I seriously can’t wait for my semester to end. I just want to get it over and done with, urgh.
But then, I’ve got too much undone work all piling up, waiting for me to finish it before the due dates arrive.
Especially this one subject where I’ve to write reviews and opinions and what not, I have done none.
I’ve to finish all my assignments in less than 2 weeks time, how great can life be.
And my room is sooooo messy, it makes me feel so annoy and makes my concentration level drop.

I don’t know whats wrong with me, I just can’t bring myself to do my work. I don’t know why. ):
I feel like killing myself. Argh….!
I’m thinking, if I should study next semester or just go for internship. I’m afraid if I choose to study, I’ll be as lazy as this semester and this is a big no-no. ):
Or maybe I should work and not do internship first because you know, your pay is so little as an intern.
Sigh, dilemma dilemma.

Life is pretty mess up lately.
I always sleep so late at night. Every time when I go to bed, birdies already start chirping.
When I don’t have classes the next day, I woke up after 2 o’clock, sometimes 4. I kinda hate this, really.
See, I want to sleep early sometimes. Just the other day, I go to bed at 1 o’clock which is pretty early for me but I just cant seem to fall asleep. I roll on my bed for hours. Why do I always have insomnia?
I hate it especially when I’ve got class the next day because I probably couldn’t wake up and skip my class or I’ll go to class looking like a walking zombie who tries to catch a nap in the class, wtf.

See,.. Insomnia leads to waking up late and waking up late leads to taking irregular meals AND all these leads to death, wtf.
Just yesterday, the first meal I took is 8 o’clock at night, and that’s the only meal for the day.
I’m turning into some robot shit soon, can survive without eating.

And I get headache so often lately, it sucks. ):
I even get fever the other day, scare the shit out of me. Swine flu, wtf.
I know I can’t carry on like this, but I just cant bring myself to change.
I’m so lack of discipline and motivation, plus I get emo so easily these days it just brings me down.

I want to go to bed earlier, I want to wake up earlier, I want to jog, swim, and play badminton, I want to eat breakfast, I want to tidy up my room, I want to watch tv, I want to read books, I want to go to the mall with my friends, I want to be a normal human being and not zombie, vampire or what robot shit!

But I want doesn’t mean I can.