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if people ever wonder, if you ever wonder.
i don’t tell lies and make up stories.
whatever i said is the truth.
i don’t really find the need to make up stories, i don’t have that much time and ability to keep in mind what kind of lies i’ve told either.
i don’t have a lying talent like how some people have it.
i can never catch up with the lies i made.

a person like such, no matter how deep his love for you is he’s not quite a keeper.
lies and more lies. living in a denial life. provokes after provokes.
and when people fight back, he just hides in a corner like a coward.

but true that, people like such will never ever stand in front and admit his wrong.
some people just never keep up to his words.
from that very moment i realise once again the words are not being kept, i swear to myself whatever that came out from the damn mouth is pure bullshit.

and too from that moment i told myself, i will never ever ever back down. whatever it takes.
taking me for granted in every sense.

believe me,
time will come.

Happy 2nd Eighteen ♥

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9 in the morning, still soundly asleep on my bed when my maid knocked and came in.
Holding a big bouquet of roses, I thought I was dreaming.
I cant help but smile to myself like an idiot, in front of my maid.


* The flower I ♥ most.


* A mixture of 40 white and pink roses (:

Never in my life received such a big bouquet of roses. It left me in awe.
It’s so sweet and thoughtful of him to sent me a bouquet of roses even though he’s so far away.
I didn’t see this coming. It’s not an easy task to surprise me.
I’m not sure if I’m being smart or the one who used to surprise me are not smart enough, I always know I’m gonna get a surprise which of course since I already knew it it’s not surprising anymore.
I guess it’s either I’m smart, that person ain’t smart enough or didn’t really bother giving a real surprise.

The other day while we were talking, he said he wants to buy flowers and put it in the room and asked me which colour to buy. I thought he was really buying flowers for himself, silly me.
This is by far the best long distance relationship I got myself into. (And please let this be the last, why do I always get involve in LDR damnit.)
Not because of the roses he gave me, it’s the thought that counts. He’s willing to spend time with me everyday.

This might sound insane to some but it made everything easier for us, or me.
We sometimes eat dinner together, we watch movie and youtube together, we listen to songs together and the best part is we sleep and wake up together.
Yes, we leave our webcams on and go to bed at the same time. We even watch sunrise together this morning, he showed me Melbourne’s sunrise but it wasn’t that successful after all. The sky is pretty gloomy.
I’m just happy how he take the effort to do all these stupid things with me.

I cant help feeling this way, haven’t been in love for such a long time.
But things are never as perfect as it is seen. We had a lot of stupid arguments which is lead by silly misunderstandings lately.
Which kind of sucks really but in a way, it brings us closer too. At least now we understand each other more and we try to compromise. Love is not only about giving surprises, there’s so much more to it.

Before I end my post, I’ve got a good news. Actually just a good news for both of us, haha.
I finally bought ticket to Melbourne and also done applying for Visa. It’s set!!
I’m really happy and I wish days can just fly by for now. Extremely excited!! :D
I’m sorry these days I bombarded my blog with me and my boyf. Cannot help it.

I miss my mom

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I’ve been staying home for days now doing almost nothing.
Tried to look for jobs but to no avail. Not in the mood to work but I think I really need to, money wise and also to make it feels like the time pass faster each day.

Mom went to Bangkok these few days, I’m left all alone at home.
No lunch, no dinner. That’s when I realise how much I actually miss mom’s cooking.
Haven’t been eating a lot at home lately, always having outside food with Ben and now that I’m home, there’s no food for me. Been preparing my own lunch and dinner and that’s also when I realise how hard it is for mom to prepare meals at home everyday.
Sigh, I wish I could just give her a hug but that’s just not our home culture. Don’t know why I can never bring myself to do it. Maybe I can if she’s a little tipsy, things seems easier.

Guess I’m gonna miss her tons when I’m away from home for so long. To think of it, it’s the first time in my entire life.
Gonna be so home sick ):
I’m not a person who likes to stay away from home, not one who would love to stay in another country without my family members.
Bet my mom didn’t know it, I love home more than anything. The place I’ve been staying for 20 years.
Yes, 20 years.

No idea what’s this all about. Just miss mom and I realise how much older she is now.

I know she wont read this but it doesn’t matter.
Thanks for everything mi, and I love you.

Saint Valentine ♥

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Happy Valentine’s Day!
I’m back (:

Ben just left the country yesterday, flew back to Melbourne.
And tomorrow is Valentine’s Day :\
I remembered how he happily told me he extended his flight to 12th February and I just returned him a shock face.
He totally forgotten that it’s Valentine’s Day on the 14th but it’s okay.

Haven’t been celebrating Valentine’s for the past three years.
And if he’s here, I think I’d prefer staying in and have our own mini plan (:
We celebrated our Valentine 3 days earlier, just the night before he left.
Watched a movie and followed up with a dinner at Cafe Cafe.

Went there once during my 2007’s birthday.
Pictures are gonna be dark, I cant be using flash in such an environment. I don’t want everyone to be looking at me.


* Perfect interior but not spacious enough. We were sitting so close to both the tables beside, I don’t like it that way.
It feels like these people entered my comfort zone, I don’t have my own privacy. They shouldn’t have put so many tables there.


* My date (:


* Yours truly.

No pictures of food cause I really don’t wanna use flash.
We ordered half dozen escargot, foie gras, tiger prawn and lamb shank.
Tiger prawn and foie gras was goood! They gave some cranberry jam or whatever jam it’s called to go along with foie gras, really nice combination.
Escargot, I prefer The Ship and lamb shank is a disappointment.
Too dry, I prefer it to be juicier and the meat more tender.
Bill came up to Rm250+ and Ben likes this place. (:
Coming here on normal days will be good but I don’t think it’s a wise idea to come on festive days.
Big no no on Valentine’s, I don’t wanna have a dinner for six when I plan to have dinner for two.

Present him something that he really wanted (:
And also a box for him to bring back over to Melbourne with 47 different things inside.
Each day there’s something waiting for him in the box and by the time the box is empty, I’ll be by his side. hee (:

We’re having a date tonight. Candles, movie, music and everything else.


* That’s us, ready for our date. Yes, we even dress up :D
I know I’d have fun tonight. Feeling so loved even though he’s not physically here.

Happy Valentine’s to everyone out there be it you’re attach or single.
I waited long enough to have someone in my life to celebrate Valentines with me again.
If you’re still waiting, have a little faith. I believe God prepared the best one for you, just that he/she have yet to walk into your life.

Lots of love ♥ (:

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Just a short update to tell that I wont be updating my blog in the next few days.
Not until Sunday.
Time constraint, don’t wanna waste a few hours sitting in front of my computer editing pictures and blogging.
I’ve got plenty of time to do that next week anyway.
I’ve got too much to update, lotsa pending pictures.

For the next few days, I’m gonna continue enjoying my Chinese New Year.
And my Valentine’s Day.
Spend all the time I have with ze boyf before the start of ‘6 weeks intensive training’.
Tell me, is 6 weeks long or short? Why does it sounds like 6 decades wtf.

Feels like rambling so much but I think I shall stop here.
Chinese New Year is still here, enjoy it before it’s gone again.
Continue collecting angpows, continue gambling, and continue eating cookies people.
Have a great Chinese New Year (:

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