In my heart, you definitely are one of my best buddy. I know you are in a very hard situation, I know you can’t really come out and hang out with me or whatever it is. Every time people tell me how is your situation going, and most of the times, not a very good one, I feel sad for you. I wanna be there for you, but somehow I know you don’t need me.

At first, I really thought you are so busy till the extend where every time I call you out, you will tell me you are busy or even worse, you don’t pick up my calls. I never know what happen till
recently. Now I know, its because your girlfriend hate me so much or is so afraid of I-don’t-know-what, thats why you keep avoiding me. For goodnesssake, what is wrong here? At that moment, I have a boyfriend and he is your bestfriend, what is there to be afraid of? Whats even funnier is that, please, I am goddamnstraight, I only like guys.
Isn’t it something wrong here? I find this so funny, yet so hurt to know that such things happen.

You avoid me till this extend cause of your girlfriend? Just because she thinks this way, you wanna be as silly as her? You are so afraid till you don’t even accept my comments on friendster. Not even a Chinese New Year wish, so unbelievable. But still, to me, its ok that you act this way cause you love her. I understand.
But then, even when recently I broke up with him, you didn’t seem to care at all? You never ask me how am I doing. You never see if I’m ok. All of my friends, who didn’t seem to care much about me actually care for me, and you, didn’t give me damn. Even when I message you first, you never reply. You are the one who brought me and him together, but now when we break, you never care for me. You never did say a single word, not even asking how am I doing.

I don’t care if you see this or not, because this is what I wanna say to you. You are my friend, and I wanna let you know what I am feeling. If you get angry cause of this, then I have nothing to say. I am having such a hard time to move on and I need friends to be there for me, especially you, but then I get nothing from you. You will always be one of my best friend but then I doubt if you will treat me as your friend since she hated it so much.

I am not angry, I am hurt.