This is what we do to entertain ourselves when we have nothing better to do.
This is also the most fun and the happiest thing we did together.
I love laughing at ourself. hee (:
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Happy cute chinese new year everybaddi!!
Wishing everyone a cute and prosperous new year all the way from hometown.
If you notice, there’s a pair of rabbit ear on my head bwahah.
What a chinese new year, i’m still not quite ready for it.
Not excited, no nothing.
Prolly because it’s a tad bit different this year, I’m back at hometown this early.
Which also means I’ll be back at KL early too. Friday night (:
Had reunion dinner this afternoon with the usual family members : mom, younger and elder brother, two aunts and a stoopid cousin. Yes, I dislike him nuff said.
Oh wait, and one extra person today. He must be real nervous bwaha.
And my elder brother’s gonna hate him for calling my brother uncle wtf. HAHAH!!
I’m bored. Always bored when I’m back at hometown but also as always, I’ve got my little mischievous cousins to entertain me (:
I wish all of you a very ang ang chinese new year.
Gamble and win more :D
Little did I know that as years passed me by, I subconsciously turn into a girl who no longer dares to fall in love.
I was daring enough to let myself get hurt all over again and again. And I told myself, no I’m not the type of girl who will stay away from love just because it hurts me for I believe one day, things will turn out differently.
But I guess I lost faith and that little bit of spark that burns in me after all the hurt I went through half a year ago.
Just come to realise, I really am afraid of falling in love again. Afraid of just surrendering my heart entirely like how I used to, afraid that all I get is just a crush on my heart at the end of the day.
I cant believe myself, I’m afraid of falling in love. This is insane.
I keep holding myself back, controlling my feelings like how an owner control his dog.
There’s like a war going on at the back of my head, tug-o-war.
I never like holding my feelings back, that is just so not me but that fear in me is so much more stronger.
I know I need to let go.
I probably am letting go.
I don’t know how to not fall in love with him when he’s such a lovable guy.
It’s almost like no effort is needed to love a guy like him.
I guess the dog is on the loss now, owner is letting it go.
The way he treats me, I know he is worth the risk.
some friend never agree all along.
never bother asking. never bother finding out.
never bother to listen to my side of story.
never bother standing in my shoes.
some friend that never bother.
perhaps only bother making own judgement.
it just hurt in a way to know that your friend never truly bothers how you feel deep down.
hurt plus disappointment with a little bit of anger.
maybe. just maybe i don’t need a friend like you in my life when i’m so insignificant in yours.
it still hurt as much and i’m not sure when it will stop hurting.
but i don’t live to please you.
i tried, chance were not quite given.
or it feels like it.
no, not over sensitive. i just know it.
tell me i’m wrong.
if you will.
but then again, i guess i’ll never see you the same anymore.
down with sickness.
cant wait to blog bout my short trip to port dickson but the pictures seems a little messy.
will be back in a day or two.
At this very moment, I feel so very bless.
And till this very moment I still do not know how it happened.
You came into my life without any warning, I wasn’t prepared to fall in love again but I’m glad I did.
You’re the sweetest thing that happened to me, sweetest boyf I ever have.
A person I’ve been longing to have for all these while, it’s like a fairytale come true for me.
Sometimes I just feel so lucky it’s like I’m in a dream, I cant believe it’s true.
I cant believe that finally I can have what I want. It does feel surreal.
I never had a boyf that sayang me as much as you do, that take care of me as much as you do, that worries about me as much as you do.
Never feel this appreciated before.
Although knowing that I’m so haunted by my past, you’re here readily to share my burden with me.
I just cant describe how bless I feel.
A person like you are someone I dream of having every night before I go to sleep and now every morning waking up knowing that I finally have you, I cant help but smile to myself.
Thanks for walking into my life wolf.
Thanks for accepting me for who I am and everything else.
Thanks for loving me.
Hope there’s many more months to come but for whatever that will happen, for now I’ll treasure every moment with you.
Hope today’s gonna be lotsa fun spending time together (:
♥ ♥ ♥