I’m having a very hard time recently. One of the toughest moment in my life. Just because I’m so out of my head at that moment, that mistake I’ve done. Something I did out of anger, but somehow, I don’t intend to. It not only hurt you, it hurt me too. It hurt me so much, I don’t know how to describe the pain. I’m so so hurt, I cry every single day. I don’t wanna live my life like that. No one is here for me, no one. Not a single one. I’ve got no one to turn to. I wish dad is here to hug me and tell me everything will be alright. Why only put the blame on me? Why is it always me? I’m so tired and sick of all this, I need a rest. I wanna go to a far far place where no one can find me. I wanna meet new people. Or, I wanna sleep and never wake up. This pain I’m suffering is so unbearable, I wanna give up soon.