of years back someone came and tell me that one day I’m gonna opt for a simple and white template for my blog (with hints of green) I would say that he or she is crazy cause that is as impossible as my break up.
(I never really like the color green all my life!)
But break up happened and now a white blog for Peggy Chow happened too HAHAHA.
Actually sometimes I find my break up to be quite funny so I like to joke about it (to myself wtf).
Hope some new posts will be due to happen soon.