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Thanks to the photographer, Joshua for taking these pictures.

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I actually like this more, I think this looks better in colour.

Hmm, Josh, when are we doing our ‘photo-gra-phy’ again? Haha.. I guess you will be the only one understand my word ‘photo-gra-phy’.

P/S: The ‘photo-gra-phy’ I’m saying about here is how my Basic Photography lecturer pronounce that word. Why are you guys so sensitive? *Shake head*

Colorstrology

What is Colorstrology you ask. Colorstrology is a self-help system that teaches you how to enhance your traits. Every one of us have our own birth color and that birth color is designed to honor you. Go to www.colorstrology.com, find for your birth date and see what color is belongs to you.

My birth date is on 5th of November and my color is Jester Red.

Your gift with words and nuances can be quite dazzling. You need to be connected with the natures and outdoors. Although your mind is active and alert, being close to nature moves you toward wisdom and away from the trappings of over thinking. Miracles happens when you connect with trust and quiet. Your personal color helps you pierce through confusion and restlessness. Wearing, medditating or surrounding yourself with Jester Red inspires patience and knowing.

Entertaining, quick, and intelligent.

So ya, this is how they describe me and my color. It is true in some way like I really think too much and it can drive me to crazy. I’ll just have to trust whatever I should and things will come out fine I guess. Go and give it a try here.

Sick

I’m sick. :(
Don’t know what is wrong with my stomach. Its like I don’t have appetite to eat at all and I eat so little that I don’t feel like moving around cause I don’t have strength. But I still force myself to eat and end up vomiting. Not only vomit, but stomach pain as well and I keep going to toilet. What is wrong? Once in a while I will experience this. All I can do is just lie down and sleep like orang cacat. Even when I’m sick, no one is there for me. Sigh.

Tired

I’m having a very hard time recently. One of the toughest moment in my life. Just because I’m so out of my head at that moment, that mistake I’ve done. Something I did out of anger, but somehow, I don’t intend to. It not only hurt you, it hurt me too. It hurt me so much, I don’t know how to describe the pain. I’m so so hurt, I cry every single day. I don’t wanna live my life like that. No one is here for me, no one. Not a single one. I’ve got no one to turn to. I wish dad is here to hug me and tell me everything will be alright. Why only put the blame on me? Why is it always me? I’m so tired and sick of all this, I need a rest. I wanna go to a far far place where no one can find me. I wanna meet new people. Or, I wanna sleep and never wake up. This pain I’m suffering is so unbearable, I wanna give up soon.

Back To College

College starts on 2nd of January but I only start attending class yesterday. Due to the time table problem, I didn’t attend class today, and maybe until next Monday or so. I’ve been trying to avoid going to college, not because I hate studying or stuff like that. Going to college and being at college is a pain to me.
I have to walk to college, or to the new UCSI and take shuttle bus to the old UCSI. And this is not the real pain I’m talking about.

As I walk, as I listen to songs in my Ipod Shuffle, it reminds me of someone.
When I step into college, it reminds me of someone.
When I’m waiting for transport and I saw that black car, it reminds me of someone.
When I pass by the small cafeteria at Block C, it reminds me of someone.
When its lunch time and I’m alone, it reminds me of someone.
When I sit at Cafeteria at Block A, it reminds me of someone.
When I was eating my Thai Fried Rice, it reminds me of someone.
When I pass by the class I use to go for Advertising, it reminds me of someone.
When I finish class and step out of UCSI, it reminds me of someone.

That someone use to fetch me to class early in the morning.
That someone use to bring me home with black car.
That someone use to sit at that small cafeteria at Block C and wait for me.
That someone share the Thai Fried Rice with me and we both enjoy the meal.
That someone make me waited for him at Block A’s Cafeteria.
That someone went to Advertising class with me.

To that someone, I miss you dearly.