I often asked, ‘Why and how can things be THIS expensive!?’.
Feeling angry deep down. Angry at that stupid thing for being this expensive, angry at myself for not being good enough to have the ability to purchase it and also angry at whatever it is asking why is it so unfair.

(I often ask but I don’t often feel angry lah, just sometimes lah when I pms.)

Sometimes I’ll go, ‘diu nia sing ah. gam lan guai meh. gam lan mm gung ping geh. meh sei gai‘. HAHAHAHA!
Most of the time I do this in front of my bff.

Just like last night after my dinner with Fatty at Fahrenheit, we decided to take a stroll and window shop at Pavilion.

Zara’s window display attracted me into their shop, as usual.
I have always like their window display!
Their collection this season makes me cringe.
Because they’re too beautiful and I cant afford them!
I love what my eyes saw and I love their fabrics too.
But I no like their price tags. ):

I said to Fatty,  ‘Hmph! You see what will happen if I have the ability to shop like I own Zara!’.
I almost ‘fat din‘ hahaha.

Also not to forget Aldo, one of my favourite shoe brand though I don’t own one yet.
Their heels are breathtaking.
I like going into Aldo and trying on their heels, and then leave just like that. HAHA!

Fact is, I can actually buy a pair of their heels but I just cant allow myself to do so when it’s gonna take a portion of my salary.
When that pair of heels can buy me a 3 days 2 nights trip to Pangkor or wherever.
Ngo zip sau mm dou lorh.

And then I told myself last night, one fine day I’m gonna fucking own one of those babies.
One fine day when it doesn’t hurt to get one.

I’ll be so proud to buy myself an Aldo!!

For now, I’ll wear my Rm60 heels that hurt my feet every single time.
But it’s okay, I tell myself.

I’m a tamed shopaholic.
But I wasn’t one long ago.

I have this habit in me which I named it as ‘just-buy-la-don’t-care’.
I’ll buy whatever I like even when I’m about to go broke and the consequences that it brought to me is indeed a good lesson.
So, I’m quite well-trained now I must say. Haha.

I determine my own shopping day.
Saw something I like. Not shopping day. Must not buy.
But one downside to this is that once my shopping day is here, sometimes I lost control due to controlling too much. Terpesong, terbabas. Suka hati lah. 

My bff said something I did not realize, ‘At least you can afford everything you’re having now. You can afford your life. You come across us/them owning better things than you but in fact they themselves cannot afford buying it. They cannot afford the life they’re living, what they’re having now are all from their parents.

Boys, sorry to disappoint you there’s no Robin nor Batman here.
What I have here today is an online store called Robin selling trendy apparel and accessories.
Batman? Maybe next time.

1) Alexander Wang Cropped wool-blend jacquard sweater – $385
2) Ron Hami Octagon Bib Necklace – $8,404
3) Heidi Mottram Magic Clutch – $382
4) Chrissie Morris Molly – $1,290
5) Brunns Bazaar Maxi Skirt Black
6) Kill City Cropped T-Shirt – €64.00
7) Vernissageproject Fox Ring – €426.00
8.) The Huntress Fringe Bag – $38
9) Nissa Wedge Peep Toe Pumps – $975

I created the above set specially for Robin. No, those are not from Robin which you can tell obviously by the price alone.
Those are friggin expensive babies especially Alexander Wang’s cropped sweater.
Exactly how many of us can afford a eight thousand necklace or a four hundred pound fox ring?
The more I type the more ridiculous it gets.

People like me believe that fashion can go well with the word affordable.
And haven’t I prove myself already?

Similar items, affordable price and here’s what Robin has got to offer to all you fashionista.

Rm65.
Super soft and stretchy long maxi skirt in lycra with side pockets at the hips and pleats at the waist. Free size. Best fits taller UK 6 to 10.
First, this maxi skirt is gonna be so comfortable. Second, it’s super versatile as you can already tell from my set above. Paired with the right top and accessories, this maxi can take you from day to night.

Rm49.
A chic and seductive clutch in luscious, textured, matte, faux-snake skin PU leather with fold-over front flap, magnet-snap button, and zipped main compartment. Also comes with skinny shoulder strap.
The faux skin texture gave an instant classiness to your outfit and there’s a few colours to choose from.

Rm69.
A versatile draw-string bucket bag that can be a shoulder bag, a satchel, or a backpack. Comes in PU leather with long suede fringes at the sides, fold-over front flap with a suede tassel at the front and multi compartments on the inside. Comes with 1 short strap and 1 long adjustable strap.

Rm109
Geometric cubes necklace in brass. One of a kind.
One of the pieces I love most from Robin, one of a kind indeed.

Rm119.
Geometric distorted diamonds necklace in brass. One of a kind.
And this too, of course.

Rm38.
Chunky fox ring in porcelain and brass. Comes in size 10 (19.8mm in diameter)
This is my favorite too! I love love love this fox ring! Absolutely stylish!

Rm27.
Dangling mismatched and multicoloured tetris earings in brass.
This is for you tetris lover.

Rm21.
Skinny leather belt with rounded gold buckle and attached dangling teardrop pendant.
I like their skinny belt too and it’s only for Rm21 because it’s on sale! (:

They do have a booth in Chic Pop Bazaar too sometimes and I know their stuff sold out pretty quickly.
So get your hands on their item before their sold out.

This is not an advertorial because I don’t earn or get anything in return.
Just that my friend is one of the owner and she’s mad trendy and stylish so how can I not share with you girls her awesome blog shop. (:

Have fun shopping!

Robin
Link: http://www.wearerobin.com/
Facebook: http://www.facebook.com/wearrobin

One thing I dread most is stepping into the adult working life. Still dreading….
It’s such a nonsense to me; sometimes.
But none can really escape from it, unless you’re one of those lucky bitches who were born in a rich family and then married to a rich husband not long after you graduated. Full time house wife / full time ‘siu lai lai’ aka ‘every-girl’s-dream’.

I always, always prefer the teenager way of working.
Part time and freelance. I can almost have all the freedom in the world.
If I’m lazy and not happy, I’ll say no to the job.
If the pay is good enough, I don’t even mind working everyday.
Entirely up to me and myself.

To come to think of it, I had quite a number of different jobs and experiences.

I walked towards Leisure Mall when I was fifteen, checked out the shops and booths one by one to see if they’re hiring any part timers.
A booth selling accessories was looking for a part timer and I walked up to try my luck.
Luck was with me and that was my first job in my life.
Selling accessories for only Rm3.50 per hour.

I did the same when I was sixteen and I got myself a part time job as a waitress in a cafe outside Leisure Mall.
Rm4.50 per hour and I was happy to have increased Rm1 after a year.

At the age of seventeen, I tried something different.
I worked around little kids in a kindergarten, taught them how to do their homework and looked after them.
Pay was low but with short working hours and most importantly I had fun working around little angels.

After high school, I worked as a sales girl with an average pay of Rm10.
Selling Maxis plans and broadband and broadband and broadband.
I just somehow get to sell broadband a lot and I actually hated it.

I finally figured I hate selling things, I hate persuading and bothering the hell out of people.
I then worked as a freelancer and I try to avoid working as a sales girl at all cost.

I worked as a flyer girl, just giving out flyers to whoever that passed by me.
I worked for Magnum teaching people how to buy the newest jackpot or in simpler words, teaching them how to gamble.
I worked for cigarette companies, selling cigarettes.
I worked for beer companies, selling beers.

(Selling ciggies and beers was different. I don’t really have to persuade them and most importantly there’s no target for me to achieve. Most of the time I just asked and walked away, lol.)

And sometimes, all I need to do is just to stand somewhat like a vase for a couple of hours and there comes the money into my pocket.
I enjoyed working as a freelancer to be frank. It is good money!
Standing behind counter asking if the smokers would like to try the cigarette I’m selling for 3 hours, I’ll get a total of Rm100.

Most of the time I miss those days or more like I miss those easy money.
I miss how my life can be so flexible yet I can earn my own money and not die of hunger.
But those days are far behind knowing that I’m no longer 20.

My first full time which you all had already know, gave me a rather shocking experience.
I did not disclose this in my blog but here I am doing it now.
I quit my job. My closest friends knew about this because I told them.
And for those who knew about this but I did not told, you’ve got some skills. (;

What’s wrong with the company, you might asked.
The company is good, from concept to office surrounding.
But my ex-boss is not. Is, because he still sucks! ):
When I first stepped into that company, there’s 7 of us working all together.
Today, there’s only 2 left.

I don’t care how he has his own principles and what not but there’s certainly one thing that he failed to do.
Which is to not neglect the employees; us.
Forget about the benefits because there’s none.
No EPF when I worked, only ten public holidays per year and what not.
For us the employees, all we ever want in return is to get our pay every month on time. The money that we work for.
And this is the thing my ex-boss failed to do.

Our pay; never on time even till this date.
Sometimes on the 10th. Or maybe 15th. You can imagine.
I worked till December last year and I haven’t got my pay until today.
Most of the time I am beyond mad because I already called and reminded him a couple of times.
To be frank it is just a freaking small amount, I don’t get why is it so hard for him to just pay my salary.

I am working in a new company now and I already got my February’s pay.
So where’s my December’s pay Mr. Ex-boss!?
Talking about efficiency.

Sigh, I just wanna rant because I am mad at this fact that my pay is nowhere to be seen.
I’m about to go right up to his office and ask him wtf is his problem!

All in all, working most of the time is a pain in the ass.