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One Hectic Week

Hey peeps!!

I’m so sorry for not updating, it has really been a hectic week for me. I spent most of my time doing assignments.
I just finished three assignments and I’ve got a few more, which is very important I must say.
I hope my semester ends faster, I can’t cope with the stress. Oh, and I just screw my presentation the other day, haha.

I remember I did mentioned before that I wanted to go for tarot reading and I did, last Sunday.
I wonder to what extent the words that came out from this tarot lady is true. I’m not gonna elaborate more on that, not gonna tell you guys what she said to me. :p

I’m on financial crisis AGAIN!!! Omgwtfbbq, financial crisis + loads of assignments + finals + brain malfunction, all these are really killing me.
Luckily I still have a bunch of buddies around me to calm me down, or else I’ll be appearing on headline; ‘A 20 years old girl jump sea due to assignments and lack of money’. (my birthday is not here yet, so I’m still 20) Don’t laugh.
Wth, I keep using that word, ‘jump sea’ which is a direct translate from Chinese.

And oh, my brother just took his result for SPM yesterday and damn, I’m so proud of him. He get 9A’s, not all are A1s but still, I’m really proud of him. At the same time I feel shitty, the contrast is too big. I only get 3A’s back then, boo.
Memang memalukan, wtf. Sigh, I wish I did better.
I wish to turn back time and fix all those mistakes. But to come to think of it, its not that bad after all.
That one whole year, I really did learn a lot. Especially thanks to Ezen Bobo (hahahahahahaha) who guide me along the way. :’D

I cant wait for tomorrow, I’m attending friend’s birthday party. This whole week is so borinnnng, doing assignments and only assignments. I think tomorrow will be a hell lot of fun. :’D
My post is so random.

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Boo! Byebye.

Life is Complicated

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It looks like most of my recent post are all about pictures and only pictures.
Talking about where I’ve been, what I’ve done for the entire day and shits like this.
Most of the time, I sit in front of the computer typing away things I feel like saying and few seconds later, I backspace everything. Stare at the computer, wondering why am I backspacing those words.
I don’t want my blog to be yet another boring blog with stupid camwhore pictures, but then I ponder if I should let people know my thinking and feelings like I normally would.
I never thought of it as anything, until one day when my friend told me that its rather stupid to let people know what I’m thinking. Because that way, people will know my weakness and the big bullies will try every possible way to bring me down.

Its a cynical world out there, someone once told me. Its a very scary world. No one can protect me, only me myself.
But the question is, how? I never learn. I never never learn.
Yes, people hurt me and I will get angry right then. But then after weeks or months, I can easily forget all the shit things that these people have once done.
I always say karma, I believe in karma. But when karma really happen, when I see these people experiencing the not so good moment of life, I don’t feel happy.
I thought I’ll be really happy when karma really hits back, but I feel sorry. I just don’t want to see these people upset and struggle in their live.
I don’t know whats wrong with me. I should hate these people, I should. But instead, I feel so sorry and I feel like being there for these people. They might not need me, but I just don’t feel nice about it. I think I’m out of my mind.

My friends almost slap me on my face when they heard this. Where on earth can you find a person stupid-er than me?
People always tells me that I’m naive. Since what? Since I’m Form 2, I heard this phrase till now.
I’m stupid, I’m naive, I’m someone who can be cheat on easily. I just want everything to be easier.
I just want to make friends and trust them, but now….I have to keep telling myself, ‘you better see properly first, you better not trust them fully, you better this.. you better that..’
What the heck, why la? Why cant everyone be nice?
In my context, it is this way; when I treat people nice, people will treat me nice. But then no, this is not the real world.
Even if you treat someone nice, they can still step on your head and shit on it, without feeling guilty at all.
I really dislike analyzing so much before we can truly be friends or anything, but this is the way it should be in order to protect myself. Super complicated stuff.
I think it’ll take me years before I can really get the hang out of it, knowing which person is the one to keep and which person I should never put my trust on.

Its time for a change. Its time to really grow up and get out of my comfort zone. Its time to get out and really see how ugly this world can be. Its always better to hurt other people than to let people hurt you. Maybe I should really learn how to be an evil person, but this is never my thing. Everything is about strategy, its a game.
Even if you were to like someone, you have to bla bla bla, before you bla bla bla, in order to bla bla bla and then you bla bla bla. What the heck, so complicated.
I prefer high school life, everything is so simple back then. Argh….. I seriously hate this.

But anyway, I really want to thank my friends for scolding me stupid or else, I wouldn’t realise how stupid I was.
My friends feel unhappy when they see me act this way, its like I’m letting people to hurt me or something. : (
I’m so sorry… I was so speechless last night. Boo…

Some stuff is bothering me at the moment. Nothing major, but it keeps popping out in my mind.
I’m so focus, I cant seem to concentrate on doing other stuff. It takes time to achieve what I want, I’ll be patience this time. : )

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* Tell me, do I look like a very easy to bully girl? -.-

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* My room is too dark and I did not use flash, hence the low quality picture.

What do you guys say? Are you the very careful type? Or are you the silly and naive type, just like this dumb ass here.

Happy 21st Birthday Amelia

Amelia Wah Wah’s 21st Birthday. : )

I know, I keep delaying my post. I feel really lazy these days. All I feel like doing is just laze around in my room, and chat on msn. How I wish I could do this everyday without worrying about so much stuff. I’ve got tons and tons of assignments and I’m really kinda stress out now. Stress but yet, I still sit in front of the computer, doing nothing but chatting on msn.
Sorry for all the crap, below are the pictures. : )

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* The Birthday Girl.

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* The girl who loves pink as much as I do. :’D

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* The man, Mr. Banana Davvy Jones.. lol

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* Amelia and the Jian Liang, the flirt. Haha..

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* 3 girls and a flirt.

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* I should wear pink colour top to match them. :’D

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* Science 2 girls. : )

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* Kane Kane and me. Was a little shock when I saw him there and then I go, ‘Eh, come.. Take picture..’ lol..

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* Groupie.

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Went to Karaoke with my girls the other day, and its really really cheap. 10 bucks for 5 hours with free flow of drinks and tid bits.

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* I see her everyday. -.-

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* The very funny twins and me. They can make me laugh non stop, super funny people. :’D

Have a great weekend everyone. : )

P/S: I’m thinking of you, and I miss you. I know its weird. :’)

Mambo Jambo Night @ Velvet

Exams over, its time for me to have a little fun. :’D
So, I went to Velvet last night for Eugenie’s farewell, she’s heading back to Aussie on Friday morning.
All my friends are leaving to Aussie, I wonder why. Lots of gold perhaps, haha.

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* My clubbing kaki and camwhore kaki.

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* She drives, I camwhore; as usual.

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* Venus and Eugenie.

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* Eugenie and me.

Was it fun at Velvet last night? Not really, at first. I guess its the people there, they are a lot older than we are.
Boring people. I feel like leaving after a while, lol. But things get better, songs get better and the people get better. :’D
Its actually kinda fun, those music are funny. The DJ played songs from Grease, me and Ee Cheeng damn excited.
Its the song we dance during our Form 5 Teacher’s day, such old memories. :’)

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* And then we camwhore in the toilet again.

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* Ee Cheeng and Eugenie.

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* Haha, I like this one.

Head over to Phuture after that, so its back to the usual R&B songs which we girls really like. :’)
I wanted to hear this one song so much, I asked the DJ to play it for me. :’D
There’s so few people at Phuture last night, we are like the only girls at dance floor. So weird. -.-

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* At Phuture, lots and lots of smoke.

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* Oops, didn’t get to capture Venus.

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* Hahaha, I feel like laughing every time I saw this picture.

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* Went to toilet, camwhore again. -.-

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* We even asked the ’tissue kakak’ to take picture for us.

It was a rather fun night. And whats best is that we saw people we like a lot. :’D
I spot Alan Yun, and then Steve Yap, and some other local celebrities. Like omg, Alan Yun and Steve Yap!!!
Seriously, I like them a lot one loh.. So handsome and macho. *melt* Hahaha, wtf..
When we are about to leave, we saw Steve Yap outside and so happen he is friend’s friend’s friend.
So all of us chit chat a little and took pictures. Omg, I get to talk to Steve Yap. :’DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

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* He damn macho loh… And that’s James beside Ee Cheeng.

All the best to Eugenie. :’) You’re so gonna love me for that picture I took for you, ngek ngek.
Boo, its time to switch back to my assignments.
P/S: Oh gawd!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ‘uoy ssim i kniht i’

I Feel Happy

Wee, I’m done with my exams. Midterm exams. :)
Gawd, I’m in such a happy mood today, no idea why. Hee..
I don’t think I did very well in my exam today but I’m so relieved.

I skipped my class this morning. Cant help, my friends are skipping. Haha.. Last night’s match was kind of tension. Man Utd didn’t manage to score a goal. Its a draw, 0-0. Oh god, they must win on the second leg. MUST!!

Okay, I don’t know why I feel so happy now. -.- Hahaha..
Did I mention that I’m sleeping in my new room already? I still find it a little awkward to sleep all alone but having a room of my own really gives me a lot of freedom. I think I still need loads of time before my room is done completely. By then, only I’ll post up pictures.
And oh, I bought a new monitor as well. The stupid CRT I’m using is so huge, it is eating up a lot of my table’s space. So yah, I bought myself a 19 inch LCD monitor. It will arrive tomorrow. :’)))

I spend so much money lately, on my room, buying new monitor, and guess what…….. I got another tattoo. *hide myself under my bed*
Please don’t shake your head. I’m still a good girl, I am. :’)
I did mention before that I might be getting another one at my back, the neck area, ‘do not fear’. So finally, I did it. Am not gonna do anymore for the moment, haha.

A picture from the first trial photo shoot, photographed by Joshua Chay.
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Have a nice day peeps. :’)
P/S: I want to go to Velvet tonight. I want! :p

Midterm week

Wow, there’s spider webs all around my blog. Sorry guys for not updating, I don’t even know what I’m doing recently.
Well, its the midterm period now, I’ve just finished one of my exam and there’s another one tomorrow.
I just cant neglect my blog this way. I’ll update first then head over back to my pile of books.

I’ve just got my assignment back for my Media Planning and it slapped hard on my face. :( So so fucken dissapointed with my damn marks.
I feel like knocking my damn head on that damn wall right after I saw my marks. I did put effort in doing it and I just got a pass for it. Wtf!!!!
I don’t want a pass, its not enough. Sigh…….. And I don’t think I’ll score in my midterm, which my lecturer will return it back to us on next Tuesday. So, she just gave another assignment and I really have to be extra careful in order to chase back my marks.
Freak man, I’m so sad. :( All my effort went down to the drain, damn it.

I’ve got nothing much to talk about anymore. Whats in my brain right now is books, notes, books, and notes. -.-
Okay, I’ll go study now. I’m watching Man Utd versus Inter Milan tonight, I need to finish studying before I’m allow to watch the match. It starts at 3.45am, omg and I’ve got class at 9 o’clock. How nice.

Two backdated pictures, Barcelona and MOS night.
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* Aih, us again la..

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* For Ivan’s farewell, all the best mate. :)