heyy! (:
there’s nothing interesting in my life lately.
where’s my happening life gone to?

wake up. class. lunch. nap. drama. drama. more drama. yam cha. sleep.
same routine. ugh
ah, and it seems like i’ve been pretty emotional lately which of course not something i should celebrate about.
my friend said to me that my facebook status is like, i’m about to jump off from a building anytime soon.
exaggerate betul. :\

i’m trying to keep myself under control and i guess you can tell from this post.
at least this aint an emo post. heh.
i sense mr.assignment will be knocking on my door soon.
probably i should be glad since this is my last semester, hmm.

ouh ya, talking bout drama before this, i just finish watching a taiwan drama. 下一站，幸福
i don’t normally watch taiwan drama, i prefer TVB’s. haha.. but somehow i stumble upon this and hey, it’s pretty good.
the kid is uber cute. if you’re too bored like me, watch it on pps.

argh, i wanted to post some pictures but i’m out of time now.
soon soon, my blog lacks some nice *ahem* pictures.
till then. (:

i don’t know what i am feeling anymore.
stress. paranoid. lonely. annoyed. upset. disappointed. lost. blur. numb. stone.
i always contradict myself.

i didn’t know what to expect anymore.
what exactly do i want right now, i don’t have a single clue.
just please get me out of this bloody place. ugh!

in addition to that, i think i picked the wrong topic for my final research paper.
what if i get all emo every time i do my research?
… … …

ouh damn.
so digging this outfit.
4.42 am.
such a bad timing.

nights.

i was expecting penang.
i was expecting more movies. and SAW 6.
i was expecting to touch up my tattoo.
i was expecting so much more.

turns out, it’s the same.
a little too happy for nothing previously.

i thought i saw something different, but no.
a little too disappointed.
a little too reluctant.
but i’m left with no choice.

*yawn*
sorry for not updating but erm.. yah, updating now.
my brain is shutting down soon. i sleep way too much.
been sleeping a lot lately, not because i’m tired.
i don’t wanna think about anything and the best way is to sleep.

when i saw my own reflection in the mirror, i asked myself why.
how could i be THAT stupid. like really really stupid.
how could i even make that decision to pick something up. something that i once try so hard to let go.
something that make me so depress, probably the only thing i know how to do is cry.

why do i want to give myself hope by saying stupid stuff to myself. i totally do not understand.
like, wth is wrong with me?
but don’t tell me i’ve been told, because from what it use to be, months back till now you really make me feel different.
i just don’t wanna mention and talk about it, which is why i didn’t say anything.
i don’t want to listen to all those reasons that wouldn’t sound right to me.

but whatever it is, when it comes to this point……
the only thing i know is. i am stupid.
the worst thing that came from you is not the answer. but is you telling me i did not change.
i work so hard to change myself, to be so damn patience and not be angry anymore and you told me i did not change.
i made a wrong mistake by letting you in again.

give myself a little bit of time and it will go back to how it use to be.
to be frank. we do not need each other no matter in what sense.
there wont be any turning back after today. everything’s blur but i like it that way. i hate memories.
8 freaking years. i am tired.

there’s too much going on in my mind right now.
too much stuff bothering me.

but then it’s like at the same time i’m not allow to even talk about it.
i wonder sometimes if i’m lucky to have what i have now which is sort of like a dream..
or actually the god is fooling me once again.

even in my dreams, it appears to be the same.
at times i really am not sure which is reality and which is dreams.

i’m having very high fever. 38.4 degree Celsius omg.
i’ve been popping panadol pills yesterday but my fever just don’t go away.

no idea what’s wrong.
went to see a doctor just now, i requested for injection but she rejected me.
omg, i don’t wanna eat medicine. U_U

i thought of skipping class today and got an MC, but my class canceled. ishh!
when i was in the car waiting for my mom, i switched the radio channel and the first thing i heard is ‘Chelsea Chelsea~~’.
pfft!! so annoying.

i gotta rest or i’ll be dead. :X

back to college once again.
guess this will be my last semester studying in ucsi. :O
gosh, how time flies.
i’m so old already wtf :\

asked mom to fetch me to uni this morning.
and in the car i told her my results for the previous semester.
“eh mi, i got 70+ for my results last semester. hehe”
mom look at me and say, “70+ only ah?”, looked away and curi-curi smile sheepishly.
my mom. -____-”

anyway. pictures. (:

* couldn’t agree more, isn’t it? leave is bad enough, gone is even worst.

* i wish i am brave enough to walk out and have fun during rain.

* where can i find places like such in malaysia? so i can stand on top of those rocks and scream my lungs out.

continue watching my drama. ciaoz.