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When you’re done being mean, I’ll start being nice.

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There are times where I feel like I’ve been humiliated.
There are times like right now, I decided that being nice to certain people is pretty much pointless when people do not appreciate a tiny bit.

When you try to be a nice person, people try to be mean to you.
When you stop trying being nice and act normally, people are still mean to you.
When you stop being nice and start being mean, people cant quite take it but are still mean to you.

You get the whole picture, what’s the point of being nice when people throw you a cock-stare when all you do is trying to smile at them.
/STARE !

So I’ve came to my own conclusion.
I’m gonna double cock my stareness! Or double stare my cockness. /rawr

Just joking.
There’s no cock in my stare. Heh.

#caseclose

p/s: don’t tell me I can still be nice cause I no longer will. #theend

‘It feels like nine years to me’, he said.

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Was so mad at him for some reason, I almost wanted to twist his head off and stomp on it.
But of course, the anger in me subside rather quickly, as usual.
I may get mad over the tiniest thing but I can also be happy over the tiniest thing.
Work both ways.

I think as long as he let me pinch his manly boobs, /poof my anger will be gone. Haha.
Or that he can sing his so called self compose song but now I have a better idea.
I can possibly laugh the whole day if he dance the dance in Sexy and I know it by LMFAO.
That is like the most hilarious dance ever, wiggle wiggle wiggle wiggle yeah.
Hilarious and obscene at the same time.

This above, is the guy who makes me mad all the time but also the guy who makes me laugh all the time.
Makes me hate him and love him at the same time.
Not only my fat boyfriend, but my bestfriend, my buddy and my brother (cause half of the time I act like a guy, FHL LOL!), and of course my ON kaki.

He has the ability to give me that stupid kesian look and most of the time I cant bring myself to be entirely mad at him.
He can randomly made up some stupid self compose song which sounds funny and he sings it like a Bruno Mars.
He can do the most hilarious dance shaking his stupid fat body and make me laugh like mad.
He’s the one where I can joke with the whole day.
He send the sweetest messages and he whispers sweet nothings.
He’s the one who brighten up my day after he pulled a storm over.

He’s my bestfriend but he’s also a bitch. BIATCH!

Cant wait to do all these activities when we have the time and chance (:
* Fishing and prawning. Haven’t try that in my entire life.
* Ice skating. This too, haven’t try it before in my life.
* Water themepark!!! I want to go to that Wonderland in Malacca!!
* Roller skating.
* Laser tag.
* Kite flying. Yes I wanna do it again.
* Catching crabs by the sea ((:
* Going for a play
* Visiting an art gallery
* Just wanna really explore the world together, anywhere in the world.

Happy 9 months bitch.
You’re the worst, yet the best (:

3 months from now. I’d love to return to the place where it all started and enjoy the same sun where we once enjoyed.
♥

Missing my favorite city on a Mid-Autumn

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I should be flying tonight!!!
I should be in one of my favourite city tomorrow!!!
But here I am still in my pajamas sitting on my bed with a laptop on my lap filling my blog with nonsense.
The thought of it is unbearable ):

I miss all my friends in Melbourne so so much.
Miss the weekly clubbing routine where we’ll all go for supper at QV’s mamak afterwards.
Laughing at my friend for getting drunk and acting silly, it’s always him.
And he’ll get a hangover next day, refusing to eat anything for lunch. Haha!

I hope by the time I have the chance to be at Melbourne again, most of them are still there.
Because my chance will only come mid next year, hell long to go.

Meanwhile, I get to spend our first mid-autumn with the fatty (:
But I don’t think he’s even interested in lanterns and candles, haha.
Then again, it’s not childish or sissy okay! It’s a tradition!
It’s a festive that all of us once looked forward to during our childhood times.

I kind of miss the old school rabbit lantern that I once used to dislike cause I think it’s ugly.
Don’t you just miss being a kid?
Anyway, happy mid-autumn festival to all the Chinese in the world. (:

When bored, answer.

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By doing this, you can tell that I’m real bored.
And perhaps, by you reading this I can tell that you’re real bored too.
When was the last time I answered random questions?

Your ex texted you and wanted you back. Would you take him/her back?
Thanks but no thanks.

Has anyone told you “forever and ever” then left?
Yes, everybody is gonna do that initially.

Your relationship status?
In a relationship with a fatty.

Where did you meet your crush(es)?
A cool place named Kuala-la-la Lumpur.

Have you ever lost a close friend?
Yes and by that I don’t mean he/she is dead.

Do you smoke weed regularly?
Never been there. Never done that.

Think back to the beginning of 2011. Are you still dating the same person?
Yes, and he hasn’t got thinner ever since.

Would you parents be mad if you were in a relationship?
Hell no.

When was the last time you really laughed?
Yesterday noon, when I was crapping and telling all sorts of dumb blonde jokes to the boyf.

Something is wrong. First guy you turn too?
Si gemuk.

First girl you’d turn to?
Ee Cheeng Wong.

Is there anyone who doesn’t like you because of something you did?
Of course!

Angry at anyone?
Trying hard not to.

What’s stopping you from going for the person you like?
Nothing will stop me unless he’s got a partner.

When was the last time you cried really hard?
Last week?

Is there anyone you would do anything for?
Yes, people I love.

Who was the last person you talked to for more than 10 minutes on the phone?
Si fatty.

What is your favorite song?
I’ve got tons and I hate this question.

Do you like Red Bull?
No. Not at all.

How many people can you tell just about everything to?
Two.

Have you ever wished on a shooting star?
NO! Where on earth exactly I can see one?

Does the last person you held hands with mean something to you?
Duh!?

Describe yourself in one word.
Emotional. What else?

Do you have anything that belongs to your ex?
Don’t think so.

Can you honestly say you’ve had a sleepover with the opposite gender?
Yes.

Do you rebound?
Nope. What’s the point?

Ever cheated on someone?
Yes.

What would you do if you found out the person you like was in a relationship?
Withdraw myself, if I can.

Do you act differently around the person you like?
Yes, at the beginning.

Honestly, what guy’s number do you have memorized?
Boyf and brother.

Is it hard to make you laugh?
I can say that’s the easiest thing to do. I can laugh at anything or even nothing. Lol.

Who was the last person to make you mad?
Xiao pang zi.

Do you think your last ex will eventually want to be with you again?
Nope, we don’t really match. Personality wise.

Have you ever fallen asleep in someone’s arms?
Yes (:

Has anyone ever called you scrumptious before?
I cant recall but wtf I’m not a meal.

Would you like to put a night on repeat and live it forever?
Yes (:

Do you have a best friend that knows you inside and out?
Yeap.

Is your best friend a slut?
What ay question. Of course not.

Is hard drugs a turn off?
Hard or soft, it’ll be a turn off.

Are you happy with life right now?
Yes but not enough.

Are you still in love with your ex?
No.

Have you ever been the “other person” in a relationship?
In a relationship, no.

Is there anybody you’re really disappointed in?
Yes.

Where is your best friend?
Hong Kong at the moment.

Something you’re happy about?
Not telling ;P

How is your heart lately?
Still beating.

Okay, this got me occupied for a while.
Been waking real early for the past three days and I kind of like it.
So I guess I’m gonna sleep early tonight.

Grab a story book and read till I fall asleep. (:

Don’t hate while you can love.

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One thing I learned from my past – hating a person is one of the best way to torture yourself (well, that is if you intend to make yourself suffer).
Like love, hate is a strong word.
And I used to hate, a lot.
I hated these people so much that if killing isn’t a crime, I’ll prolly kill him/her at that very moment.
Hate – to the core.

Funny thing about hatred is that the hate you have for that particular person do not really inflict pain on them, but instead on yourself.
The greater the hate, the greater the suffering you’re gonna get.

I must say I’m definitely not a person with a high EQ and for me to let go off the hatred is indeed quite a difficult task for me.
I tried letting things go for a couple of times but sometimes I fail because I get extremely agitated and upset when people try to provoke me.
Especially when I found out that people do me wrong. Somewhere in between I couldn’t control my feelings and actions and I tend to spit out the meanest words possible.
After a while I told myself to calm the f* down and let things go.
And then I tried again. And again. And again.

When I finally get to do it, I realise that I have less ‘burden’ with me. I feel so much lighter and happier. I lost the negative energy and exchange it with positive ones.
Now, I stop hating people who wronged me. All the betrayals, lies, and those who framed me up. I truly feel much better that way.

Hating, is really such a waste of time and a waste of your own energy.
What’s done is done, it’s the past, especially if the hatred comes from a previous relationship.
Why hate when you’re so much closer with the one you’re meant to be with or better still when you’re already with him/her.
Pretty pointless to be angry over the past for so long. Let go off the grudges.
A lot of times, two individuals hate each other due to misunderstanding because in a way or another, there will never be an open heart conversation and trust.
But if one tries to tweak his/her perception a little bit and try not to hate, sometimes it does work.

And all this, is one of the best thing I learned from the worst experience.
It is always better to have friends than enemies. (:

Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned. – Quote from Bhuddha

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And as you can tell from my previous post, which is a password protected post that I’m pretty mad about something. I was days ago, but now no longer. (:

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