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That snowman in that snow globe turned upside down. Everything turned upside down, including you.

Bored, bored, bored.
One night of staying at home can already kill me. Okay, I’m just exaggerating, lol. But I’m really bored, at the same time feeling tired.
All my friends tell me the same thing, ‘you rest at home lah, tomorrow only go out lah..’.
Aih, people even say that I’m kaki lepak. : (
Pfft, today I’m gonna be a good girl and stay at home to rest. : P

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Anyway, as I said last night I went for badminton today. : )
I’ve to endure my 4 hours of class before I went to play badminton.
That 4 hours of class can really make me go cuckoo. Same subject, same lecturer, teaching the same thing for 4 hours. Mama mia..

I feel a little stupid when I’m playing badminton. Its been so so long since I last played, I really suck at it. I need some time to get use to it, today is my buat-malu-day. Hahaha..
Let me play for a few times more, I’ll play better next time. Hehe.. : )
I really had fun playing, especially when I get to sweat.
Please play with me again next time although I suck at it.
Oh, and I didn’t expect Kok Wai to play along too. The world is so small, everyone knows everyone.
Bleh, I still owe him present. : (

Me no money. I still need to buy 2 text books. : (
I’m gonna get the photostat version, but still I have to pay for it.
I keep asking my friend must I really really really really get that text book because I really feel so reluctant to buy it. Grr..
Sigh, she asked me if I wanna get better grades, if yes then buy that damn book. And all I say is ‘buy lor, buy lor’.. : (
I’ll just sacrifice some of my money to buy books instead of clothes, haha..
Well, its not really that expensive. I’ve got nothing to say so I just bitch about it, haha.. : P

Theres two things I really feel like doing.
I wanna watch movie and go party. :’D
Ok seriously, I really feel like going to club. Anyone wanna bring me along? Hehe..
I need to have fun once in a while too and I’m not talking about badminton here, I’m talking about clubs. :’D
Please please please please, this weekend please. *waiting eagerly*

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Me erm…. sigh..
I really really don’t know what to say.
It seems like things are repeating itself again. Is it?
I don’t know what to say, I don’t know what to do.
I prefer to keep quiet and not doing anything this time.
I what also don’t know.

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Actually are you guys bored of what I blog already?
I think I always blog boring stuff, everything is the same.
Its always about me going out or me being emo.
I hope I didn’t bore you guys too much.

P/S: Are you missing me? I know deep down in your heart, you are. :’D bleh..

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Eh.. Why do I blog so often these days? Like almost e-v-e-r-y day.
Even when I don’t have much to say, I still feel like blogging.
But then again, once I start typing, it just goes on and on. Haha..

I skipped my late class today for some random photo shoot at my house. Its just a business subject, I don’t feel like going cause its damn bored.

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Am I naive? Joshua said I am. Am I?
I trust people. Whatever you tell me, I will believe.
However, the fact is that what normally people say or promise, most of the time they cant do it. I have to stop being this naive but how?
Sorry, I cannot take that anymore, it really irritates me. I don’t know why, I just get really frustrated at every single thing. All the things people always tell me. How this and that but in the end, everything turns out opposite. I’ve had enough. Am I too demanding? I hope not.

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I saw that letter lying on the floor yesterday.
I picked it up and read it.
And as expected, I cried.
You know me pretty well, right?
You know what I’m thinking, you know what I’m afraid of, you almost know everything about me.
Anyway, I know you are gonna miss me. You will miss me. :’D
You will. <3

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I always feel like going out. I wanna go for movies. I wanna go to a nice place to chill. I just wanna hang out with my friends. Even though sometimes I’m feeling tired, I still feel like going out.
I die die also wanna go out, lol.. I don’t even mind if its mamak session. : P

And oh, I think I sit in front of the computer for too long. I’m having headache again. Whats wrong with me these days? I’m so glued to this damn computer. Headache but still I went out just now, lol. I just cant sit still at home.

Its sleep time. Tomorrow’s class is important and I might be playing badminton with the guys or going for a movie. Either way, its still fun. : )
Oh boy, its been a long time since I last play badminton. I miss those times badly.

Ok ok, my bed is calling me already. Nights. : )

Of Malacca and PD

Hola!! :’D
Can you tell that I’m really happy?
Went for a day trip to Malacca with some of my new guy friends and I really did enjoy myself.
Ya ya, I know I always go to the same places. Genting, Malacca, Genting, Malacca. -.-
But with exception this time, because I get to go to PD too. :’D

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* Me camwhoring while waiting for the guys to come. : )

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Confusion

Currently listening to – ‘Unwell’ by Matchbox 20

Wanted to blog but I’m kinda blank at the moment.
I’ll just start with some boring stuff first.

Went to dye my hair again just now, for free.
What else? Wanted to go see chinese doctor because I wasn’t feeling very well and I lost my appetite recently. Shoey said that I’m weak and I need to go see Chinese doctor. She said the cause might be me being very sad for such a long time. I was stun when I heard that.
I never realise that. I mean, I never know that being sad and unhappy will lead to sickness. Sigh..

Don’t know why things never seems to end. It looks as though everything is good and nice but somehow, it is not. Even if it is today, it will not be tomorrow.
I always find out things I shouldn’t know. I always find out things that will hurt me.
Its either you people don’t lie to me at all or you people hide it nicely. Don’t hide it but at the same time let me find out about it, can?

I seriously don’t know how to describe my feeling to you. I don’t even know what to react and say when I first know it. Total blank.
I don’t know if what you say is true. I don’t know how true it is.
I don’t dare to believe because sometimes, it just don’t seems like it.
Somehow to me, it is not like what you said. Do you know that I am very afraid?

I no longer wanna ask question. I no longer wanna ask you why.
I’m asking myself why. No one holds the responsibility here.
I don’t think you hold the responsibility, its not your fault anyway.
Its me. Its me who causes the conflict. Its me who is being dumb and being a fool.
Do not assure me and put me as your priority because to me, it just don’t seems like it.
I don’t wanna get disappointed and be unhappy about it. Moreover, its unfair to you.

What is causing all this chaos? I’m super confuse now. I don’t know what I want. I seriously need to think about it. I’m confuse and I’m blank. I don’t even know if what I type make sense. Never mind about it, at least this is whats on my mind right now.

Am I weird? I always feel like going to club whenever I’m not happy. Fuck it, no one cares anyway. I think I’ll just do whatever shit I feel like doing without giving a damn.
I’m stubborn. I am very very stubborn. Argh, I’m really hurt yet numb at the same time.

Anyway, I’m going to Malacca again tomorrow. Not staying overnight, just a day trip. I wanna go party tomorrow night, but I’m not sure if I can. I think mostly I cant make it. : (

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Oh by the way, what are you trying to prove to me?
I don’t buy it, you don’t have to try so hard.
It actually wont affect me a single bit, so save that job will ya?
I hope what I heard tonight is true because that is what I want it to be and that is what I wish for all this while.
Sorry, I’m a Scorpio. I am revengeful and I want to see it happen that way.

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On a happier note, I received a Coach’s keychain as a present. :’D

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* Didn’t expect this coming. Thank you so much, I really like it a lot. <3 Night peeps.

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After two months of holidaying, its time for me to get my butt back to college Uni and start studying all over again.

All my classes starts around 9 o’clock, this is like so early.
I think I’ll nap a lot in the afternoon.
Oh, and I have a new course mate today. :’D
Guess who, guess who.

Its Dee Dee’s brother, Dexter. lol
Okay, I know I’m lame.
Anyway, we are classmates again after so many years, haha.
Very funny feeling. I hope you will enjoy studying at UCSI. :’D

Its getting late now, I need to go to bed or else I wouldn’t be able to wake up tomorrow.
Yay, dim sum for breakfast tomorrow before I go to class. :’D

Good Night people. :’)
Have a very sweet dream.